The binging is getting really bad

[Guest]

I've binged for the last few years and have struggled to control it but it's never been as bad as it's become the last few weeks. I'll literally go through multiple pints of ice cream at a time. And if I'm successful in not doing it for a day or two the urge will just hit me and I can't shake it and it'll just end up consuming my focus.

I know what I'm doing is horrible for me,it can cause all sorts of nastiness. I don't want to do it anymore, but I can'tstand having that urge in my head either. Either way it's maddening and I'm miserable. And then god forbid I get upset in the meanwhile because then I'll stumble into emotional eating as well.

And there's a large part of me that doesn't want to even try anymore. I've tried for years to shake it with hardly any more than a few weeks of success at any time. I've gained 40 pounds in that time and I already couldn't stand my body before then. I really just want it to stop - to just have a normal appetite and not be seemingly addicted to such crap.

Just please make it stop.

[VickySGV]

There is an organization called Overeaters Anonymous (OA) that is available for people with your problem. They have meeting groups in every U.S. state and internationally. They follow a 12 step program in regard to eating behaviors. It is not about stopping the eating (you need to eat something), but rather the need for food to overcome problems in your life and the extent to which you can no longer control you life without over eating. Both of my daughters have had that problem, and both were helped to the extent they were active and part of the group of friends that come from those meetings. http://www.oa.org/

Consult your medical team and get recommendations for a balanced reducing diet, that you can use to work up a disciplined eating program.

[Charlize]

Vicki is right on dear. it sounds like you are powerless in regards to food. that is one of the definitions of an addiction. OA can help as you will be helped by others who have experienced the same problem and are best able to help you to find a path to freedom. It is amazing what other addicts can do to help the ones who still suffer.

Hugs,

Charlize

[Guest Carla_Davis]

Hi Ky_Ki,

The NEDA- National Eating Disorder Association may be of some help to you.

Call the helpline now

Call our toll-free, confidential Helpline, Monday-Thursday from 9:00 am - 9:00 pm and Friday from 9:00 am - 5:00 pm (EST): Holiday Closures

1-800-931-2237

You may also be interested in these articles.

Eating Disorders in the LGBTQ Community

https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/lgbtq

Finding Me: Looking Past the Surface to Discover My Transgender Identity

For Ryan, who was born female, the attempt to eliminate female features of his body through weight loss developed into anorexia nervosa. Getting treatment for an eating disorder meant dealing with his gender identity to accept, respect and love himself. Learn more.

Eating Disorders and Body Image: What do Gender and Sexuality Have to Do with It?

LGBTQ people my experience unique contributing factors in the development of an eating disorder, such as trauma in the form of gay-bashing or harassment, losing social support and rejection from family, and extreme anxiety or depression associated with their sexuality or gender expression. Learn more.

This article may also be helpful to you.

It lists some strategies to help stop binge eating.

Binge Eating Disorder

http://www.helpguide.org/mental/binge_eating_disorder.htm

I hope this is of some help to you.

I wish you Success and Happiness on your Journey, and reducing/ending you binge eating.

Hugs,

Carla

[Guest Amelia]

I really hope you're doing better. I've struggled with overeating on even larger scale than a few pints of ice cream and I understand how hopeless it can feel.

[Guest Ky_Ki]

Hi Amelia. Not really sure if I'm better or not. I haven't really binged in the way I was in several weeks but I still find myself eating more than I should, at times I shouldn't, and things I shouldn't that could probably still be considered binging. And I still often feel that I don't have control or at least complete control over it and I'm sick of putting in the effort. What did you do to stop it?

[Guest Amelia]

I'm definitely not out of the woods yet. I still binge and purge several times a week, but things are still so much better. I either eat relatively normally/less or I go nutso with it.

You're aware you have a problem and that means that even on days where you have the worst behavior you're still slowly growing. Baby steps