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Relapsing Right Now...disapointed


Guest Misa

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Right at this very moment I'm under the infulence of exctacy and k, wish I wasn't, allthough it feels great the disapointment outways the effects, I'd been clean for months now. It was used as a way of coping with recent problems with a now ex girlfriend, at least that what I beleive, hearts racing, jaws clenching, cognitive seems fine though, its unfortunate I have another 9 of these pills and ketamine in a little brown pirate like treasure chest, why I have this, I was cleaning, found the stash, something came over me, I want my therapist :( My post is erratic, misspelled and abstract yet Im writing anyway, sorry

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Guest Kelly Ann

Hi Misa...can you do me a favor and call your therapist? You've mentioned your a little disappointed in yourself, well it's understandable...you were doing sooo well. Can you log into chat? If Not can you do me a favor and pick the phone up and call 911? You sound more than a little dis-jointed from your usual self...we're here for you Misa all you have to do is reach out and CHAT would be best B) Kelly Ann

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I wont do anything stupid, I called a friend of mine and he is over with me now, he is taking the drugs away, looking after me :) Just him being here makes me feel better, tis so nice to have a guy care about me, and not be weird around me, sorry for the odd post, im not all there right now... need music xo

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Guest Kelly Ann

thanks for getting a friend over Misa...now if they're REALLY a friend and you are to me take that stuff and...find the toilet...play bombs away...push the handle down and laugh. You came too far to quit...or give up and re-live the past. It's all out there in front of you. Keep us all posted OK? Kelly Ann

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Guest April63

I would stay away from all drugs at all costs. Do yourself a favor, pledge to not touch them ever again! Temporary relief will not cause any help in the long run. It may even cause despair. Like Kelly Ann said, chat. Let your feelings out. People can help you.

April

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Mmm. They are gone, he flushed em, was kinda funny for some reason, now im gonna go cuddle, probably pass out, and wake up[ with a 'look what you did!' headache hangover..thanks so much for talking, i dont think i would have called him otherwise, id be, who knows, all drugs gone thoughxo

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So you're feeling better. Well so am I. Life is tough when you're young and it isn't so easy when you're older but the mystery disappears.

When I was young and fighting off Saber Tooth Tigers in front of the cave, I was smoking pot and confessed to my dad that I was 'under the influence" and he asked me how could a young person with so many wonders of youth surrounding him, could ever think of changing reality was beyond him.

I didn't agree with him at the tome, but looking back,,psheww was he spot on...

Food for thought,,,,Mia.

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I am so glad that you are alreight. Please, please remember that you are loved, by all of us here and obviously by your friend. He has done you a wonderful favor and there is only one way to repay that kind of friendship - by never doing this again! Staying straight and sober so that you can be his friend, he didn't want to see you fail - don't disappoint him!

Love you so much,always chat first and then you won't have to do drugs - we are here for you!

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Felicia Anne

first off, big hug for misa...

please make sure to see your therapist. relapses happen, honey. it took me a long time to obtain my sobriety (drug free for two years now), and it isn't always easy. but you have a therapist and friends to help, and i could kiss your friend for flushing the drugs away. that is a very positive step in the right direction.

i am not an expert on sobriety, and i certainly cannot take the role of a counselor or a therapist. i simply am not qualified for that. but, i can share with you what works for me. two very simple words - not today.

when i am challeneged with the prospect of durgs or alcohol, i simply tell myself not today. because i believe that if i can make it through to the end of the day without them, i have done well with myself. if you focus on today, you do not regret the past and you do not dread the future. short sighted, i'll admit, but if you focus on day to day sobriety, it cumulates into something wonderful in the long run.

besides, you are loved very much here, and we want to see you around! :)

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By the way wha tis "K' is it crack cocaine?

Ketamine -it induces a state referred to as "dissociative anesthesia" and is used as a recreational drug.

Ketamine has a wide range of effects in humans, including analgesia, anesthesia, hallucinations, elevated blood pressure, and bronchodilation.Ketamine is primarily used for the induction and maintenance of general anesthesia, usually in combination with some sedative drug. Other uses include sedation in intensive care, analgesia (particularly in emergency medicine), and treatment of bronchospasm. It is also a popular anesthetic in veterinary medicine.

It has also been experimented with in the treatment of depression.

Sometimes also spoken of as "the new ecstasy."

And at this point Misa you really need to consider drug treatment.

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Guest Lisa England

Hey Honey

I read your Post and it really moved me, I have been where you were, in that moment of lapse / relapse and totally bewildered. I'm glad you are ok now babe.

I,ve relapsed several times but the thing to remember that each relapse is different and each a learning experience. The other thing to remember that lapses will happen and you do not need to be guilty about them.

I'm clean again now for 4 months. and life is sweet.

May I ask have you contacted any support groups like NA (Narcotics Anonymous), Just a thought, I know they ain't for everybody but I've found a lot of support this way.

Anyway glad to see you back on your feet. hope you're feeling better soon

Hugz

Lisa xx

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Guest ~Brenda~
Right at this very moment I'm under the infulence of exctacy and k, wish I wasn't, allthough it feels great the disapointment outways the effects, I'd been clean for months now. It was used as a way of coping with recent problems with a now ex girlfriend, at least that what I beleive, hearts racing, jaws clenching, cognitive seems fine though, its unfortunate I have another 9 of these pills and ketamine in a little brown pirate like treasure chest, why I have this, I was cleaning, found the stash, something came over me, I want my therapist :( My post is erratic, misspelled and abstract yet Im writing anyway, sorry

You beautiful mess, I love you.

bernie

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