First Night of Intensive Outpatient Programing

[Guest Emily Ray]

Fail! If the insurance companies intention was to make me feel worthless than the succeeded. I don't think that was their intent so I am going to label this as a FAILURE! Though the people in the group were nice and supportive, it was clear to me that something was wrong. Everyone in the group was either going to college or working in their chosen careers. That really is difficult for me to deal with because I'm to "sick" to be in school according to the VA. Anyways, I will be amazed if I make 2 weeks of this without going into the hospital again. Please remind me how this is suposed to be making me better.

Huggs

Emily

Edited May 1, 2012 by JJ
Language. initials for non T & C terms are not okay either

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Emily - judge yourself by comparison to YOU - the old you, the new you, the future you. Forget about comparisons with others.

You are just fine AS YOU! Look how far you have come - and laugh at those others - 'cause they have no CLUE of all you have had to overcome. You are one tough broad!

Lizzy

[Carolyn Marie]

Emily, I agree with Lizzie. You aren't in competition with anyone. You are there to get better, and find a way out of your eating disorder. Neither the insurance company nor the therapy center have any control over the backgrounds of the other program participants, and it certainly isn't a conspiracy to make you feel bad.

Concentrate on why you are there and what you want to accomplish with the program. Please don't spend your mental energy worrying about what others may or may not feel about you.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Svenna]

Hey, Girl!

Sorry to see this so long after you posted, sure hope you are feeling better now, sounds like a tough time...

Just another bump, though, on the road to wellness and stability. You have been through worse and come out of it smelling like a rose..

Trust your inner motivations, disregard the unsettling and distracting negative thoughts, stay true to your real objectives. Side drama won't help a thing...

Love and another BIG hug for you!

Svenna

[Guest Emily Ray]

Yesterday I had to go to the ER. I was very dehydrated with all the symptoms. After trying to rehydrate during the morning and not succeeding I went to the VA. They gave me a liter of fluid and something to treat the nausea and headache. I didn't get out in time to go to IOP, so I will have to make up the day this Saturday.

I want to get better, it is just very hard to do without the proper support, and right now I'm not getting it.

Thanks for the good thoughts.

Huggs

Emily

[Svenna]

Hugs for you, child!

Hang in there...

Glad to see you got the hydration you needed, ya gotta have water, yep!

Love, love and patience, Svenna

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Good thoughts

More good thoughts

Even more good thoughts!

hee hee

Lizzy

[KathrynJulia]

Emily, just remember and feel the love of the people who know you best. You have poured out your heart to us and we love you for that. Don't judge yourself by people who don't know you. We know you and we are the ones to judge yourself by. We are at all different levels of our journey just as you are. We to have fears and have doubts at times just as we know those thoughts upset you to because you have them to. We will never judge you because we to are experiencing the struggle for acceptance as well. Just be strong and when you can't, call us and pour your heart out. I'm listening and I have strong arms to hug you and a shoulder for you to cry on and empathy and understanding. My first contacts with mental health people was pretty negative. My experiences today are incredibly different. Please keep in touch with us and we will keep in touch with you. Katheryn.