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"Ive lost the armor of mine heart..."


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I've lost the armor of mine heart,

Though in the past it did its part.

To wield that shield of manly guise,

And block the world's most judging eyes.

But now the tables they have turned,

And thus mine shield it has been burned.

In ashe it rests around mine feet,

This heart no more hath safe retreat.

No more may I wrest life defended,

From fears and woes my heart unmended.

Laid bare my soul for all to see,

What lay beneath, mine heart's true me.

Too long was I a person faux,

Beviewed through haze, a fogged window.

This brume obscured the light inside,

Now that it shines, it cannot hide.

It seems as though this should feel right,

To bask amongst mine heart's new light.

Alas howe'er it also seems,

Mine heart hath lost its armor's sheens.

I hath no guard, nor ward or mail,

Protecting me from judgement's hell.

Exposed I sit in life's cruel jest,

Without the aid of armored crest.

Through means abound, try as I may,

Once shield is cracked, its gone away.

So now I stand with no defense,

'Gainst future blitz that may commense.

Ive lived, Ive loved, Ive lost all while,

Myself I hid 'neath manly guile.

And now world's eyes I must beface,

With unsheathed heart to take its place.

These are my feelings about having dropped the "male-facade" that was my life, but in-turn loosing the protection it provided me. I assume I am not the only one in our position that feels this way, so I wanted to share what I felt, since my heart cannot hide any longer.

This was my first ever attempt at writing in iambic pentameter, and I spent the last hour writing it. Hopefully it does not disappoint any of you who read Shakespeare, as he has (since around the age of 12) been one of my literary idols.

Armorless,

-Julie M.<3

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Thank you, all who read and/or responded :)

I have been trying too long to keep my emotions bottled up inside, and now that I have started expressing them through the literary wonder of poetry, I know that there will be much more writing from me in the very near future.

Take care all,

-Julie M.<3

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