Odd Question, I Know

[Guest Alexander]

So I was kinda wondering what everyone's relationship with their curse was like.

Personally mine sends me into depression and denial. And a lot of pain. I have horrible PMS symptoms, but refuse to ever buy 'girly' medications like Midol or whatever the other ones are. I also went so far as to buy the 'feminine items' from an online wholesale place, so I wouldn't have to purchase them in person. Imagine my supreme embarassment when they arrived in a box with the product name stamped allover it.

I never kept up with my cycle, which was erratic anyway. And right now it really feels like my body is royally confused. I mean, I'm producing enough androgens naturally for me to have some facial hair, male body hair patterns, and (unless I'm delusional) lower my voice slightly, yet every so often my body goes haywire with female hormones all over again. What's the deal? (Rhetorical)I'm about 99% convinced that I have PCOS, which explains the androgens and their effects. I just wish my body would stop betraying me like this...

[Guest GoldenKirbichu]

Another transguy with potential PCOS! *celebrates*

... Not like it's a good thing of its own, it's just nice to have someone else in the same boat.

I... don't bleed anymore. I occasionally feel slightly more depressed/anxious/irritable than normal, but my bleeding has all but cessated completely.

Because I have the potential to develop cancer if I don't, I have to take progesterone pills, which induce an artificial bleeding. My hormones go wildly out of control and I become very suicidal by the second day I'm on the pills. My body obviously doesn't like progesterone.

[Flint]

When i'm on time of month, i go crazy...Into suicdal mode. And self harm so much it's unbelieviable. At the time i know there is not much logic to this but at the time i get it in my head, if i cut myself enough..bleed elsewhere...then maybe that bleeding....i dont want, will stop.

[Guest mr_marc]

When its my time of the month i just get exstreamly moody and easily wound up. And suffer with pain, apart from that im ok but i feel so ill and repulsed>< and freak if any one tries to touch me. apart from my bf (like hugs and kisses) but thats it lol.

[Guest Huff]

amazing that this topic would come up right now...

last week I had another dreaded bleeding fest. For a long time, cramps, etc. have been so painful that I writhe on the floor in pain for a few hours... even WITH lots of tylenol. Last month, it was so bad that I had dry heaves. This past week, not only did I loose lots of clots (fairly common for me) but also thin strip of tissue about an inch and a half long. I think I'm allergic to estrogen! I'm a little upset at my doctor, since she didn't call me back about it. I dunno... it seems to me like having actual tissue just decide to come out of your body is not a good thing. six more weeks until I can start T and shut off estrogen production. I really liked it when I was first in the army and super-buff and it shut down on its own.

[Guest GoldenKirbichu]

amazing that this topic would come up right now...

last week I had another dreaded bleeding fest. For a long time, cramps, etc. have been so painful that I writhe on the floor in pain for a few hours... even WITH lots of tylenol. Last month, it was so bad that I had dry heaves. This past week, not only did I loose lots of clots (fairly common for me) but also thin strip of tissue about an inch and a half long. I think I'm allergic to estrogen! I'm a little upset at my doctor, since she didn't call me back about it. I dunno... it seems to me like having actual tissue just decide to come out of your body is not a good thing. six more weeks until I can start T and shut off estrogen production. I really liked it when I was first in the army and super-buff and it shut down on its own.

Oh man. That's real worrying.

I tend to lose a lot of clots too, but that's 'cause mine builds up. I never did take estrogen well though... my body's hormonal cycles were all... fluxing.

[Guest Sergei]

This is when I drink the most. I can't stand the way it makes me feel. It's like a reminder that however hard you try, and however well you pass, you still arn't what you were meant to be. My body reacts badly, I also get sick and have terrible diarrhoea during that part of the month. I'm sure it's my body reacting badly to the female hormones rushing through it that shouldn't be there!

[Guest Nicholas Aiden]

I just want it to go away. It has never been a "regular cycle". It has never ever been normal, I get it every other month or so, but its so horrible. Its not a normal amount of blood, its like 4 months in one week.... I guess I am lucky cause I get it less often, but for a week its like 3x the pain, 3x the blood, and I am 3x unpleasant to be around...

ugh its just disgusting

[Guest GoldenKirbichu]

I just want it to go away. It has never been a "regular cycle". It has never ever been normal, I get it every other month or so, but its so horrible. Its not a normal amount of blood, its like 4 months in one week.... I guess I am lucky cause I get it less often, but for a week its like 3x the pain, 3x the blood, and I am 3x unpleasant to be around...

ugh its just disgusting

That's like me on the pills. It's a horror. Like three months' worth of progesterone, three months worth of bleeding, three months worth of misery all crammed into seven days.

[Guest Darrel]

Wow, am I the only transman who has regular periods and doesn't care about them? I mean, I'd LOVE to have them gone for good, but until the surgery they're here. I kind of look forward to it because the sooner I have it, the sooner I'm done with it, and then pads make it appear as if I have some male genitals. Mmm, I love the poof in the pants.

I've usually been somewhat regular. Not on time, exactly (Although I do have one every month, just some are three weeks, others five or six), but always dependable on cramps. Lately, every period has brought more and more clumps. I've come to the point now where they gush out the size of almonds, or bigger. About four or five on my heavy days, too. It's strange.

And wow, Huff, I really think your doctor needs to take that seriously. It does not sound healthy.

[Guest Huff]

And wow, Huff, I really think your doctor needs to take that seriously. It does not sound healthy.

Oh the joys of being in the VA medical system... the only possible good news about it is that they MIGHT, MAYBE consider doing a hystorectomy (sp?) for me since there is some kind of obvious pathology there, which would be one less surgical cost. It's kind of a bummer to have free healthcare when they won't cover any trans-related stuff (hormones, surgery).

MK

[Guest Mr. Fox]

My period is irritatingly heavy and painful. There's also always this point when it seems to have stopped, but it hasn't, and it comes back with a vengeance. I'm prepared for that now. At least my period became regular almost from the start. This is not really related, but does anybody else find it odd that menstruation is a rite of passage. You know, "Oh, you're a woman now! I'm so proud!" Woo. You're bleeding. That's freakin' amazing.

[MaryEllen]

I guess it kinda depends on which side of the fence you are standing on. I'd love to be able to have a period. Anyone wanna trade?

MaryEllen

[princecharmless]

ME FIRST ME ME ME ME ME MaryEllen! Pick me

[MaryEllen]

If only it were physically possible. I'd take you up on your offer in a second.

MaryEllen

[Guest eragon]

I go into the land of dilusions when its that time, mania insues, because I know jake can handle it, I let him have that pain and go on wiht my life, jake is a alter of mine who deals wiht enough pain that a little more dosent hurt him

[Guest GoldenKirbichu]

Alternate personalities?

I don't really identify with my genitals much. So it's more the intense pain that bothers me, and the things the hormones do to my head, than the bleeding itself.

[Guest Matthew74]

I hate it. I guess I'm also pretty lucky because mine is pretty irregular...I only get it every few months, but when it comes it hurts like someone is stabbing me with a knife. When I get it, I feel paranoid, like I'm giving off some weird pheromone and everyone can tell and they're all staring at me. It’s disgusting, and it’s like a constant reminder that I’m not male on the outside even when I am on the inside. Honestly, I don’t know how anyone could celebrate the fact that they were bleeding. It really, really is like a curse, and I can't wait until the day it's gone forever.

[Guest silverpetals]

I guess it kinda depends on which side of the fence you are standing on. I'd love to be able to have a period. Anyone wanna trade?

MaryEllen

hmm. i love to be able to, but i don't think i'd love to. maybe once or something, but it doesn't sound great anyway

i would trade, but only because it must be so much worse for all of you

sorry guys for coming into the ftm room without being invited. again.

happy christmas

[Guest GoldenKirbichu]

hmm. i love to be able to, but i don't think i'd love to. maybe once or something, but it doesn't sound great anyway

i would trade, but only because it must be so much worse for all of you

sorry guys for coming into the ftm room without being invited. again.

happy christmas

No problem, coming in here is fine as long as you don't point and laugh. (:

It's not great. Although it is a reminder of femininity (blegh) it's not fun for anyone.

[Guest Michelle M]

Oh nos, another girl has invaded the boys' clubhouse! Cooties, run!

I'm really sorry this happens to all you guys, I had no idea. It is comforting to know I'm not the only one who hates the hormones I was born with, though. (Even though I'm on the other side of the fence.)

[Guest Rika-chama]

When mine comes i get even more moody and irritable. I can't stand it at all. Just another reminder that I'm not actually a guy. It's disgusting and gross and I hate it. I would like to get on some pill that stops it but my mom said that with all the medication I'm on right now she doesn't want to over-medicate me. Makes sense but I still want it to go away.

I remember one of my MtF friends telling me how she wouldn't want periods. Later when we were talking aobut them she said that if she had them then at least she would be a real girl. I wish it was possible for MtFs and FtMs to trade body parts

Ni-paa~