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Crossdresser Shayla


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Hello,


I never thought I would find myself crossdressing again until the opportunity presented itself when I would travel to conferences for my job. As a father and a husband, I don't have the freedom to dress whenever I want, so having my own space to dress up is very special to me. When I dress up as Shayla, I'm beautiful and confident.



I love to dress up for the admiration. I hate to brag, but I'm very passable as a woman. When gawkers and admirers look at me and treat me like a lady, it's the greatest feeling. I love putting on the pantyhose because I have shapely legs, the fingernails and of course the makeup.



In September, I actually checked into a hotel room during the day just to dress up. Theres a hotel in the same building as my job and I knew this was a good opportunity. It was also the first time Shayla got to walk out in public in the hotel lobby. I was so nervous at first, but extremely nervous when I accidently locked myself outside my room. My card key didn't work(for the first time) while the working key was in the room. Baptism by fire! The cleaning lady was sweet and polite after I had to call the concierge to unlock my room. Good thing I had practiced my female voice. When I was in the lobby, I spent most of the time walking around pretending to be on my phone, and Sat down looking at it as well. I'm a very self-conscious person, but it was a good feeling to know the world still operated around Shayla.



Even though it was a few hours, I really needed that time to just crossdress. It took so much time to get the clothes and store all my Shayls 'gear' in my secret storage unit near my job. I love my family, but I'm going to keep Shayla a secret for reasons that I care not to go into for now. I don't know when I'll be able to dress up again. But I'm glad that I can share my feelings on this forum. Thank goodness for pictures.




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Hello Shayla,

Welcome to Laura's Playground. Thank you for sharing with us. :)

MaryEllen

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Thanks JodyAnn. Just trying to follow the rules to include my Introduction in the 'Introductions section.

Relax, your heart is in the right place, welcome home. I'm glad you read T&C, it makes the Mods jobs easier. Once in a while I forget a rule and other mods gently reel me back in. This is a loving and safe place.

If I stop some tears, bring some smiles my job is good. When I get belly laughs it's a huge bonus for me. As you get comfortable you will find your niche'.

Meanwhile, don't walk on eggshells. Hug. JodyAnn

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Hi Shayla and welcome to Laura's. Your story reminds me of my early days. I thought that I could confine my cross dressing to home but it certainly wasn't the case. I had to go out in public because Gennee needed to flourish. Now I'm an out transgender woman. I will be out with other ladies this evening.

I am also a husband, father and grandfather. My wife and son are accepting. My granddaughter loves me either way. I hope some day that you will be able come to your family, Shayla. Meanwhile, enjoy the times you can dress.

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