Genderqueer Transitions

[Guest Chrysee]

More and more it seems as if what some of us yearn for is what others struggle to rid themselves of. I would give anything for breasts and hips!!

[Guest Asuri]

More and more it seems as if what some of us yearn for is what others struggle to rid themselves of. I would give anything for breasts and hips!!

It`s ever the same. Life is just a bowl of paradoxes

[Guest jody h]

i wonder if the therapists could accept a person wanting the body of one but not presenting wholey in that role. in the uk it seems that they have a set perception of how you should be. if a cis woman can present as a man why can a man not present as say andro but yet have srs to correct the body disforia. some countries now do not demand srs to get female status so it does seem that the criteria is how you present not how you feel. eventually the system will have to adjust to acept the spectrum of gender dysforia. for me i crave my female body but at 6"2 with large hands and male facial features im stuck with facing trying to badly pass as a woman as the psych expect. what i want is the hrt to see how femanine i can look and that i know will take time . i aim to get people questioning if im a lesbian or a transman whoes not had surgery and going back to the female side if that makes sense.

[Guest Chrysee]

I have friends who are convinced that my inabillity to get a doctor to prescribe hormones has little to do with insurance limits and more to do with my status as an androgyne.

Face it, it starts out with people not able to understand and only gets worse the more you try to explain it.

Hope you get someone on your side Julie Anne!

[Guest Loktipus]

I just want top surgery. I don't have sex, and I'm fine using prosthesis if I ever do. I already have a very deep voice and facial hair so that's not an issue for me.

I want a family one day and I'm not optimistic about being capable of meeting the requirements for adoption or affording IVF.

[Guest android]

I would first like to say I fully support any decision people make on what kind of transition they want to make. I'm more looking for answers than making any judgements.

Now maybe I'm confused about Androdynes but doesn't that mean you are somewhere in between? I'm not sure why Andro's would be talking about transitioning. The Only thing I can figure is everyone has there own idea of where in the middle they want to be. But if you are transitioning aren't you MtF/FtM? This is confusing.

For myself I can't see transition in my future because I'm not 100% woman on the inside. Yes I feel mostly woman and I really do wish I was born a woman but I wasn't. Maybe if I could say I was 100% woman on the inside I would make some changes to myself but then wouldn't I be MtF? Having said that if I was given the choice to simply swap bodies with a woman and have a 30% male brain I would do it. I just can't do srs because trying to pass seems like such an issue and there's no guaranty everything will work down there. Also the fact that I do like women is a big factor.

I'm still trying to figure things out for myself a bit. Do I sound like an Androdyne or am I MtF? Can people transition still be Andro?

[Guest Chrysee]

Well, my ideal me, if I was young enough and had the resources is best described by a word that I've been scolded for using. (Hint: it rhymes with 'hemale.' That would give me breasts, butt & hips and I would not only have the outdoor plumbing but be able to still draw, penis & fire!

I still sport facial hair but if I fully transitioned as mentioned above, I would go with a sort of Salvador Dali moustache.

This would be, in my estimation, a full blown Andro and not an MTF. Breasts notwithstanding, no M.T.F. is sporting a penis.

As it stands now, I would give anything to be on H.R.T., but would not have the money or probably the time left on Earth to do the job as I would have had I Come Out say forty years ago.

With love & Misty Watercolor Memories!

Cissy Priscilla

[Guest endthesilence]

Hi all. I am 29 y/o trans andro person. I spent ten years on hormones started ERT when I was 17. I lived 'full time' for most of those ten years. Now at 29 for the past 3 to 4 years Ive been off hormones and shaved my head. (My hair was past the middle of my back... super cute:) I don't feel I am living as a 'man' again but I do feel different. I sobered up (four years clean in March) and in that process I found that I am both sexes and both genders ALL the time. Its really confusing but I had SRS planned and plain tickets and 3 weeks before I realized this was not something I could do to myself to feel real. I feel real allowing myself to go in and out off transition at any point of the day. So far the biggest thing I wanna do is not hate myself if I feel more mannish then my female self and allow the process (whatever that is) to happen naturally.

[Guest Chrysee]

Hi all. I am 29 y/o trans andro person. I spent ten years on hormones started ERT when I was 17. I lived 'full time' for most of those ten years. Now at 29 for the past 3 to 4 years Ive been off hormones and shaved my head. (My hair was past the middle of my back... super cute:) I don't feel I am living as a 'man' again but I do feel different. I sobered up (four years clean in March) and in that process I found that I am both sexes and both genders ALL the time. Its really confusing but I had SRS planned and plain tickets and 3 weeks before I realized this was not something I could do to myself to feel real. I feel real allowing myself to go in and out off transition at any point of the day. So far the biggest thing I wanna do is not hate myself if I feel more mannish then my female self and allow the process (whatever that is) to happen naturally.

All I can say to that is: "Wow!"

I know that feeling of thinking that by ridding yourself of the male side you'd be missing just as much of yourself as when you denied your inner girlie.

What a moment it would have been had you arrived at this realization aboard the plane.

Anyway, welcome to both parts of you.

With love,

Cissy

[Guest jody h]

well ill keep this short but after seeing a new shrink i am closer to trying antiandrogens. i managed to explain that shyness had always stopped me explaining things and given me mood swings along with depression and he was great. i explained i was so worried about passing as female as it seemed the gid clinics want you to be to get on the hrt ect that it was hopeless. he was very straight forward and said how you present as a female is your choice not theirs,if you want to be a butch looking woman then as long as you can cope with that then its your choice as long as its as a woman. he is starting me on anti anxiety meds first to see if that helps. if i still feel like trying anti androgen's to then see if the feelings stay the same when the testosterone is dropped then he will ok it.

[Guest CMM]

I'm a biological male. I feel like a female in a male's body, but don't want to change how God made me. So I decided to be Androgynous... best of both worlds.

My goal is to look like a girl, without boobs. Not quite sure how I'm going to achieve this. I'm on Spironolactone, Finasteride and Tamoxifen now. I want to add an estrogen, but don't want the boobs that go with it. I'm wondering if Tamoxifen would counteract the estrogen, only on the breast tissue.

I'm hoping the regimen will help regrow my hair where it's thinned. I'm getting laser hair removal on at least my face. I'd eventually like to get full body done as well.