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22 minutes ago, ElizabethStar said:

 

I find it interesting how trans-woman seem so emotionally stable compared to cis ones.

 

I think there's a couple reasons for that. One, we know going in what we're in for and we've got a LIFETIME of suppressing our emotions training behind us. Two, we're more stable week to week. My estrogen (and progesterone) levels never really vary. My body gets the same hit day after day. Three, we're not culturally conditioned to look at our hormones as an excuse to take our emotions out on everybody else. Four, we want people to like and accept us very, very badly. Do not rock the boat. So we deal with our emotions instead of throwing them against the wall. Five, we absolutely love what we've got going on instead of viewing it as a burden. Then again we weren't thrown into the deep end of the hormone pool and expected to swim.

 

My take on it anyway.

 

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Good morning everyone! Haven’t had time for coffee this morning unfortunately. Apparently someone tried to break in the house last night. Thankfully ADT scared them off. Getting ready now to go meet with my two closest friends and coven sisters to plan their wedding ceremony. Have a wonderful day

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@ElizabethStar I agree with Jackie on many of the points. A.) Our hormones are more regulated through medication, B.) We have years of training of suppressing feelings and emotions that are tough such as dysphoria, thus simpler emotions are easier to stuff stuff down, and, C.) We are looking for acceptance, thus I know I tend not to rock the boat as much in exchange I am hoping for stability and peace.

 

@JustineM That is terrible that someone tried to break in last night, thank goodness you do have an alarm to scare them away. Have fun with wedding planning, that should be some fun there.

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@Jackie C. and @QuestioningAmber You both have very good points. I had one of the girls at work Tell me I seem a little too stable for a woman. So it got me thinking.  Why am I emotionally stable now that I have estrogen coursing through my veins? Well, now the answer is extremely obvious.

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4 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

 

I find it interesting how trans-woman seem so emotionally stable compared to cis ones.

 

4 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

 

 1. we've got a LIFETIME of suppressing our emotions training behind us.

 

 2. we want people to like and accept us very, very badly.

 

 

I think these 2 statements in Jackie's comment are the biggest reason for the difference. At least for me!

 

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Short week for my yesterday was my Monday. Now I am already at Thursday today. I have Tues and Wens off this week. Thankfully, Because they are forecasting up to 12 inches of white crap Tuesday. This girl ain't going no where. 

 

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Well today was absolutely great. Got the hand fasting ceremony completely planned. Even got some time to sit around and chat about makeup! First time really having girl talk with friends. The funniest part was that when I got there one of the first things mentioned was that I looked like I had nipples, (forms have them)  Now I got to help my boy with some homework.

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I recall when I was stationed at Lowery in Denver, we had a bad first snow on Labor Day weekend. Even had a plane crash on our closed runways trying to make it to Stapleton.  He would have made it too, but the gear hit the top of a cyclone fence.

 

 Only the ski resorts appreciate early snow.  Still 80s here.

 

Justine must be nice to be able to be with friends and participating in girls talk .  My real nipples are bigger than the fake on my forms these days but I’m still not growing breasts. ?.  Trying to convince my endocrinologist to increase my hormones but so far he’s not budging.

 

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The time in between emptying my cup and filling it is too long today. I am slow getting around after two days of exercise. I have a resistance gym and it is certainly working. Have a great day all!!!

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Well starting my weekend early. The boss changed the schedule to a Sunday so I got off at 2. So, right now in a skirt and string tank top. The wife and son went to visit my middle son. but they found out he wasn't home so they are coming home. Drive 180 miles with out knowing if some one is home. leave it to my wife.

 

Still forecasting the white crap heard anywhere from 4 to 12 inches.

 

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20 minutes ago, KymmieL said:

Drive 180 miles with out knowing if some one is home.

 

Definitely a bad plan. Always check with the person you plan to visit before visiting. It's just polite.

 

On the plus side, girl time with no judgement!

 

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2 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

 

Definitely a bad plan. Always check with the person you plan to visit before visiting. It's just polite.

 

On the plus side, girl time with no judgement!

 

Hugs!

 

I know that I cannot say anything unless I want a probable argument.

 

Not even girl time, me time.

 

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I recall when I was stationed at Lowery in Denver, we had a bad first snow on Labor Day weekend. Even had a plane crash on our closed runways trying to make it to Stapleton.  He would have made it too, but the gear hit the top of a cyclone fence.

 

 Only the ski resorts appreciate early snow.  Still 80s here.

 

Justine must be nice to be able to be with friends and participating in girls talk .  My real nipples are bigger than the fake on my forms these days but I’m still not growing breasts. ?.  Trying to convince my endocrinologist to increase my hormones but so far he’s not budging.

 

Willow

 

huh, this didn’t post when I wrote it.  

 

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I’ve been at work for half an hour and have already eaten a bowl of past and a hot dog. So hungry today.  Also, my computer took a crap and I’m waiting for IT to get here and fix it. I am still getting paid but I would rather be productive. 

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I've started taking body measurements today since I started HRT last week so I can document progress and I have to say I am so excited because my belly is smaller than my waist for the first time in 20 years!  My diet plan seemed to be stalled from a pounds standpoint but obviously I'm continuing to burn off belly fat!  I'm working my plan faithfully even when I have bad emotional days and just want to gorge on cheesecake or chocolate.  My endocrinologist said the metabolism wise my calorie needs will probably be fully female in 8 weeks so gotta jam while the metabolism is high. I'm eating about 1500 calories a day to lose weight but once my metabolism changes that probably isn't enough to make progress and I can't imagine eating less. I really want this belly pooch gone before then.  I have about 2" more to go I think. (or 8-10lbs). I've switched from worrying about the pounds because I expect to lose muscle weight so that's not a good indicator anymore.  

On another positive note, I feel like my body has adjusted to the Spiro already and I'm not having to run to the bathroom every hour. lol

I don't really "feel" any different yet although my general happiness is evident.  Not sure if that's just the knowledge that I'm on the journey or the HRT.  I'm still on a half dose of Estradiol for another week then they double it so maybe then I feel things.

In the meantime, I'm enjoying some of the best weather in months. Coffee on the patio without fighting bugs or sweating is so nice.

 

 

 

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That is one thing I hated about being on Spiro. going so much and not going the other. I have lost muscle mass with my blockers.

 

I would have my coffee on the patio but I will need long underwear, boots, heavy winter coat, scarf, and gloves. most important thing would be something to keep my coffee hot. currently showing a balmy 22 degrees.

 

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Morning girls,congrats on losing weight . I've been on hormones twice now.  1st time  8months, 2nd time  21/2 weeks. Both  times  I had that euphoric hi. I mean excited and totally happy. I stopped for about 3months. This time I've noticed my breasts are starting to grow faster. Wish my butt and hips would. I did the keto diet first time and lost 13lbs. Put it all back on after I quit hormones the 1st time. This time I'm not having any luck.  I'm on full dose and feel like you do. Good luck, wish you luck on losing the weight you want

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22 minutes ago, ElizabethStar said:

I’ve been at work for half an hour and have already eaten a bowl of past and a hot dog. So hungry today.  Also, my computer took a crap and I’m waiting for IT to get here and fix it. I am still getting paid but I would rather be productive. 

I hate "Hungry Days". lol

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I’ve noticed since hrt I’m hungrier now. Like I want to snack all the time I’m trying to avoid that. It doesn’t help when donuts show up at work like 3x a week 

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48 minutes ago, Emily michelle said:

It doesn’t help when donuts show up at work like 3x a week 

I've banned food sharing at my biz for Covid reasons.  Seriously has helped A LOT of waistlines here. lol

I miss my chocolate chip cookies and brownies SO BAD right now :(

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I kind of wish they didn’t show up lol. The food stopped for like a month. I don’t have enough will power to let them sit. It also seems for me when the weekend comes I eat more.

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30 minutes ago, Emily michelle said:

 It also seems for me when the weekend comes I eat more.

I was doing that as well because I didn't plan out my food for the days since I was home. Now I prep my food for the day as if I were working and pack it all up in a cooler.  Then when I get hungry or need a snack I hit my packed up stuff and control my eating that way. Same if I go out, the cooler goes with me.  It has really help me maintain progress over the weekends.  I still treat dinner as my daily special meal and put a lot of thought and prep into making it. It's still reasonable on calories but since I take the time to make it well, it feels like a daily reward.

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