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[Guest Alexx21]

I have had enough of this (censored word) sick of being fat , going to eat under 1000 calories a day ( i know that i should eat more than that but i don't care ) and try and exercise more

i find it really hard to exercise because of my back and hip pain ( i hurt my back and hip the same day that i met my husband sliding from the bath room to the phone i slipped and landed on my hip been having pain since and i have seen a dr about it ) i can only do steps and weights and swimming right now i don't have anything i can wear for swimming at the moment .

I don't care if it kills me am i going to get down to an acceptable weight am sick of not being able to fit into trousers and only wearing joggys

I have done nothing in the last week or so but eat (censored word) and i have put on weight

Am sick of being the fat one .

i would be able to get clothes that fit me if i was thin

Its --Censored Word-- about time that i need to work harder than i have before.

Edited June 5, 2012 by Alexx21
getting around the word filter by ***ing out some of the letters of a word is just as against the rules as using the word it's self

[Guest angels wings]

Alexx hey don't be so hard on yourself . I lost 70 kg and that was by eating the proper calories I was actually eating more . I exercised in the water and did weight and a bit of cardo as my fittest went up . It's best done the proper way or else ur body's metabolism don't work properly . It thinks ur starving it so it goes into sleep mood . Look at how many calories is right for u by ur weight and height and work on that . U will be surprised by the results

[Guest CariadsCarrot]

Mate I understand feeling desperate to loose weight by any means necessary, especially when a physical problem stops you from being able to exercise as much as you want, seriously cutting your calories is not the way to do it though. Did you know that eating under 1200 for a female body type and slightly more for a male body type (I'm sorry I don't know whether you are on T yet and I think that is part of what converts your body from needing a females calorie amount to a males amount...although I'm not 100% certain so maybe someone who does know can fill in those facts for sure for me) actually causes your body to go into starvation crisis mode and can cause it to retain fat and lose muscle mass instead (muscle mass is what boosts your fat burning ability) so you can actually end up putting ON weight instead of losing it?

I've fought that cycle for years and I actually found that when I started eating MORE calories (healthy ones in nutritious food up to 1200 a day and spread through 3-4 meals) was when I finally started losing weight! Unfortunately, I've struggled to maintain the weight loss because my ability to exercise is so limited so I do understand and feel for you 100%

My advice would be to try to get something to swim in and do as much of that as you can manage because it's a non-weight bearing form of exercise that is best for injuries like you have. I know that swimming as a transman can feel uncomfortable because of the what to wear issue and how exposed your body is in whatever you wear and the which changing room issue. It's something I struggle with too. I have found a small pool in a gym that is often empty and find that minimises the problems as much as possible.

As far as what to wear...I know there is a swim binder from underworks which I really want to get but I can't afford that right now so all I could come up with is men's swim shorts and on the top one of those female tankini things in a reasonably non girly colouring. It's not idea but for now it works well enough that I can overcome the dysphoria with the thought that I am working towards loosing the weight that accentuated the female curves and working to get my body as healthy as possible for the day I can finally get T and top surgery!

I have heard of other guys wearing rash guards or a normal binder with a t-shirt over it (although I'm not sure if they would let you in a lot of pools around here with a t-shirt or something that didn't look like swim wear).

If you can't manage swimming then try to stick to the weights you say you can do and maybe some hand cycling or something for cardio. I try to do that sometimes when my upper body is not too painful and unstable with my disability and I think it works out ok even though I don't lose weight as fast as my partner who is able to do a full body work out does.

Basically try to work with what you've got exercise wise but please don't damage your body with seriously restricting calories. It probably wont work anyway and even if it did it would gradually weaken your body and make it less able to work for you in your transition.

Gabe

[Guest Alexx21]

i feel like i need to purge after i eat but if my husband herd me he would stop me ....i know i should eat normally every time i do its ends in a binge and i cant seem to be able to just stick to under the daily amount with the 1000 calorie i feel like am in control of what goes into my body

The exercise are really slow at moving the weight and i end up giving up are a few weeks of doing it ...unsure what to do about that i just dont have the motivation after a while of doing it ...am not on T yet ...am also worried that it will make me gain even more weight so am not sure if am going to go on t or what ...

As for swimming i cant afford a trans mans swimming binder right now .. i need to see what i can do about as for the changing rooms i get change in the disabled toilet shower room/ changing room ...i have yet i even go in the mens toilet when am out and about

am not in guy mode full time yet unsure when i will be i have yet to come out to the rest of my family

ill try and eat more normally

Alexx

[JJ]

Alexx the reason you are hungry is that the vast majority of people need a minimum of 1200 calories a day to keep their body functioning. When you get less than that on a consistent basis then your body chemistry changes and your body holds on to every molecule of fat it can. You get food cravings and lose energy.

In order to avoid that while I was losing the 200 lbs I lost I took one day a week and ate whatever I wanted without feeling guilty about it. Worked like a charm for me. Also gave me the energy to exercise because I didn't go into starvation mode and I never binged because I was not being told to do so by a body that thought it was starving and had to cram any food it found. Primitive responses from our evolution as hunter/gatherers and almost impossible to circumvent for long. That is why the studies have proven that the fattest people are those who diet most and restrict calories the most.

You have enough to deal with and fight without fighting your own body in a battle that physiology has determined you will ultimately lose, Yes you can lose weight restricting calories below 1200 and suffering but eventually it will not only come back but you will gain more AND you will not be able to eat as much as before without gaining weight because you have changed your metabolism. That is hard scientific fact. The good news is that you can reset your metabolism with 15 min a day of cardio exercise-walking fast or whatever exercise you enjoy -and healthy eating. You'll feel better mentally and emotionally too because the exercise relaxes muscles and releases endorphins while being really in control of eating feels great. Powerful.

It helps to track everything you eat every day except your eating day as well as your exercise. I use livestrong.com's Myplate feature which is free, And though I am no longer wanting to lose I still do it because of the sense of control over my body and eating it gives me.

By the way I lost almost all that weight while on T. Yes it made me a bit more hungry but also upped my stamina for exercise and made me enjoy exercising far more than I ever had. I hate formal exercising so I hike every day-I hike 3 hours but that was because my age made it much harder to lose weight -for most people it isn't necessary. What is necessary is to find an exercise you like. I used to set my exercise bike up in front of the TV and only let myself game when I rode but found I prefer hiking and it worked better for me

Good luck with the weight loss. Be healthy and be safe with it and it feels great

Johnny

[Guest Alexx21]

when am eating normally i eat things like chips( french fries ) ,veggie burgers ( there 90 calories ) veggie 1/4 pounders ( there 250 calories ) and other veggie soup , v bean and veggie sausages , macaroni ...once a week take away witch is 1/2 pizza and chips or a veggie burger with chips , chocolate and crisps ( 75 calories for the crisps) yogurt and cereal

when am not eating right i have veggie burgers , half the amount of chips or have veggies , rice cakes ( 30 calories etc ) slim a soup ( 75 calories ) and salad , yogurt

So i need to eat more of the not eating right stuff to my normal stuff ... and not eat chocolate or crisps ( chips )

apart from once a week when i get my take out i can get a baked potato instead of chips and pizza or chips and veggie burger have cereal and yogurt ( i don't like milk )

I will track everything that i eat and exercise that i do ...and hopefully i can lose some weight

Alexx