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Guest Alexx21

I Think av split myself in to alter egos

E she is female , self injures a lot , shy , never really cares about herself

Alex bi gender tries to work both ways , cares about people

N male , smoking , stubborn , hates having a shower or bath

Ana , female , has a eating disorder and is obsessed with calories

there are others but they are the main ones

is it normal to feel like this ?

So many times i feel them taking over... so many times we have questioned ourselves

so many time that we cant find the answers

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We as individuals have all developed different way s of coping with the pain and complexity of our situations.

Yous is unusual but there have been others here who also had a similar situation. It makes life challenging for you at times I know.

Johnny

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Guest ~Brenda~

All of the personalities (or alter egos) are all part of yourself. All of us have our feminine selves, our masculine selves, our timid selves, our confident selves, our creative selves, our mundane selves.

These are all part of who we are. The question is when these traits appear to be different people and one loses the understanding that these are nothing but different states of mind and that they are part of the whole person.

I don't have the same kinds of conflicts, but I would say that if you feel that things seem to be getting out of control for you, then please seek professional help. I am concerned about the repeated pattern of self harm in your description of your alter egos.

A fragmented soul is not a natural state of being.

Love

Brenda

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Guest Alexx21

Thank you both for your replies

Am seeing a Therapist in about 6 months time from now through the NHS because i have OCD am not seeing her for any other reason

Even though av been abused, self injure and have an eating disorder that will not be covered with this therapist

Also my gender will not be covered either

My husband has thrown out all the blades in the house so we cant self injure

we guess it was a good thing for him to do but now we have to face flashbacks with out cutting

and our emotions with out cutting

So far we are doing ok

But thats with out all this added stuff going on

The parts of me that are dominant is E and Alex E wants to self injure she feels like her world is changing because there is no blades

She not dealing with it well at all

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Guest Stray Cat Gypsy

I do have a lot of alter egos or personas that I created when I was 17. It helped me to figure out different aspects of myself and differentiate the personas that would come out. I kinda have a filing cabinet within me to help keep everybody in order. So I totally understand.

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Guest trickster

Have you thought about finding a therapist that you might be able to cover a broad spectrum of topics about. Often, disorders are exasperated by each other. It may be very hard to help one disorder improve if others remain untreated. Alter egos can be hard to handle, because each ego has different needs. Yes, they are all a part of you, but the different parts of you may not relate to each other well or at all.

You ask if it's normal, but there really, really isn't such a thing as normal. What I can say is that if you have any trauma whatsoever in your background, or any events you felt incapable of handling (so basically... if you're a human being), splitting your mind into different personalities is a natural reaction,and many people do it to some extent or another. Is it normal? I don't know. Does it happen? Oh, yes.

I really urge you to seek out a therapist that you can discuss this with.... It can help you learn a lot, help get things organized upstairs...

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People can be plural, or have DID, or otherwise not be a single person in one body. Deciding if you need help all depends on if it harms or interferes with your daily life. Hopefully any counselor you see would have a firm understanding of this according to the DSM-5 diagnosis manual.

If you have splits from your original self, and it helps you cope, then do what you need to do as long as it doesn't cause huge problems, blackouts, etc. If you have other "personalities" or even other beings with you as a team (like us here, there's me, and there's him), it can be really beneficial to feel like you have help to get through the day or deal with a rough situation. If I were attacked on the street, for example, the male spirit here would take over and use the shared body to defend us (and has).

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