Day NINE ZERO (90)

[VickySGV]

It is much more comfortable to sit and dilate these days. 6 more days on Dr. Bower's schedule for 3X dilations per day, and then down to 2X for another 90 days. It's a numbers game for sure, but I am feeling fine, and now a little antsy to get doing more with life. I still get the feeling in some ways that nothing has changed, and it gets more ordinary to reach for the toilet paper after I take a pee to the point I don't think about the changes there. My body though is me, I don't feel like I have had a "sex change" any more, except of occasional nerve twitches. I can't say I feel more like a woman than I ever have before -- almost a little disappointing -- but at the same time, I am more confident of being me, so my mind is freer than it had been.

I sometimes wonder if I was too lucky when I read what other people are going through post op. Should I be paranoid that something will go wrong?? Who needs the paranoia??? I do feel for these people though, but wonder if some of their issues were outside of the surgery. I also wonder if they had unreasonable expectations of what their life would be like.

Was my surgery painful for a while? Yes indeed it was!! Did it get better?? Very much so!! Do I look like a perfect female vulva does? Beats the hell out of me? Did I have adventures during my healing? Aw come on!! I posted about them here!! They marked my life but have not directed or controlled it.

The entire adventure and outcome are part of my NOW life and I am glad I made and achieved the outcomes.

[Guest rikkicd64]

You are so wonderful Vicky, I respect you so much, glad to hear you are doing well. You post a lot of wisdom and I know you have helped me greatly, I am so very happy for you,thank you for being such an honest person.

Hugs from Texas, Rikki.....

[VickySGV]

I love those Texas sized hugs Rikki, thanks so much!!

[Guest RockmtalQueen]

<--adds in a Texas /hug of her own

[Guest Billie De]

Ohh So much Congratulations are in order and a Huge hug..

I have been following many so posts about surgeries I just can't wait till I get my date and which Doc I am going to confirm with. I recently filed my Insurance paperwork with Doctor Bowers.. Now the long wait to see if it is Denied or approved.. If its denied then appeal if that doesn't work then I guess its lawyer time or off to Thailand.

Did you happen to write any posts of your experiences with Doc. Bowers..I tried to search but I keep locking up for some reason.

[VickySGV]

Billie -- yes I have a bunch in this forum and in the general Transsexual forum, they started back on January 11th or 12th and forward for a few weeks. If you sent paperwork in to Dr. Bowers, her practice manger Robin will be with you VERY quickly. They are very good people and make a wonderful team for Dr. Bowers,

[Guest]

HI Vicky,

Congratulations! I so appreciate that you have shared your experiences - they're most frequently footsteps that I'm following. I'm so happy that your recovery is so nearly complete.

I do hope that I'll be able to write a similar post in another 50 days!

Love, Megan

[Charlize]

Vicki your humor and wisdom are always a treat to read. I'm so happy you are getting free to pursue more of your ever-expanding world.

Hugs,

Charlie

[VickySGV]

I do hope that I'll be able to write a similar post in another 50 days!

My bets are that you make it just fine. You are going great guns on the way!!