Good morning All. Coffees on.

[Davie]

OK, all. One more pot story. After living in Mexico for four months when I was 19 years old, I smuggled two ounces of Acapulco Gold over the border into New Mexico—dumbest thing I ever did. But I was lucky. They stripped our van, found seeds and stems on the floor-boards, but they didn't find our stash. (We hid it in a toothpaste tube they looked at but tossed aside.)

Yes, dumbest thing ever, but also the luckiest.

Cheers,

 

Davie

[Elizabeth Star]

I've had a few close close calls over the years but the most exciting one was........

 

In the late 90's I was living Down in Little Rock. At the time I was heavy into making chainmail so I always had a back pack with full metal rings, tools and stuff I made. You never know when someone may want to buy a key-chain or change bag or what ever else I had on me. I had just bought a used bike, 1971 Suzuki TS185R, 2-stroke enduro. I went to visit a sick friend so her I am on an antique bike, chainmail covered leather jacket, combat boots, back pack full of only the Goddess knows what. Oh, and a grabbed a couple buds of green and shoved it that little 3rd front pocket of my jeans on my way out. The bike being 30+ years old needed adjustments. The front brake, clutch and throttle I could do while riding. The rear brake not so much. On my way I would stop at every gas station, park and adjust the linkage a bit, ride to the next. At about the 5th stop I didn't thin anything was amiss until 6 cruisers and 2 unmarked cars stormed in and circled me.

 

Holy crap! what did I do to deserve all this attention? Where you going? Visiting a sick friends. What's in the bag? Metal chain artwork. License? Suspended. Insurance? No, just got it this morning. Drugs?.......Drugs?.....  NO....  Why were you avoiding us? Huh? what? No, no I wasn't. Apparently, they had been trying to pull me over for several miles but I kept ducking into gas stations and they kept losing me. I didn't know. I always cooperate with the law so...

As the officers were doing their thing, a female officer, against my advice, dumped my metal filled back pack on the hood of a cruiser and started spreading thing around. I could see all the scratched it was making on the hood but she kept going and wanted to talk about. She had genuine interest in my work.  I did get searched but thankfully no one check the little pocket and despite everything I had going against me, I was let go. Told my friend was probably worried that I hadn't shown up yet and have good night.

 

[Willow]

Good morning 

 

I’m drinking my coffee out of the lower half of Donald Duck this morning.  My wife got it out of the cupboard.  I no we have to go to our boats today.  I have 15 gallons of diesel fuel yo get out of the donor boat.  It is sinking prematurely and I can’t risk the fine for pollution.  I also need to pump the water out of it so a friend and I can try to move it to a safer place.

 

Sorry @KymmieLas much as we might like to get the Wrangler, the local dealer only was one and he lifted it.  My wife needs a ladder to get in so besides the extra $6000 that makes that specific vehicle impractical.

 

Willow

[Jani]

15 hours ago, Maddee said:

Time to move on. 

This girl need not be isolated.

Yes Yes Yes!  You're doing fine @Maddee.

 

[Linda Marie]

Deer are welcomed to the mini farm, they got to eat also.

LM

 

 

[Linda Marie]

With nothing for me to talk about today I'll go with this, we as trans people open new doors with every step we take. 

We battle, we cry and yet we smile also. As we open up to each other we grow stronger, together we can conquer. 

Love and hugs,

LM♥️

[Heather Shay]

@Linda Marie do you write poetry? You have a beautiful way with words - concise, well thought out, crafted to touch the heart.

[Linda Marie]

So what do I wear to the Drag Brunch coming up 6/27/2021?

I went over a lot of outfits and decided this one with the help of my wife. I will be there with her, our daughter and brother in law.

She asked where are the heels? I said we will be in Asheville, not jumping out of the car and jumping back in after, we will be shopping, dinner and taking in the sites. Been a long time for me up in Asheville, I'm no stranger there. I cut my -transgender- teeth in Asheville, lol. 

LM♥️

[Linda Marie]

@Shay Hi Shay, I'm no poet and I know it, lol. I have done presentations for the last 20 years. Had college courses in giving presentations.

 Love and hugs,

LM♥️

[Heather Shay]

@Linda Marie well... my feet show it... they're Longfellows.

 

[Lee H]

You look very nice, Marie. I admire your style.

~~A  hug, from Lee~~

 

[Linda Marie]

My stupid topic today, Horror movies. Which movie rocked your boat? As a young kid The Crawling Eye freaked me. As a young adult and stoned at the time...in the movie theater and it kept me glued to the seat,  The Alien. Not sure if it was the pot or movie gluing me to the seat. Could of been the Milk Duds and pop corn and hot tamale candy, not sure.

Gosh those were the days.

LM♥️  

[Willow]

5 hours ago, Linda Marie said:

we as trans people open new doors with every step we take. 

We battle, we cry and yet we smile also. As we open up to each other we grow stronger, together we can conquer. 

So very true.

[MirandaB]

Good morning,

We’re internet acquaintances, so don’t feel the need to express sympathy, I’ll take it, but anyway, I helped my mother pass away yesterday. After 7 1/2 days where it was mostly just me as the visitor during the parts of the 12 hour visitation times we finally let her go. She was on a positive trajectory from Tuesday to Sunday, then a devastating one after that when it switched to ‘end of life’ decisions. Changing my role from helping her try to recover to advocating to ending the suffering as quickly as possible. 

 

 The hardest best saddest worst thing ever. Mom was great, and all the tributes were heartfelt and not BS. (People say I will look back and be glad I did it, I say, nope, don’t have to look back, already glad).

 

My egg broke during quarantine, she was high on the list to tell but wanted to do it in person, just us two. Once HRT started, only saw her in person when Dad passed, and then two visits, one too hectic and the second when she wasn’t feeling good, we didn’t know at the time her kind of normal sounding problem was the sign of what landed her in the ER the very next day.

 

I was devastated after the hectic visit I mentioned above, didn’t think I had to come out yet at that stage of presentation and expected more visits, but after coming home I had one of the biggest cries of my life and I was an ugly crier before I went on e. Might have been an hour straight or more. Almost like somehow I had foreseen that I had blown my last chance to be me in front of one of the most important people in my life.

 

 

 

 

 

[Elizabeth Star]

So wow, yesterday was my 18 month HRT anniversary. I've changed so much both physically and emotionally. Both my resilience and marriage have been tested on a level that most people could never imagine.

 

I was so scared at that first appointment. I had no idea what to expect. Would I be judged and deemed unfit? would someone snicker at me from across the room? So man fears and none of the were realized. I could have gone in there with a broken arm and would've been treated the same.

 

Socially, I'm was an outcast with very little to no friends so I expected that to stay the same. It didn't. Granted, I did lose a few but gain many more. People Who were just acquaintances have become good friends.

 

My job has been better than i could have imagined. Sure a couple of the other girls are gay but in the history of over 40 years and thousands of employees that have been in/out the door, I am the only trans person to work there.

 

My wife has seen a better version of me. She no longer freaks out when I come through the door from work in woman's clothing, face full of make up and painted nails.  We still have our moments but they are becoming few and far between.

 

So much of life has turned for the better. I'm more in touch with my feeling, the earth, the Goddess, the things in life you can't see or touch.

 

Looking forward to the next 6 months to unfold and see what life has in store for me.

 

 

[Elizabeth Star]

@RhondaSI sorry for your loss and you have condolences. Losing a loved one is never easy.

[Willow]

Hi 

 

Rhonda, so sorry for your loss.

 

Liz, I am happy for you that things are improving with your wife.  That is a very important breakthrough.  We are in the ok today and not ok tomorrow stage.  However, there is the added stress of moving which she is very unhappy about.  Can’t say I blame her but it’s to allow her the money to do other things she wants to do.  Got the pictures from the realtor yesterday and they were amazing. The house never looked so good.

 

That’s all for now.

 

hugs

 

Willow

[Guest]

2 hours ago, RhondaS said:

Good morning,

We’re internet acquaintances, so don’t feel the need to express sympathy, I’ll take it, but anyway, I helped my mother pass away yesterday. After 7 1/2 days where it was mostly just me as the visitor during the parts of the 12 hour visitation times we finally let her go. She was on a positive trajectory from Tuesday to Sunday, then a devastating one after that when it switched to ‘end of life’ decisions. Changing my role from helping her try to recover to advocating to ending the suffering as quickly as possible. 

 

 The hardest best saddest worst thing ever. Mom was great, and all the tributes were heartfelt and not BS. (People say I will look back and be glad I did it, I say, nope, don’t have to look back, already glad).

 

My egg broke during quarantine, she was high on the list to tell but wanted to do it in person, just us two. Once HRT started, only saw her in person when Dad passed, and then two visits, one too hectic and the second when she wasn’t feeling good, we didn’t know at the time her kind of normal sounding problem was the sign of what landed her in the ER the very next day.

 

I was devastated after the hectic visit I mentioned above, didn’t think I had to come out yet at that stage of presentation and expected more visits, but after coming home I had one of the biggest cries of my life and I was an ugly crier before I went on e. Might have been an hour straight or more. Almost like somehow I had foreseen that I had blown my last chance to be me in front of one of the most important people in my life.

 

 

 

 

 

I’m with you. I stand by you. I support you. I believe in you. I understand.

 

I lost my mother last July. She was in another state and I couldn’t be with her when she passed. I think she knew about me. 
 

I’m sorry for your loss. What you did took courage and compassion. I heard a quote yesterday that our purpose in life is to help each other when our time runs out (I think it was a This American Life episode from two weeks ago).

 

Love and hugs

[Jackie C.]

3 hours ago, RhondaS said:

We’re internet acquaintances, so don’t feel the need to express sympathy, I’ll take it, but anyway, I helped my mother pass away yesterday.

 

You're getting it regardless. I'm so very sorry sweetie. Let it all out.

 

Hugs!

[KymmieL]

Jackie, is correct. Rhonda while it just may be "internet" friendship you are one of us. Having the same struggles as the rest of us.

 

I was there when my dad passed. My mom, my sister and I made that hard decision. Knowing he would never want any help staying alive. it was hard. Haven't had a day go by that I didn't think about him. Even knowing that he would never have accepted me being transgender and a woman. He was always judgemental but he was my dad.

 

One of the hardest things about being female is the emotions. But then that is one thing that helped signal I was a woman. I cry at the drop of a hat. lol

 

 

Kymmie

[AmberM]

@RhondaS I can't imagine how hard it is, and you my condolences. I offer you internet soup and an internet hug. That has to be hard to make that kind of choice, and am glad to know that you are already at peace with it. Feel free to vent as you need to and know people are listening and hearing you.

 

~Amber

[Ivy]

@RhondaSI'm sorry for your loss as well.  I lost both my parents years ago, but I still remember the feelings.

It really is a turning point in our lives.  The beginning of a new chapter, yet with sadness.

[Davie]

Hugs, @RhondaS

 

So sorry to hear about your goodbye. For myself I was hateful for my dad when he passed and even though we weren't close, it was hard to let go of. I was much closer to my mom and went through her loss with sympathy and love and her memory is dearer to my heart for that. In either case, it was a hard time for me. Take care of yourself now. And let love and care come sit with you.

All the best,

 

Davie

[Linda Marie]

Going in circles on what to wear to the drag brunch but finally decided on this.

I'll be there with wife, daughter and brother in law.

Rhonda, I'm am sorry for your loss. It is a sad part of our lives.

Hugs,

LM♥️

 

 

 

 

[Heather Shay]

@RhondaS My heart goes out to you lady - I am so glad you were able to share yourself with her though and that is a memory to treasure.