Addiction And On-break From Hrt

[Guest Danielle4Life]

Hello All!

It's me Danielle again! I'm not quite sure if this is where I can post this but I suppose it wouldn't be a problem. I have been on estrogen for 6 months and I got off after that because I needed to work things out. It seems like I'm trying to figure out if it is right for me, but it's almost as if I am fighting with the social male ideals that were put in my head as a child so that I can be who I am. I have a serious problem with becoming sterile but I have also stored my sperm. I am starting to think because I have used self gratification as a tool (that's my addiction) to hide my transsexuality, I eventually became addicted to it and I cannot stop doing it. I'm starting to think it might be a combination of being transsexual and also have transsexual fetishisms. Despite this, because I have masturbated for so long, I have become so used to the feeling of having erections (something I started to notice decline on hormone treatment plus the atrophy). I hope I can find someone I can talk to personally about these things... Anyone here in this boat?

Cheers,

God Bless,

Danielle

[Carolyn Marie]

Danielle, I looked through your old topics and didn't see mention anywhere that you had been

to a gender therapist before starting HRT. If that is the case, I can not urge you strongly enough

that you do seek out therapy.

It is clear that you are conflicted about transitioning to the female form. That is a huge life-changing

decision that shouldn't be taken lightly. In order to determine if HRT is right for you, you need those

therapy sessions. The folks here, while offering support and their experiences as a guide, cannot

diagnose you or tell you what is right for you. You must have that interaction with a therapist to

resolve your conflicts and decide who you truly are.

I hope what I've said is helpful.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Danielle,

Your questions are those that should be asked of your therapist. Athough fetishism is not unusual, the tenor of your questions need replies from a qualified therapist and an endo. Even though many people here are undergoing HRT, we cannot claim that we know that you should expect in terms of arousal and functioning. Each person's experience with HRT has a unique component to it. What happens with one person does not necessarily happen with another.

You are under a doctors care... right?

Brenda

[Guest Danielle4Life]

Danielle,

Your questions are those that should be asked of your therapist. Athough fetishism is not unusual, the tenor of your questions need replies from a qualified therapist and an endo. Even though many people here are undergoing HRT, we cannot claim that we know that you should expect in terms of arousal and functioning. Each person's experience with HRT has a unique component to it. What happens with one person does not necessarily happen with another.

You are under a doctors care... right?

Brenda

Hey Brenda!

Thanks for your response! Yes I am under a doctor's care and I am seeking therapy. I was seeing a therapist also whilst hormonally transitioning, but she was fired and I believe that might have been a huge blow to my morale. I am now seeing a different therapist who is trying to work this stuff out with me before I do go on hormones again and so I can clear this stuff. Perhaps I don't need to do it, but that doesn't make me any less of a woman. I suppose it's just seeing what will happen right now. I also have a Pastor who's helping me on my Christian end. He doesn't believe that it's a sin necessarily because of it's deep complexity, and he is very interested in people like you and I and wants to learn more.

Cheers and God Bless!