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Guest N.Chaos

Misplaced,

This is supposed to be home,

Supposed to be a safe place,

Something I've known

All along,

I've always felt betrayed

By a body that lays

Between the lines that they say

Unabashed

Is how I'm speaking nowadays,

All of the ways,

Thought I was gay,

Just go the love away

I'm unforgiving,

And I'm forgiving not a thing

Settling back to be the king,

I'll be the one to buy her a ring.

I'm a mistake,

I'm just a fake,

I'm just a walking joke

Born as a lie,

Wanted to die,

Identity starts to choke

I played the game,

I tried to fail,

I gave up long ago

They'll never understand,

This thing,

Confusion just won't go

So ugly,

Is how I've been told I am,

Crossdressing freak on the lam,

Told that the penis makes the man

So peed off,

Is how I'm living my life

Retribution calling to me,

I'm still calling her wife

So loving what?

Is what I'm asking to you,

Preaching the lies that you do,

Tell me that MY love isn't true?

So who asked you?

To put your two cents in,

Hate's dripping down your chin,

And you're still calling me a sin?

I'm a mistake,

I'm just a fake,

I'm just a walking joke

Born as a lie,

Wanted to die,

Identity starts to choke

I played the game,

I tried to fail,

I gave up long ago

They'll never understand,

This thing,

Confusion just won't go

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Hi Nick,

Very well written! This from one who has no real poetic understanding, unfortunately.

Did you notice that there's a section for poems? Lots of good poems there, and yours should be moved so that it will get noticed.

Is that okay with you?

Love, Kat

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Guest N.Chaos

Ahaha...I'm really sorry about that, I just joined and I'm pretty much still clueless X_X Yeah, move it definitely, sorry about that!

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So you write poetry, paint and do pencil sketches - and all very well - I am a bit jealous!

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest N.Chaos

Haha...pen, mostly, but yeah...

I also sing, play guitar, and cook the best Gosh darned chili. I have a lot of free time and never had friends growin' up.

Eclectic should be my middle name, lol

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James
Haha...pen, mostly, but yeah...

I also sing, play guitar, and cook the best Gosh darned chili. I have a lot of free time and never had friends growin' up.

Eclectic should be my middle name, lol

Can I try your chili then? :P

I loved it.

Dang! Why can't I be talented like that? :P

*hugs*

LeeAsher

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Guest N.Chaos

Bwahaha...I'm so going to enter it into a contest one of these days, I try not to be narcissistic but it's just like "God loves you that is tasty"

Haha, you know what's ironic? It's the ONLY way I show any emotion. The stuff I write, my paintings and such, it's the only outlet I have. In reality, I've made it a point to train myself to almost never emote, and it kinda creeps people out at times, lol.

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Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James
Bwahaha...I'm so going to enter it into a contest one of these days, I try not to be narcissistic but it's just like "God loves you that is tasty"

Haha, you know what's ironic? It's the ONLY way I show any emotion. The stuff I write, my paintings and such, it's the only outlet I have. In reality, I've made it a point to train myself to almost never emote, and it kinda creeps people out at times, lol.

I am glad that you show your emotion through your work, on account that you don't do it in person. That's okay. It happens. It's how some people deal, and well that's your way. Don't let anyone tell you that you need to change. You express yourself and that is a good idea. Now I would be super worried if you never expressed yourself in any way. But you do, and you have us to talk to as well. :)

*hugs*

LeeAsher

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Haha...pen, mostly, but yeah...

I also sing, play guitar, and cook the best Gosh darned chili. I have a lot of free time and never had friends growin' up.

Eclectic should be my middle name, lol

Teach me to play guitar? :P I fail at guitar. I tried but I'm too inpatient.

Nice poem. :)

MB

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Guest N.Chaos

Lol...I'm a terrible teacher, I get flustered so easy and get reaaaaaaaally snappy. I tried teaching my girlfriend to play bass and she gave up so quick, andI got really agitated with it.

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