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https://www.si.com/college/2021/04/09/leaders-on-ncaa-remove-competition-states-anti-trans-athlete     IMO, those on the right supporting this legislation want this kind of reaction.  They want the boycotts, b/c they want the war with the LGBTQ community.  It stokes the base, drives the funding appeals.  It's a quandary.   Carolyn Marie

Welcome to Transpulse, Alex!        I am fairly new here and I just wanted to let you know that there are fantastic people here.   I'm sure you will be talking with others who have the same struggles as you soon.   I fully sympathize with you and respect your issues.   I just happen to have the exact opposite problems and needs.   You can still talk with me any time about any facet of gender issues.   I am far more Non-Binary, just from a female spirit.      much love, ---WILLOW--- 

@Susan R according to the item description it is supposed to be a water proof bond. I just tried going without the bra today and after about 7 hrs they were still 90% attached.  The forms I got were originally adhesive but not very good, basically just enough to stay in place with a bra. I did t try anything crazy (yet) just wanted to see if they really would stay on without a bra. I will let you how they hold up during workouts and such as I try them.    Forms are the Y-NOT silicone breast forms in Nude-C from Amazon   Adhesive kit is here https://www.glamourboutique.com/buy/breast-forms/breast-form-adhesives/budget-breast-form-adhesive-kit

Hello all,     Name is Alex and for about 15 years now I have struggled with my body dysmorphia- specifically referring to my breasts. I identify as nonbinary and don't prefer any pronouns. My legal name is Alex and that's what I prefer people to call me. I'm 6 ft (born female) and have size DD? (i dont know because I only wear sports bras...never been properly fitted for a bra but trust me, they're hard to miss) and again, for about 15 years have always worn double sports bras, taped them down, smush them across my chest so it looks like theres just pec muscles. I am a very outgoing and confident person but I know this has been limiting me for the past 15 years. I'm never comfortable having them out during sex, and everything else that involves them. I have called doctors offices to get quotes, briefly spoke about body dysmorphia to a therapist (who wasn't that great so that was a one time and done type of thing) but even if im home alone I dont choose to walk around topless (although I so desperately want to) because they're just there.... hanging out.     I really hope/pray that someone on this forum has gone through a similar experience and has chosen elective surgery to remove them. if this is you, PLEASE reach out to me. I would love to hear your experience.    Thank you all for your time. Have a wonderful night.

Shay,        I will have to read the book, I have never read it.   Jamie

It's really interesting, our stories are similar. I am 20 years older than you, but when I was your age is when it really hit me as well. A lot of things just kind of came together at that age for me and I realized I wanted to be like a girl, even tho I didn't really think of it in those terms. I was doing things like shaving my body hair, finding an excuse to use a women's razor even to shave my face, etc. Before that age I had still hated my facial and body hair, my voice, how I looked, but I just didn't make the connection. I don't think I thought of it as a phase, more like something I was scared to pursue so I quit. I wish I would have stuck with it. Since you are young, you do have plenty of time to explore it and see what really fits for you.

Greetings @leongreen and welcome.  It is not unusual to have feelings of doubt.   Particularly when you have made a change as you have.  As you are younger than I, it could be a phase but only you can say if this is so.  Remember you have time to mull this over before you decide to take further steps.  Take time to get comfortable with the "new" persona you are occupying.  Eventually you will determine if it fits or needs adjustment, just like a new shirt!  Also consider that you can evolve and still maintain certain attributes of your prior life that you find enjoyable or desirable to have.  There are no rules except the ones you make.  Do not confine yourself to a box.  The world is yours to live in!  Please join in the conversation.  I know you will be comfortable with the group here.    Cheers, Jani

Watched  Boy Meets Girl.   It was pretty good.   But now I'm crushing on Michelle Hendley.  I'll get over it.

And yet another lovely outfit...lookin good girl!😘

I had just about every breast form made in every material and size way back in the 80’s but I never splurged and bought a pair of those adhesive breast forms. I always wanted to try them but back then there was no internet to get reviews or ask anyone about them. Let us know how you like them. Are you able to jog, run, or go down a stairs and feel them move like the real thing? That’s what I was curious about so many years ago when I first heard they existed.   Susan R🌷

Welcome @leongreen, It’s a pleasure to meet you. It’s good to reach out with questions...especially gender related questions here. I personally can’t say I had this experience with sudden onset questioning of my gender. It’s something I always knew and had to deal with from the get go but I am sure there are others here who have had this happen to them. We all have such unique backgrounds and stories which make it nice to compare notes. I wonder if there was a recent trauma or trigger that brought this to the forefront. In my case, I was suppressing my GD the best I knew how but a few major triggers started the ball rolling to help me see I needed to complete my transition. Maybe something similarly related happened in your case too. It might be something to talk about with a close friend who you could trust as an ally. Maybe one or both of your parents even. I don’t know your family dynamics but if that was possible that would be another good place to start. They might help you with getting therapy to dig a little deeper into these questions you’re having regarding your Gender Identity.   I hope to read more of your journey as it develops. I think you’ve found a wonderful resource in this group so don’t be afraid to explore your feelings, emotions and ideas here. We are here to help!   Warmest Regards, Susan R🌷

More updates   I've been trying to see if I can get an earlier appointment with my endo but so far no luck, can't really go on the waiting list for cancellations because of my work schedule.  Got a gel nail kit ordered, supposed to be here sometime tomorrow.  Also got a new adhesive kit for my breast forms, so far it works great and I can go braless if I want to.  Spent the last couple of days playing "how in the heck does this go together?!" with a couple of exercise machines. But I got them together with only 5 spare parts (jk)

I am a 17 years old afab (assigned female at birth) and I had never experienced physical dysphoria up until a few months ago. Suddenly, of what felt like over a night, my body looked wrong, my voice sounded wrong, my long hair that I had insisted on growing out didn't fit me anymore.    The thing is that I was a very masculine kid and I was very non-conforming in the sense that I enjoyed doing and wearing whatever I wanted, regardless if it fit the expectations of my assigned gender or not. Recently I've been looking into every detail of my childhood to try to find something that could have been a sign, like that I hated my voice ect). And the thing is that only a couple of months ago I was wearing dresses and makeup and hair clips in my long hair and I felt totally content and confident, or so I think, I'm not really sure if I just enjoyed the male attention I got for being conventionally feminine.   Anyway all this to say, I got hit with sudden gender dysphoria, and I have since cut my hair and started to dress a little more masculine and honestly it's been very relieving. But at the same time I have this nagging feeling that I'm making a mistake and it's just a phase I should ignore. Has anyone else experienced this?   I hope you're all doing well

Well…  I kinda have an interest in historical clothing.  And since we were posting purses and stuff, I thought this was interesting in regard to historical women's pockets.    

Hey Kakileli I am a bit confused.  Are your parents the issues?  Do you or  do you not  live with them. If they are supportive then your are WAYYYYYY ahead of the game. Your only 13 that's plus. Your sis should matter if she not living with you, just keep your distant  However, if your parents and sis are not supportive  and your living with  them.  Then I am afraid Jackie is right and you should hev  her  advice until you can get out.  She right  it will be a rough , tough ,awful journey. As some you can try to get a pt job , save , research about support groups around you area.  You will all  need  to go to  TG therapist. if you can hold off until your 16 and self emancipate so you don't need  the parental permission then that might be a way out Be Careful, Stay safe