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Thanks for the input..  I put in the application for 2 chair positions.  Hopefully I will get one of them.  Even if not I will be a member of this group.  This will help a lot of people.  The meeting had 75 people involved.

I also threw in for a promotion.  If I get that then moving up or around will be easier.

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@2beBreanna OMG! If I don't lose some weight soon, I'm going to generally need 2 chair positions. I hate this damn civid!

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1 hour ago, HollyNoel said:

@2beBreanna OMG! If I don't lose some weight soon, I'm going to generally need 2 chair positions. I hate this damn civid!

Lol.. warmer weather is on the way.  Enjoy it before it becomes too hot to handle.  Try not to let the covid 20 stick around.  Stay healthy= stay happy.

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Here it too was a beautiful day.  Abeit a little windy. That is WY. For ya. Right now I am so fried out it isn't  funny. I need a months  vacation. All the bs is getting to me. I know I shouldn't let it. But it does. I so want to make like a shepherd and get the flock out.

 

Am I crazy for wanting my own store. IDK. 

 

Kymmie 

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On 3/1/2021 at 10:44 AM, Jackie C. said:

 

Oh, you know what you need to do sweetie.

 

Stephanie Brown ?? Artist on Patreon ? on Twitter | Tiefling female,  Fantasy character design, Character portraits

Ha ha! @Jackie C. always has the best images for the occasion! ?

 

Speaking of, here's my all-time favorite image: (Found this on reddit. I might actually use this coming out to certain people...)xclec91jxua61.jpg.d5f7b8dd1a9c76a77ce3b7962d75e0f9.jpg

 

But, so yea, I've pretty much already decided that for both that polish set, and for the metallic version of the set, "It will be mine. Oh yes, it will be mine." (Guess the movie reference! Win unredeemable bragging points!) But I'm holding off on it though juuust for the breif moment, mainly just because I already have this still-unopened little sweetie pie in my posession who's already been begging for my attention the last three weeks:

 

https://smile.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/B083LCL9T6?psc=1&ref=ppx_pop_mob_b_asin_title&th=1

 

Once she's been appeased, my hunger for...*cough*...I mean, My color collection will grow... ;)

 

 

 

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3 hours ago, Heather Nicole said:

Ha ha! @Jackie C. always has the best images for the occasion! ?

 

Speaking of, here's my all-time favorite image: (Found this on reddit. I might actually use this coming out to certain people...)xclec91jxua61.jpg.d5f7b8dd1a9c76a77ce3b7962d75e0f9.jpg

 

But, so yea, I've pretty much already decided that for both that polish set, and for the metallic version of the set, "It will be mine. Oh yes, it will be mine." (Guess the movie reference! Win unredeemable bragging points!) But I'm holding off on it though juuust for the breif moment, mainly just because I already have this still-unopened little sweetie pie in my posession who's already been begging for my attention the last three weeks:

 

https://smile.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/B083LCL9T6?psc=1&ref=ppx_pop_mob_b_asin_title&th=1

 

Once she's been appeased, my hunger for...*cough*...I mean, My color collection will grow... ;)

 

 

 

Yeah, I love both of these images. Pretty nail polish also. I haven't done my fingernails yet. Soon though. I stopped at a second hand clothing store yesterday. I instantly got overwhelmed. I haven't a clue how to put together an outfit, or even what sizes to buy. I wear XL "T" shirts ant 43W x 30L jeans. So many options in women's clothes. Seems like all the clothing stores display nice slim young models. It's like learning a whole new language. My wife isn't well enough right now to help me. Then there's the hair. I'm trying to let it grow out so I can style and dye it. Grows so slow at my age. I'm using a hair growth conditioner to regrow the bald areas. It's even slower. Being a woman isn't as easy as I thought all my life. This is going to be interesting, and it's long overdue. 

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1 hour ago, Jamie68 said:

I wear XL "T" shirts ant 43W x 30L jeans.

 

Check size charts. Women's sizes are both nonsensical and vary wildly between brands. You're going to need to experiment a bit because of your shoulders/hips and figure out what looks good on you. Have fun!

 

Hugs!

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2 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

 

Check size charts. Women's sizes are both nonsensical and vary wildly between brands. You're going to need to experiment a bit because of your shoulders/hips and figure out what looks good on you. Have fun!

 

Hugs!

Thanks 

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Really rough day yesterday. Got misgendered a few times and then came elecrolysis.  I'm having my upper lip concentrated on so I go to my Dr for some injections to numb things first.  It's been challenging to get it numb enough to work on.  This time she decided to go from inside the lip AND outside.  It was like she was in a race and the internal ones had me almost out of the chair. When she went to do the ones right under my nose from the outside I literally screamed. She got 3 into me before I begged her to stop.  I left there crying and thinking I can't do this anymore.  When I got to the electrolysis appointment I was just frazled and traumatized. She started working around to see what areas were numb enough and that was miserable as well. I just didn't have the emotional staminia at that point.  She did finally figure out where she could work and the next 75 minutes went OK with just minor pain most of the time and a few gotcha moments with tears.  I woke up this morning just spent.

I was planning on getting my passport photo this week but that is going to have to wait based on how swollen I am this morning.  I get to repeat this in 3 weeks ?

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Yikes, @Bri2020, that looks pretty rough!

 

I don't know what it is with doctors/dentists and numbing shots.  I had to go to a dental surgeon to get a tooth removed.  The extraction itself was painless, but the shots to get it numb put me flat on the ceiling! 

 

My own dentist, however, does a beautiful job of freezing.  I had her number my upper lip quite a few times earlier in my electrolysis journey.  She would do about a dozen shots, and I barely felt the first one or two.

 

The good news is that it gets easier.  My electrologist is still working on my upper lip, but a little bit of Emla does the job these days.

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1 hour ago, KathyLauren said:

Yikes, @Bri2020, that looks pretty rough!

 

I don't know what it is with doctors/dentists and numbing shots.  I had to go to a dental surgeon to get a tooth removed.  The extraction itself was painless, but the shots to get it numb put me flat on the ceiling! 

 

My own dentist, however, does a beautiful job of freezing.  I had her number my upper lip quite a few times earlier in my electrolysis journey.  She would do about a dozen shots, and I barely felt the first one or two.

 

The good news is that it gets easier.  My electrologist is still working on my upper lip, but a little bit of Emla does the job these days.

She did say second and third regrowth phases might be easier but my viking grade red beard is so dense and red heads hair shafts are so thick and deep that it requires much more electricity than other hair types.  I love my red hair on my head but detest this challenge of it.  Red heads are geneticaly resistant to numbing agents/anesthesia which makes it even more challenging.  A dentist would probably be better but due to the afore mentioned redhead issues I was so traumatized by dentists growing up who failed to numb me that I have severe dental anxiety.  Honestly at this point I'm getting PTSD from this process and start getting anxiety a few days before these mega lip sessions.

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1 hour ago, Bri2020 said:

She did say second and third regrowth phases might be easier but my viking grade red beard is so dense and red heads hair shafts are so thick and deep that it requires much more electricity than other hair types.  

Here's a before shot of the goatee I used to sport and you can see how "bristly" the hair shafts are. My wife used to say it was like kissing a scotch scouring pad. lol. 

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10 hours ago, Heather Nicole said:

Speaking of, here's my all-time favorite image: (Found this on reddit. I might actually use this coming out to certain people...)xclec91jxua61.jpg.d5f7b8dd1a9c76a77ce3b7962d75e0f9.jpg

Love it

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Finally sitting down with a cup of coffee after my Toastmasters meeting. Gave a speech on the Equality Bill. From the persuasive influence path. Level 4, Managing a Difficult Audience. Three people were preselected to interrupt the speech with challenging questions and the evaluation was based on how well I handled the questions. Side comments were all very positive regarding the message itself which I found to be very encouraging. The club is called Professionally Speaking and is geared to business professionals. I got a lot of my inspiration from comments on this forum, including the Equality Act, Intersex, 

 

Once upon a time everything was black and white. In kindergarten, day one, lesson one: Two pictures. Same / Different. Computers were invented. Binary Logic. True/False. On/Off. Zero/One. Once upon a time everything was black and white. How do you tell the good guys from the bad? The good guys wear a white hat.

 

Things get complicated in the business world. The business world reflects society. What do they teach you when things get messy? KISS. Keep it Simple Stupid. Black hat vs white hat. True/False. Same/Different. There’s some wisdom in this philosophy. The first S stands for simplify. Not a bad strategy if you want to get to a decision faster. The second S stands for Stupid!

 

Once upon a time they said “Boys will be boys.” Or “He’s all boy”. Or “Are you a member of the old boys club?” When they grew up they said “This will separate the men from the boys.” Or “A woman’s place is in the kitchen.” Who installed that glass ceiling anyway? Binary Logic. Kindergarten 101. KISS. Nice Neat Little Boxes.

 

Once upon a time when a baby was born, the doctor took a peek and declared “It’s a boy!” Hearts beat faster because boys were more valuable to society. But as he grows up, will he be “All Boy?” Doesn’t that imply that not all boys are “all boy”?

 

Once upon a time a quick peek determined your future. School, Toys, Clothes, Friends, Activities, Expectations, Career, Destiny. A quick peek. XX or XY? But not all boys are all boy, and not all XXs are XXs. Some are XXX. Some are XXY. Some are XYY. And many other combinations. Intersex doesn’t fit the binary mold. Sexual wiring including hormone levels, and brain wiring, takes place as the baby is knit in the mother’s womb.

Once upon a time, a son’s father determined how far up the ladder he would climb, or whether he would climb at all. Binary Logic. Are you related? True/False. And sometime there were terrible consequences. Gross Incompetence. Or missed opportunities. Then someone invented the personality test. Briggs-Meyer. 16 nice neat little boxes. At least there were more to choose from, even if no one fit neatly into them. In fact studies show that depending on the situation you can fit into different boxes.

 

The work force is adapting. To stay competitive, to hire the best, to produce the highest quality goods, to maximize profit, the workforce is adapting.

That brings me to today. HR5. The Equality Act is making its way through the halls of Congress. You may have heard of it. You may have an opinion. It provides greater protection from discrimination for sexual orientation and gender identity. A growing number of companies and professions support the Equality Act and they operate in every state and represent trillions in market value.

 

Once upon a time there was Black and White, Male and Female, Right and Wrong. But we know there are many shades of gray and brown between Black and White. There are degrees of guilt in the criminal code. First degree murder. Third degree manslaughter. And there are degrees of sexuality from “all boy” to MTF surgery to correct gender dysphoria and suicidal ideation. Did you know that over 40 percent of transgenders have attempted suicide?

 

The times they are a changing as Bob Dylan once said. Once upon a time we made progress with race relations and women’s rights. And it was good for business. Toastmasters did not allow women to be members at one time. Some segments of society resisted and still resist today. However, as a business professional, as Mark said in the Thought of the Day, challenge your thinking, your apologia, your defense of your opinions, and ask yourself if a compassionate society can afford to discriminate against those who don’t fit into nice, neat little boxes.

 

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My wife has an appointment today for her PAH so I took the day off to drive her. After I got dressed she asked if I had a looser shirt. I just had to ask her what the problem was with what I had on. I’m a girl, have boobs, can’t really hide them anymore not that I would want to. Her concern is that the Dr. met me when I was someone else. After a moment (for no apparent) she said I could wear one of her tops and hands me her camouflage Mickey mouse hoodie. Didn’t say anything about the dusty rose skinny jeans or knee high boots I wearing. Just my top. I don’t even know how to understand this. All I hear in my head is “that slightly feminine top shows too much boob.  Wear this undeniably feminine one instead.”

 

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22 hours ago, 2beBreanna said:

Thanks for the input..  I put in the application for 2 chair positions.  Hopefully I will get one of them.  Even if not I will be a member of this group.  This will help a lot of people.  The meeting had 75 people involved.

I also threw in for a promotion.  If I get that then moving up or around will be easier.

I have found that now I'm no longer "in hiding" from myself I get more nods of approval. Can't quite be sure, but it's as if a lot of other people are also in hiding from themselves and recognize the courage it takes to step up, and step out. I applaud your new found courage to throw in for a promotion! What have you got to lose! 

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On 3/2/2021 at 8:07 AM, SheenaT said:

I love to fish. I used to tie my own flies too

 

On 3/2/2021 at 8:47 AM, Bri2020 said:

Holy goddess I can't imagine being on a river in winter! 

SheenaT, the hobby of tying flies is perfect alone time for me. This fishing trip was in mostly guy mode, with a lot more color and flair. There were a couple of remarks made, and my son who knows about Mindy, did a quick head swing to see how I was going to handle the comments. I replied that my choice of Rain Gear and UV Sun blocking hoodies are the new me. DEAL WITH IT! 

 

????? Daily limit everyday.??‍♀️

 

Bri2020, the water temperature is a constant 55°F in the river, and our air temperatures ranged from the high 30°s in the morning to the 70°s in the afternoon. Most of our fishing was done in long john-boats so staying warm and dry was easy.

 

Since this is a Father-Son guys only fishing trip, I may only get to squeeze in one more trip before I'm out to everyone and presenting full time as the woman I'm suppose to be. I'm cool with that and really looking forward to it.

 

Coffee HOT, black, and strong.:coffee:

 

Hug,

 

Mindy??? 

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2 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

I don’t even know how to understand this. All I hear in my head is “that slightly feminine top shows too much boob.  Wear this undeniably feminine one instead.”

Jealousy?!

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7 hours ago, Bri2020 said:

I woke up this morning just spent.

I was planning on getting my passport photo this week but that is going to have to wait based on how swollen I am this morning.  I get to repeat this in 3 weeks ?

 

Yikes, that looks painful. Can you put aloe on it or something? That skin needs some TLC. As a fellow redhead (I used to be a lovely chestnut auburn), I sympathize and wish you relief and hopefully less pain in the future. Numbing agents hit me like that too. It feels like they're burning down to my soul.

 

4 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

Wear this undeniably feminine one instead.”

 

Could have been worse. I wore a pink top that says, "Majestically lesbian" on it with a fabulous pink unicorn today. I then put a checkered, oversized shirt over the top of it, just in case there were any doubts. With the rose-colored sunglasses, I think I was trending towards peak lesbian.

 

I think I understand where your wife is coming from, she doesn't want to deal with the questions from her doctor. Of course, I've found the medical profession to be incredibly cool with my trans-ness. They just accept it, make a note, then move on. It can be hard for our SOs to understand that while it might have been a shock for them, most people outside our immediate circles really don't care.

Hopefully your spouse will calm down a little once she realizes that honestly, nobody cares the she's with a woman or that the woman used to be her "husband" the last time you met.

 

Hugs!

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8 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

Could have been worse. I wore a pink top that says, "Majestically lesbian" on it with a fabulous pink unicorn today. I then put a checkered, oversized shirt over the top of it, just in case there were any doubts. With the rose-colored sunglasses, I think I was trending towards peak lesbian.

Sounds like a must-have outfit.

 

 

And the saga continues....Now I'm home and have a full keyboard.


Another short story by Elizabeth Star.


When we reached the doctor's office our first stop was the receptionist station. She asked which of us the appointment was for. My wife immediately spoke up that it was for her. The young woman explained that only patients are allowed in the waiting room. My wife then asked her this would how work, my husband (motioning to me) needs to be with me, what is he supposed to do. The lady replied..and love this. She can wait downstairs or out in the hall, you can call her when the doctor says it's OK for her to come in. I just stood there in disbelief. Did this other woman properly gender me in front of my wife? Wife tries again. What's he supposed to do? Again she replies with She can..... This seriously just happened? Baha-ha-ha-ha!
This went on for another minute. No matter what my wife said this receptionist was NOT going to call me he/him. I went and waited in the hall...like a good girl.

 

Out in the hallway I was able to beat the rush and get one of the only two seats. After about 30 minutes I had to pee and there was probably a dozen people standing in the hall. I stood up and took a quick glance out the window while debating if I should risk getting clocked trying to use the ladies room on this floor or find another. We're on the 19th floor so the view is kinda cool. The I noticed a couple of "Cows on parade" statues on one of the roof-tops. Just as I take my phone out to take a picture I hear someone say "no, I think she's still sitting there". I turn around to see who this fabulous person is that called me she and saw a little old woman standing there. After that I had no problems giving up my seat or using the ladies room on that floor.

 

A few minutes later I got a call from my wife. The Dr. Ok'ed me coming in back and they were sending someone to get me. As I'm hanging out by the door a nurse comes outs and wanders for moment, finds her way to me, looks at me an says, Liz?   Yea, that's me. -what the heck- just happened? My wife has promised to forever dead-name me. No one there except the doctor knows my name and I doubt he remembers it. So she had to of told them to look for Liz. Right? Later after the appointment she asked if I had noticed the name they used when looking for me. So she did tell them.  Of course I noticed. It seems something else has changed.

 

 

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2 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

Sounds like a must-have outfit.

 

 

And the saga continues....Now I'm home and have a full keyboard.


Another short story by Elizabeth Star.


When we reached the doctor's office our first stop was the receptionist station. She asked which of us the appointment was for. My wife immediately spoke up that it was for her. The young woman explained that only patients are allowed in the waiting room. My wife then asked her this would how work, my husband (motioning to me) needs to be with me, what is he supposed to do. The lady replied..and love this. She can wait downstairs or out in the hall, you can call her when the doctor says it's OK for her to come in. I just stood there in disbelief. Did this other woman properly gender me in front of my wife? Wife tries again. What's he supposed to do? Again she replies with She can..... This seriously just happened? Baha-ha-ha-ha!
This went on for another minute. No matter what my wife said this receptionist was NOT going to call me he/him. I went and waited in the hall...like a good girl.

 

Out in the hallway I was able to beat the rush and get one of the only two seats. After about 30 minutes I had to pee and there was probably a dozen people standing in the hall. I stood up and took a quick glance out the window while debating if I should risk getting clocked trying to use the ladies room on this floor or find another. We're on the 19th floor so the view is kinda cool. The I noticed a couple of "Cows on parade" statues on one of the roof-tops. Just as I take my phone out to take a picture I hear someone say "no, I think she's still sitting there". I turn around to see who this fabulous person is that called me she and saw a little old woman standing there. After that I had no problems giving up my seat or using the ladies room on that floor.

 

A few minutes later I got a call from my wife. The Dr. Ok'ed me coming in back and they were sending someone to get me. As I'm hanging out by the door a nurse comes outs and wanders for moment, finds her way to me, looks at me an says, Liz?   Yea, that's me. -what the heck- just happened? My wife has promised to forever dead-name me. No one there except the doctor knows my name and I doubt he remembers it. So she had to of told them to look for Liz. Right? Later after the appointment she asked if I had noticed the name they used when looking for me. So she did tell them.  Of course I noticed. It seems something else has changed.

 

 

Oh Liz, I am so happy for you.

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10 hours ago, Mmindy said:

 

SheenaT, the hobby of tying flies is perfect alone time for me. This fishing trip was in mostly guy mode, with a lot more color and flair. There were a couple of remarks made, and my son who knows about Mindy, did a quick head swing to see how I was going to handle the comments. I replied that my choice of Rain Gear and UV Sun blocking hoodies are the new me. DEAL WITH IT! 

 

????? Daily limit everyday.??‍♀️

 

Bri2020, the water temperature is a constant 55°F in the river, and our air temperatures ranged from the high 30°s in the morning to the 70°s in the afternoon. Most of our fishing was done in long john-boats so staying warm and dry was easy.

 

Since this is a Father-Son guys only fishing trip, I may only get to squeeze in one more trip before I'm out to everyone and presenting full time as the woman I'm suppose to be. I'm cool with that and really looking forward to it.

 

Coffee HOT, black, and strong.:coffee:

 

Hug,

 

Mindy??? 

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7 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

she had to of told them to look for Liz

Yay! progress! What a happy story! 

I took a check into the bank today to get it cashed and the cashier said she liked the color of my nail polish! So nice!

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She gave name, address, age, height, weight, and they came to gender. Margie asked it twice. "Put down female." "The only other choice is male." "Then that is it." "Earlier I was thinking about tournaments, which are big here. The rules are that boys fight boys and girls fight girls - there are Men's and Women's Divisions.  I know you look like a woman, but they go by the birth certificate." This was awkward.  Really awkward.  Down at the other end of the room they were moving in unison when Bob said HAI!, turning, punching, kicking, etc. "I don't plan to go to tournaments.  One step at a time, shall we?" "Okay.  And I meant it when I said respect.  We bow to each other.  You will see. As a sign of honoring other people." Margie bowed slightly, sitting down.  Taylor returned the bow and smiled. The class moved into sparring, breaking into twos and practicing moves against each other.  Bob was moving among the pairs, adjusting positions of hands, hips, feet.  Taylor was unsure about someone touching her like that, her hips particularly.    The green belt class ended as new students came in for the beginners' class. Down at the other end the brown belt class began.  The room was large enough you could do two classes at the same time.   The other beginners, nervous, lined up at Margie's table.  People got into gis, the men in their big area and only woman in the little restroom that was for them.   Sensei Mark greeted them and showed them where to stand: on the little x's on the floor. He explained the School Code.  They would recite it at the beginning of class and they needed to memorize it for the white belt test, at which time they would, of course, receive a white belt. He explained some terms.    They warmed up with some basic, easy stretches.   They learned a kata called Taikyoku Shodan, involving blocks, punches and some movements. This was not bad.   She was now paired off with Judy.  Things were going well and this was not too bad. Judy was sixty years old and had been told to exercise by her doctor.  Taylor said her boyfriend was teaching the other class, which was impressive, and he wanted her involved.   "You remember the gedan barai - downward block?"  They did. Everyone showed him and he went around and made sure everyone had it down. "And the lunge punch?"  They did. "Now we are going to put them together. One of you will punch and the other block it. Okay?"   Taylor squared off against Judy.  Her heart was pounding.  She practiced her gedan barai as Judy practiced her lower lunge punch.  Then they faced each other. "Okay, first partner, lunge punch.  Second partner, lower block.  Slowly.  Go!" Taylor saw the punch coming at her, but instead of blocking it her eyes welled up with tears and she dropped to the floor, weeping uncontrollably. "Oh God, Oh, God, Oh God, make it stop, make it stop" she shouted to parties unseen. Fetal position, rocking back and forth. Crying hysterically. "I didn't go near her," Judy said, bewildered. "Taylor?"  this was Sensei Bob.  Both classes had stopped and were looking at her. She kept crying. "I am here, "Bob told her, not touching.  "Oh Bob you need a wife who can be a real woman to you. I am making you into a monk or something." And she continued crying at full volume. "You need someone better than me, someone who can give you kids." Everyone could hear this.  They were turning away, trying to pretend they could not hear this. "I need to get her out of here and take her." Bob said, and he and Mark bowed to each other. He scooped her up and she bawled into his shoulder.  She clung to him.  First hug ever. Death grip, more like it. "Judy, would you get her things?" "I did nothing," Judy said, and moved towards the restroom, stunned.  "Nothing." "I know what she was wearing," Margie said, and got them. "I've got a gym bag. It 's red and it says Roosters on it. Can you get it? Mark got it.  He accompanied them to the car.  Taylor was non-stop crying deeply, clinging to him for dear life. Mark unlocked the car and together they managed to pry Taylor off of him, even though it took both of them to do it.  She was in the car seat and they managed to buckle her in it. "I am going to take you to your apartment," he said. "No. Emergency room," she said. "Maybe the psych ward."  He didn't doubt it. She calmed down in a few minutes on the way. "Well, that was embarrassing." "Everyone remembers their first day of karate class." "Bob, what I love about you is your sense of humor." "I love everything about you." "Even this?" "Yes. Even this." She managed to walk into the ER.  They were both still in gis. "Karate accident?" "No. I am Taylor and I am a nut. I wear a gi all the time. I make my boyfriend wear one, too." "She had a triggered event.  She's had some difficult times." "I see. Do you you know are bleeding?" "No."  Her crotch was wet with blood and the blood was seeping down both legs. She was wheeled away. "Sir, please wait here." He did.  He had no legal right to see her right now. After a while a nurse came out and said he could come on  back. There she was in a hospital gown.  "Seems like old times." "yeah.  We gotta stop meeting like this." The nurse buzzed around and left them. "They are running tests." "I bet they are." "I got an MRI. On a Saturday morning, too."  First ever. "You rate.  But why?" "They figure some of the old scar tissue - you know, from the- from the past - ripped open and they need to see what is going on." "We know what is going on,"said a doctor, stepping in. He looked at her. "I am Doctor Michaels.  They called me in.  I just happened to be in the building and they wanted me to see this and take the case.  My specialty is Disorders of Sexual Development. But what I am seeing is little in the way of disorder.  Look at this." They looked at the image. "This is a perfectly ordinary uterus." "Uterus?" "Yes, your uterus." "What?" "That is not all.  This is a cervix, and this is a vagina." "It's blocked up." "Yes.  It looks like you had surgery to do exactly that when you were an infant.  They used to do that." "This is me?" "You." "Really?" "I imagine this takes some getting used to. "Can it be undone?" "Absolutely. I mean, I cannot guarantee it, but it is more than likely. I would like to run some tests." "And the bleeding?" "It looks like the hormones you have been taking have kicked of a regular monthly cycle. Then you did a whole bunch of exercise.  Not surprising." "What?" "I want you to come to my office next week for follow-up.  Have you ever had a genetic test of any sort?" "No." "Well, your testes - one looks at first glance more like an ovary." "Ovary. Can I have kids?" "Too soon to tell.  You look happy." She did.  "Bob, you look stunned." "I am." "Given what happened earlier today we want to keep you overnight for observation.  I understand you are a trauma victim and something triggered it." "I got a punch thrown at me in kara-tay class, is all. I am a wimp." "Well, I will let you two talk for a minute and they will come and get you shortly.  No bad news here." "They are coming to take me away, hah-hah, they are coming to take me away," Taylor chanted. "Bob, I am not done with kara-tay.  I want to at least finish a first class. I mean, you paid for it and I want you to get your money's worth." "I think I got that." "Kiss me, you fool,"  she said, and he did, with energy.        
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