Story Of A Late Bloomer

[gennee]

My name is Gennee. I started cross dressing nearly four years ago. I was 56 years young. Self discovery was a long way in the making but it did happen and I've never been happier.

All throughout my life I felt that I was different though I never knew why. I never tried on women's articles as a child or a teen. I was a typical male indulging into sports, girls, and hanging with my friends. The feeling I had wasn't enough to trouble me so I ignored it. I always seemed to be drawn to folks and activities that were out of the norm. I never got too involved but I just like hanging on the fringes.

It was when began studying for my bachelor's degree in 2002 that those feeling became more intense. Like a butterfly struggling to get out of its cocoon, I wanted to bust out and be someone different. But bust out to what? For the next three years, I struggled with those of feeling of being different.

It was in May 2005 that I got this crazy urge to try on my spouse's skirt. the thought really shocked me. I thought that I was weird, crazy, or both. I compared it to a dare young folks get from friends. They may think that you don't have the courage to do something. After much resistance, I tried on a skirt. Then a dress, bra, and blouse. I thought the urge would go away but got stronger. For days I kept saying that it would go away but it get speeding along. I tried on a skirt whenever my wife wasn't home. The feel of satin panties against my skin was sooo exhilarating. There were other folks who went through what I was experiencing. I started a personal blog, recording the feelings I experienced each day. I was in denial. The feeling will go away, I kept saying to myself but it didn't.

It was in July 2005 that I came out to myself that I am a cross dresser. almost immediately, the struggle and tension disappeared. I was complete and liberated! I felt no guilt or shame about wearing women's clothing. When I read more about what trans gender is, it connected with me. "That's me!" I mused.

today, I am a happy and content trans gender and cross dresser. I love sharing about being trans gender to those who will listen. I will be giving a talk in June about trans-gender and Christianity. I pray that more opportunities to share will come my way.

Gennee

[Sally]

I will pray with you, we need more people like you who are willing to talk about their journey and share the experience with others.

Once I have finished my divorce (if that ever happens) and I have worked out a way to keep my bills paid I will be more than glad to talk about what it is like and about long term denial.

Keep up your good work.

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Long term denial?

I don't have that! I never had that! I wouldn't ever have that!

Just because I am transitioning at age 61 - no - it never occured to me that I was transsexual, never...

Well maybe...

Maybe my whole life? When I lived female for a year after my wife died? Awww. just some high resolution cross dressing...

When I tried to surgically remove.. well... some parts... just a temporary insanity...

When I started sticking needles... well... I can't say... just a fad!

When I pierced my ears and started wearing earrings... just following fashion...

When I started using Premarin... just wanted to see what would happen...

When I started drinking wild turkey and sweet vermouth - waking up the next day in full dress and make-up... just having fun...

When my drawers full of women's underclothing started to crowd out my male underclothing... well, just buying too much...

When people started looking at my awfully thin eyebrows... well, maybe a little too much plucking...

When I realized I was most nights crying myself to sleep... sorta strange to feel in the wrong gender...

When I started looking for a bridge abuttment to crash into - well, getting outta hand!

But never any denial - NEVER.

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Hey Gennee,

Denial? Yes, I know that self reference. For me, I was cross dressing as far back as being a teenager. Did I accept myself then?... well no. If I had, thikgs would have been so different for me now. Your story is so similar to mine it is uncanny. I appreciate you sharing your honest accounting of how you felt and are feeling. Thank you my dear. You are a gem!!

LOL

bernii

(FYI, I read Lizzy's post... she is just being sarcastic! She was in denial for most of her life!)

[Guest Donna Jean]

Gennee....

Wonderful story, Sweetheart!

Acceptance of oneself is the greatest thing that people like us experience in our lives...

It sets you free....It brings on understanding...it provides us with answers to long standing questions about ourselves that made no sense before!

And you've done so well with this, Gennee...and how you feel about yourself is wonderful and a very positive thing...

Thank you for sharing, Honey....

We all Love you...

Donna Jean

[Guest leo]

i love to hear peoples stories and its great to hear yours

i feel like theonly young person to be posting in this thread

but its truely wonderful to finally find yourself

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Leo? Young person? I thought you were 25!

hee hee

Me in denial - never!

Gennee - I wish you the best as you spread the word on diverity to the Christian Community - that is a brave thing to do!

Lizzy

[gennee]

i love to hear peoples stories and its great to hear yours

i feel like theonly young person to be posting in this thread

but its truely wonderful to finally find yourself

There are plenty of young people like yourself, Leo.

Gennee

[Guest brenda lee]

My name is Gennee. I started cross dressing nearly four years ago. I was 56 years young. Self discovery was a long way in the making but it did happen and I've never been happier.

All throughout my life I felt that I was different though I never knew why. I never tried on women's articles as a child or a teen. I was a typical male indulging into sports, girls, and hanging with my friends. The feeling I had wasn't enough to trouble me so I ignored it. I always seemed to be drawn to folks and activities that were out of the norm. I never got too involved but I just like hanging on the fringes.

It was when began studying for my bachelor's degree in 2002 that those feeling became more intense. Like a butterfly struggling to get out of its cocoon, I wanted to bust out and be someone different. But bust out to what? For the next three years, I struggled with those of feeling of being different.

It was in May 2005 that I got this crazy urge to try on my spouse's skirt. the thought really shocked me. I thought that I was weird, crazy, or both. I compared it to a dare young folks get from friends. They may think that you don't have the courage to do something. After much resistance, I tried on a skirt. Then a dress, bra, and blouse. I thought the urge would go away but got stronger. For days I kept saying that it would go away but it get speeding along. I tried on a skirt whenever my wife wasn't home. The feel of satin panties against my skin was sooo exhilarating. There were other folks who went through what I was experiencing. I started a personal blog, recording the feelings I experienced each day. I was in denial. The feeling will go away, I kept saying to myself but it didn't.

It was in July 2005 that I came out to myself that I am a cross dresser. almost immediately, the struggle and tension disappeared. I was complete and liberated! I felt no guilt or shame about wearing women's clothing. When I read more about what trans gender is, it connected with me. "That's me!" I mused.

today, I am a happy and content trans gender and cross dresser. I love sharing about being trans gender to those who will listen. I will be giving a talk in June about trans-gender and Christianity. I pray that more opportunities to share will come my way.

Gennee

Gennee ,Please don't feel bad sweetie .I have known all ofmy life that I was different too. I started cross dressing at an early age of 6 ,and always wanted to be a girl when playing with my friends . I was forced to do boy stuff growing up and hated most of it. I too am starting to embrace my sely and could not be happier . Thank you for sharing . Soon I hope to post my bio .Brenda Lee