Just Found Out I Am Androgynous.

[Guest androgynous]

I've been having the thought for a couple of years, and now finally it sank in last week. I'm Androgyne. I'm certain of this, and I want to live what I feel I am. I haven't got the experience yet but I feel such peace being poured over myself that I can't wait to live and express the way I feel.

A short recap of who I am.

30 year old male sex born, but I never felt male for 100% I have all sorts of fem treats, movements, speech. I also have lots of girlfriends and almost no male friends. I can talk with girls better than with males, and sometimes I advise fems about their style or choice of clothing without being aware I did. I also seem to see and visualize as male and as female, being creative as well as rational.

I am really excited about this, and I hope some of you have some advice to go about this? I really want to start to use nail polish, I really want this. I always took care of my hands (lotions to make them softer) all that kind of things. As a teenager I also made my own perfume and gave it to girl friends, etc etc! you get the picture!

However I do like to notice that I feel it's a gender issue and not a sex issue, and I mainly are attracted to girls all my life.

It really feels like everything falls into place, it's like the picture becomes complete. Anyone understand this? it's like feeling truly free for the first time. It's almost 2009 here, and today I made the first step to tell people...

[Guest mia 1]

Happy New Year sister, and bring out the nail polish, so your toes also, we will all admire your choice of color,,,,,,,,,,,,,,You are androgynous because you said you are and think you are. stop worrying and start "oh my goshin" here I am home at last. Give your self a big hug from all of us here...............HNY Mia.

[Guest androgynous]

Happy new year! and thank you for the very kind reply!

[Sally]

Well, now you can spend the new year exploring your true feelings and the whole new world that has just opened for you.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest androgynous]

Thanks you, you are all beautiful and wonderful people!

[Sally]

I was surprised, no I was shocked to discover what wonderful people inhabbit the trans community.

I had been brought up like most people my age not even talking about transsexuals, the term itself was never spoken - they became the mysterious evil creatures that populated all of the places that nice people would never go.

Because of that, admitting to myself that I was indeed a transsexual was very difficult and to actually contact one of these sub- humans even over the Internet was frightening!

But then, I discovered that the trans community is just like any other section of society, with good and bad, rich and poor, nice and mean (not here) just people!

I have found that for the most part we tend to care more about how others feel, probably because of how we have been forced to feel about ourselves - who wants to put anybody else through that?

We are beautiful and wonderful people and we should proudly raise our banner high and proclaim to the world, "We don't have Gender Identity Disorders - We are the Gender Gifted!"

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Irielle]

Congratulations on your discovery! Isn't it great? It seems like every day I learn something new about myself. I do my nails also, I love manicured nails and I use clear polish on mine. And I do my toes, too. You have a whole new world and person to explore now and I know you will have lots of fun and a few bumps, too. We andros are very rare and truly gifted - and the people here are really nice. Welcome!

[Guest androgynous]

Congratulations on your discovery! Isn't it great? It seems like every day I learn something new about myself. I do my nails also, I love manicured nails and I use clear polish on mine. And I do my toes, too. You have a whole new world and person to explore now and I know you will have lots of fun and a few bumps, too. We andros are very rare and truly gifted - and the people here are really nice. Welcome!

Thanks Irielle!

Yes I feel like being born again, or at least got in touch with who I am. I was pretty much depressed about myself for so long. I couldn't figure out what it was. Until someone said to me: You'll have to figure it out for yourself, take some time and listen to yourself. And I followed the advice, the outcome was far from what I expected! And I feel really happy now, got the nerve to walk on the streets with my nail polish last few days haha, some people look, but also someone looked at me and smiled in a way like: I see for who you are! You can tell! that made me a bit shy, but yeah it's my first week so far. I do notice how stereotyped this world really is, and how gender treats are "learned" by people... Now I think like: "How awful for them... they have only one gender!"

I did notice that it's very hard to explain to friends, I told them. They take me for who I am, but said that they could not understand androgyny. Well they were happy for me, so that's a big win!

I want to dance!

[Guest Itzika]

Thanks Irielle!

Yes I feel like being born again, or at least got in touch with who I am. I was pretty much depressed about myself for so long. I couldn't figure out what it was. Until someone said to me: You'll have to figure it out for yourself, take some time and listen to yourself. And I followed the advice, the outcome was far from what I expected! And I feel really happy now, got the nerve to walk on the streets with my nail polish last few days haha, some people look, but also someone looked at me and smiled in a way like: I see for who you are! You can tell! that made me a bit shy, but yeah it's my first week so far. I do notice how stereotyped this world really is, and how gender treats are "learned" by people... Now I think like: "How awful for them... they have only one gender!"

I did notice that it's very hard to explain to friends, I told them. They take me for who I am, but said that they could not understand androgyny. Well they were happy for me, so that's a big win!

I want to dance!

Oh, geez. I've told two friends, but one of them had just come out as MTF and the other is her girlfriend, so it didn't take as much explaining--but the gf still said she's trying to wrap her brain around it. I brought up androgyny to one of my cisgendered guy friends and he basically said his brain was going to explode if I kept talking. And I didn't even tell him the person he went to prom with last year wasn't actually a girl. My ex doesn't know--he thought we were talking about him when my MTF friend let the word "androgyne" slip during a conversation--but my other friend who tests androgyne on the COGIATI does sort of know. I haven't formally informed her that I started self-identifying as androgyne, but I told her when I started considering it and I've been talking to her under the assumption that I am. I told my mom; she let me get men's cargo pants and kind of knows that I've been semi-binding with a sports bra that's a size too small, but doesn't see why I want a gender therapist. No one gets it. Even the ones who "get" it don't really get it.

After that rant...

Congratulations on your discovery! It's so nice to be freed from suffocating assumptions of gender roles, isn't it?

~Rey

[Guest androgynous]

Oh, geez. I've told two friends, but one of them had just come out as MTF and the other is her girlfriend, so it didn't take as much explaining--but the gf still said she's trying to wrap her brain around it. I brought up androgyny to one of my cisgendered guy friends and he basically said his brain was going to explode if I kept talking. And I didn't even tell him the person he went to prom with last year wasn't actually a girl. My ex doesn't know--he thought we were talking about him when my MTF friend let the word "androgyne" slip during a conversation--but my other friend who tests androgyne on the COGIATI does sort of know. I haven't formally informed her that I started self-identifying as androgyne, but I told her when I started considering it and I've been talking to her under the assumption that I am. I told my mom; she let me get men's cargo pants and kind of knows that I've been semi-binding with a sports bra that's a size too small, but doesn't see why I want a gender therapist. No one gets it. Even the ones who "get" it don't really get it.

After that rant...

Congratulations on your discovery! It's so nice to be freed from suffocating assumptions of gender roles, isn't it?

~Rey

I do read that some seem to be in constant struggle about gender. I wonder why I don't have that? It feels to me that I am finally hit home on myself, and enjoy myself more than ever nowadays. I can't believe it's only a phase or something... So personally speaking I don't want to see a therapist of some kind, because I have no doubts towards my feeling. I think that's due to the fact that I always felt to be androgynous, but never had the word for it, and never accepted it as such since everything is stereotyped. Oh yeah, at first I though it might be gay then, what else is there? But I wasn't gay. By far. I don't think I can tell my parents, they are way to stereotyped for this stuff and it would blow their minds for sure. It doesn't matter to me also to tell or not tell, since I live my life the way I want for many years, and were both relaxed about it. Just like sex, you can keep it private.

Thus, so far instead of being confused, I only got more complete. (if that makes any sense). Instead of being abnormal, I felt normal again in my own right. I'm not that long expressing it, but I do feel this: it's good not to focus a lot on it, especially the appearance. I like to play with my appearance, but for me it isn't really that important in relation for what I felt inside, as non-gendered or double-gendered.

[Guest Irielle]

I glad you feel complete. It's the same feeling I had, I bet, when I accepted the fact that I'm androgynous. I have always had so many parts of myself that were hard to fit together and reconcile with one another. When I discovered I was androgynous suddenly they all fit together and now I became a complete person and it feels wonderful!