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1 minute ago, Willow said:

 

Well, it’s official!  I will be moving into our new place as Willow.  We talked at length this week about it and I explained my position without making an edict.  Gave her the opportunity to rebut.  At issue in the end we’re wig verses pool water and how do I introduce you since I don’t want to be seen as a lesbian.  Water resistant wig adhesive and got ahead and call me “my transgender husband”. (Approved by a slim margin at my group meeting)

 

 

Fun 50s/60s frilly swim cap? Go sans wig with a hat then put on the swim cap poolside? If you're going to be introed around as my trans husband, it's not like people are going to judge you by your lack of hair poolside.  Wig adhesive just sounds horribly high maintenance. lol

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@Bri2020 you could be right but my wife already turned her nose up at frilly bathing cap. I don’t really think it will be an issue since I’ll just be sitting around or cooling off.  You can’t really swim in the pool and it’s no more than 4’ deep. Except to lay on a float it really shouldn’t be an issue 

 

I’ve thought about playing the cancer card.  There is some truth to that, I just didn’t really lose my hair to the treatment.  I’ve been cutting my hair to as short as my clippers will go and even shaved it. Guess we’ll see what happens.  
 

it you can tell by Crocs there might be another transgender woman living there.  Or she could have just thought they were pretty. White with one set of strips across the toe that match our colors.

 

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Good morning everyone. I'm sitting here at Precision/ Cirine waiting room for my 4 hour electrolysis session. Beautiful day out. Hope everyone has a great day ❤️

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8 hours ago, Marcie Jensen said:

I don't want to get too optimistic over this, but it looks like a major breakthrough with her and I had to share.

This sounds like a wonderful change

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My son getting used to the changes more.He has been calling me Holly and said he fully accepts it now.Has noticed I am still the same person but much happier.My wife and I went to a support group for couples that have a transgender spouse last night.It was neat hearing the husband's stories whom are either post op,pre op and transgender living as women now.Told mine as well.

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1 hour ago, Jamie68 said:

Good morning everyone. I'm sitting here at Precision/ Cirine waiting room for my 4 hour electrolysis session. Beautiful day out. Hope everyone has a great day ❤️

I will be there in about 10 days!

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4 minutes ago, Bri2020 said:

I will be there in about 10 days!

 

My goodness! Hopefully @Jamie68 will be done before then. Ten days of electrolysis sounds excruciating!

 

Hugs!

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Congrats @Marcie Jensenthat's wonderful news!  

 

I'm feeling bittersweet right now.  I left my job at the thrift shop I managed for over two years.  I'm going to miss that job but frankly I need more hours and more money than I was getting there.  Next week I start working for my local Primark.  I won't be a manager but it's more hours and money.  I can work my way up.

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Thank you everyone for your encouraging words and support regarding my last post. It means the word to me to have such a wonderful group of ladies in my life.

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Hi everyone again

 

we are at the beach. Since I knew the wind was going to take a toll on my hair I wore my mussy hair. You know the flyaway type that never looks like anything but you shook it out.

 

it’s a very pleasant day and experience.  And it will pretty much be this way from now on. I am filling in my bathing suit better.  And I bought a couple of Skorts the other day, same size and brand I’ve bought before.  I had trouble getting then over my butt!  Could it be? Am I getting a butt too?  I’m happy as a clam in the ocean.  Oh wait I am in the ocean.  
 

this week has gone from one of my worst to one of my best.

 

 

good luck with all those laser and electrolysis sessions. I don’t think I could handle catching up in ten days.  You go girl.

 

happy hugs

 

Willow

 

PS. Pretty sure my wife will be going to partners group starting next month.  The coordinator was at our adult meeting plugging it.  We’d already replied to a message she put out but now they have met.

 

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Good afternoon everyone

yes still sipping coffee

 a new twist , i been sleeping in one of  the spare rooms for a wile, not her choice  i have real  bad sleeping problems

and don't want to disturb her rest , well this morning she suggested we fix the other room up for a room of my own ,

i am excited of having a room and some  privet space of my own , but some how it feels so so permanent and that makes me sad

and has brought tears, damn tears i feel like a fountain so much  these days..

just growing pains of a confused girl i guess,

 

  Peace, Love N Hugs to all

                    Betty  

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32 minutes ago, Betty_B said:

some how it feels so so permanent and that makes me sad

My ex insisted on separate rooms for about a year before we actually split.  I had not come out yet, there were other issues.  It broke my heart.

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5 hours ago, Bri2020 said:

I will be there in about 10 days!

I go to the one on Fullerton. On my way home now. Got my lower parts done and nipples. Glad I found this place. Little under 2 hour drive. 

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1 minute ago, Jamie68 said:

I go to the one on Fullerton. On my way home now. Got my lower parts done and nipples. Glad I found this place. Little under 2 hour drive. 

Going again July 9th 

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Hi, heading out tonight. it did not start out well since the out fit that I picked out did not fit... 

 

so wearing a dress that i wore before. first time using lip gloss tonight. Love the shiny but not a fan of the sticky feeling.

 

Have a good night everyone. hopefully I can find a good dance partner tonight!

 

Rachel

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So tonight took the wife to Red Lobster for mothers day dinner. Had to go to Cheyenne. As we don't rate one here in Laramie.  We saw a couple kids dressed up it was prom night both here and over the hill. On the way home we made a cruise lap to check out the cars. then headed for home.

 

We wound up going past the place where the prom was held in Cheyenne. Oh, the beautiful dresses. I was so envious. I never went to  either prom or any dance at school for that matter. I would have loved to have gone as myself. wearing a beautiful prom dress.

 

Any of you girls like to go to your prom as your true self?

 

Kymmie

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Speaking of High School, they just tore down the high school building I went to.  They tore down the junior high a number of years ago.  Now it’s all consolidated on one campus wher the building i attended used to be.  Intermediate, high school, technical school and community college.  
 

I went to my proms but not with anyone special.  In both cases, when the prom was over I took my date either home or to a girls slumber party and I went home or whatever.  Not really all that fun.

 

as for reunions, I last attended my 45th ten years ago.  I went with my wife as the last time I expected to go back to my childhood home town.  My grandfather, dad, mom and sister were all gone so I couldn’t see myself returning except to visit their graves.  I said goodbye to them for the last time.

 

if any of them knew about me before they died, they knew before I did.  Yes the signs had been there all along but I certainly didn’t realize.

 

Kymmie, I think you mentioned being pregnant.  I found pregnant girls bodies beautiful.  I wished for boobs from an early age, I thought girls had it easy.  They got to choose who the went out with.  If and when they got serious and dumped guys frequently.  The reverse just wasn’t true.

 

the life of a teen or twenty something could be very difficult.

 

enough of this.  I’m ranting about things that happened long ago and wished they could be different. I’ll bet I’m not the only one.

 

good night

 

Willow

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Having a 25 year high school reunion here in June.Found out it will be good with me coming as Holly.Some knew I was transgender,my name tag will have Holly on it

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1 hour ago, Hannah Renee said:

I went to the 40th, and a woman walked up to me at one point and told me that I was one of only a few guys who had aged gracefully. Surprised me, since I couldn't recall her ever having been in any of my classes. Would be interesting to hear what she might say this year.

 

Maybe that you're more graceful now than ever? 😀


There were a couple high schools I went to, but I'm not aware of any reunions from either. If they did have any, it's very possible I wouldn't have shown up on the lists, and if I did, they would've had a hard time finding good contact info for me. But that's just as well. A herd of wild buffalo on cans of Popeye's spinach wouldn't be able to drag me to a reunion for either! Nope, nuh-uhh, no way! Not in boy mode or girl!

 

Prom, on the other hand, is one thing I did miss out on. I'll admit, it does cut pretty deep whenever I do see a group of youngsters out for prom. (Especially the girls, naturally.)

 

2 hours ago, Willow said:

Kymmie, I think you mentioned being pregnant.  I found pregnant girls bodies beautiful.  I wished for boobs from an early age, I thought girls had it easy.  They got to choose who the went out with.  If and when they got serious and dumped guys frequently.  The reverse just wasn’t true.

 

I can relate to all this sooo much.

 

Well...

 

On a different, more upbeat note...Today (or I suppose yesterday now) I took a daytrip out with my sister and nieces (a 4yo and an almost-2yo) over to Toledo to meet up with our cousin, who came down from Michigan. Naturally, the kids were a handful, especially after a 2 hour car-ride and nap. But all in all it went really well and we all had a great time. Of course, when in Toledo, it's always a shame to miss an opportunity to stop into Tony Packo's, but on the plus side, we did manage to find a fantastic Cuban/Mexican restaurant. It's called Carlos Poco Loco, if you're ever in the area. 😋

 

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9 hours ago, KymmieL said:

 

We wound up going past the place where the prom was held in Cheyenne. Oh, the beautiful dresses. I was so envious. I never went to  either prom or any dance at school for that matter. I would have loved to have gone as myself. wearing a beautiful prom dress.

 

Any of you girls like to go to your prom as your true self?

 

It probably would have been problematic. I mean first, I'd need someone to go with. I've always had useless lesbian energy and it does not get me dates. Second, in 1988 they were not especially cool with lesbian relationships.

 

Hugs!

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New g/f who is trans seems to be ghosting me. Or maybe she is depressed again. I would be sad if we could not hang out anymore, but relationships in general are work, then you add in all the stuff of two trans women and their temperaments and whatever hangups are lurking...

So I suspect this is part of transitioning is the friend/relationship shuffle. Generally I am fairly comfy with being single, ...but it is nice to do things with a partner, and I learn a whole lot about myself.

In the meantime, a girl I haven't seen or spoke to in over 15 years cold drunk called me and I guess saw my updated FB profile and asked me when I became a girl. To sum up, said I'd have my sister who has been sober for 30 years text you her number if you want help. Probably won't hear from her again.

Talked with my BFF from HS, she though is always there for me.

So I continue to explore and try to get to know people, like other girls in my trans groups, it's always about timing and keeping expectations low. Every one has their own struggles, the lesson being I can become softer, more empathetic and compassionate too. 

Apparently, one of the girls is doing a new facial hair technique that involves a type of waxing that comes from overseas, so I am keeping in touch with her to see how it works out. But she's a blonde so laser prob. doesn't work for her.

It's going to be sunny and 80s all week, so I am going to try to have as much fun as I can this summer, my first one out as me- despite whoever wants to join or not.

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5 minutes ago, stveee said:

New g/f who is trans seems to be ghosting me. Or maybe she is depressed again. I would be sad if we could not hang out anymore, but relationships in general are work, then you add in all the stuff of two trans women and their temperaments and whatever hangups are lurking...

Very true, relationships are hard to nurture for well adjusted cis hetero people, add all of our stuff...well lets just say that it's complicated doesn't even come close to the mark lol

 

So I suspect this is part of transitioning is the friend/relationship shuffle. Generally I am fairly comfy with being single, ...but it is nice to do things with a partner, and I learn a whole lot about myself.

I'm in the same boat except I had to learn to me ok being alone. That took about 6 months post break up. I'm finding that transitioning is all about personal growth, probably even more so than physical.  Other's see the physical, and that's hard to get through but the mental and emotional stamina that you need to develop in order to get through has been the real work. At least for me

 

Everyone has their own struggles, the lesson being I can become softer, more empathetic and compassionate too. 

I look back at  my revelation that I was trans and one thing that was obviously a big clue things were going to crack was that I had declared that January that I was going to become a softer, warmer , more emotionally available version of myself.  Especially with my staff.  I always kept people and their challenges at arms length.  I cared about people, but I just couldn't let my walls down enough to connect on a more humanistic level.  every time I was faced with a moment where I was tempted to respond in my old way I would verbally  declare- "nope, this is the year of the kinder softer Rick" so that people would understand I'm trying to change my approach.  My  psychological walls of repression were breaking down and I couldn't stand how I was going through this world from a personality trait standpoint. 6 months later is when I finally couldn't stand my physical body either which brought about the final collapse of my defensive repression of who I truly was.  I've found that the work on my personality has become so much easier without testosterone. 

 

It's going to be sunny and 80s all week, so I am going to try to have as much fun as I can this summer, my first one out as me- despite whoever wants to join or not. 

You go girl!

 

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46 minutes ago, Jackie C. said:

 

It probably would have been problematic. I mean first, I'd need someone to go with. I've always had useless lesbian energy and it does not get me dates. Second, in 1988 they were not especially cool with lesbian relationships.

 

Hugs!

I hear ya, Sister. I would have been worst for me, it was 1983. Being trans and a lesbian oh, the horror.

 

Their has been some talk about a 40 yr reunion next year in our facebook group. I would so love to go as Kymmie. The current situation kinda put a mountain in the way. 

 

Well my wife did it to me again last night. made me feel like crap. So since the military reunion is off. I changed my off time to that Saturday. As they are having a cruise in at Black Hills Harley. I figured me and the wife head up for the day. Also meet up with a military friend who is still heading up that week.

 

The town our middle son lives in has street drags yearly on their main street. I found out yesterday, it is the same day. I made the mistake of telling my wife. So, last night we are in the kitchen I am looking to fix our coffee and she is grinding extra. She turns to me with her disgusted look she has and asks me, "have you ever heard of family first?"

I reply, yeah. She begins telling me about how she doesn't care about doing anything other that visiting our grandkids. That our plan to take our oldest grandson to cars and coffee for his 7th birthday. In grampy and grammys wagon, doesn't mean anything. 

 

That with my middle sons, middle son being a 2 yr old car nut. wouldn't it be better if I went and took him to the street drags. That because since I couldn't get a room during a car show local to them. I am not planning on going. I am a horrible grandfather. She had me almost crying.

 

 

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Today starts a new chapter in life. Wow, as I type that I realise how many new chapters have been written in the last couple of years! Holy -crap- I've got to get into a groove of stability at some point.  

 

I passed my real estate boards yesterday!  Friday I passed my course final and they submitted the paperwork electronically allowing me to take the boards. It usually takes a few days for that to process and I thought I would spend this week continuing to study while at my ladies entrepreneur beach retreat.  An hour or so later I got the authorization email to take the exam. I went to schedule it and low and behold, there was one slot left on Saturday afternoon.  I said -expletive- it, I've just studied like cray all week for my final, I might as well just take the boards and if I don't pass, I can just take it next week or so after some more studying.  Well, I passed and now I get to change my focus to finding a brokerage this week!

I'm pretty sure I'm going to have my pick of 5 or 6 firms to work with. I'm finding that there is huge differences in how they operate, commissions, support and training etc etc.  I really want to make sure my first year is with someone who can truly help me launch this career well.  It's going to be a hard decision.  

One of the things I was reading in a blog about choosing an agency to start with was the consideration of "how are you going to stand out and develop a brand identity" if you join a big national firm (which tends to have the best training and support)

I laughed out loud at that thinking, that's the one thing I'm not worried about. People will see and remember the tall, redheaded transgender woman. lol. For good or bad, I'm memorable ;)

 

This talk of proms and HS reunions is interesting.  I barely graduated HS and was a complete stoner back then.  I worked hard after HS to change that and disassociated with most of the people I was friends with because they were going down a deeper and darker path that I knew I wouldn't survive.  I'm not sure if there has been a reunion but I probably would never have gone.

As for prom. My new self would have loved that. 6 months ago at the end of the consignment shops big sidewalk sale there was a gorgeous prom dress that no one bought so I got it for $5. I think when I finish my transition I want to do a photoshoot of "prom or homecoming reimagined" in that dress. 

 

Today is going to be boring chores day. i've neglected the apartment and since I'm going away for 4 days I need to get things cleaned up and in order. Plus shopping and packing for the trip. 

I can't wait to get to the beach Monday.  It's going to be too cold and windy to enjoy typical beach activities but my plan is to get up and walk to the beach with a thermos of coffee and sit there all bundled up to watch the sunrise and do some reflection. 

I'm staying a couple blocks from the beach in this huge 12 bedroom home that use to be owned by the Dupont family as their summer home back in the 50s. Then a church bought it and converted it into a retreat center. We rent the whole place out for $450/person. They bring in a local chef to prepare three meals a day for us. So basically the days are meeting up with everyone for meal times and then the rest is up to individuals to do what they want. I think there are 14 ladies coming this year.  Most of us come with a "work" item to focus on. Some are developing programs, or a marketing plan or other things like that. SOme come just to reflect of goals for their businesses. Others come with no agenda. We will often help each other mastermind solutions or ideas for each other. Then, after dinner it's usually happy hour and a LOT of wine consumption. Games and girl talk until we have to crash. There is a beach bar/restaurant that is a big LGBTQ+ hangout a few blocks from where we are staying so I plan on grabbing some of the girls to come do a happy hour there one night. 

 

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10 hours ago, Willow said:

 My grandfather, dad, mom and sister were all gone…

…if any of them knew about me before they died, they knew before I did.

It's that way for me too.  There was one sister that knew when I first realized what was going on.  She was supportive, but was already fatally ill (ALS) at the time.

 

 

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      Tuesday night.  They had a quick supper together at a fast food place.  Bob went off to teach karate and Taylor locked herself inside her apartment and worked on her hiring plan.   First the web site problem.  The two guys who ran it were self-taught and knew little.  It currently had three pages, the Home page, the About page and the Contact page,  She asked them to work with Karen in terms of redesigning it and she needed three designs to show Gibbs tomorrow.  The problem was three fold: the two guys and Karen.  Millville was a small town and all three were relatives of members of the Board.  Millville, Millvale. She was doing it.  People here called it either way, sometimes in the space of a few seconds.  She thought it was Millville.  All three had complained about the work, because the two boys regarded it as done and untouchable, even though they actually had not worked on it at all for months.  Like a number of people, they showed up and collected generous pay checks and did nothing.  She had looked at a number of websites and she had been told the company wanted one both internal and external customers could log into.  Her chief difficulty at the moment there was that there was very little content.  She decided to send the three complainers out tomorrow to take numerous pictures of the thirty acres  Or was it forty?  No one seemed to care. She cared, because she needed to get it right.  She debated outsourcing the website to a company, but first she needed something to outsource, and before then she needed to decide whether to keep these people.  She didn't need to mess with them.  So she decided to recommend they hire an experienced website developer with management skills. Would such a person come to Millville?  The schools were good, because the company had poured money into them, and the streets were well paved.  The company had bought all the abandoned houses and maintained them, hoping someday they would be filled again. Millville was crime-free.  People did not lock their doors. Neighborly. Very conservative, but in a good way.  Hard working, ethical, honest. Maybe the Chinese money was corrupting the town?  Not sure.  So she thought they would hire someone, even if it were a remote position.  She would rather have them here, but she would take what she would get.  That would move the website out of her hair. Secondly, she needed an effective presenter.  She could not do all these presentations herself.  She had natural talent but a lot could be passed on. She needed another Mary and another Brenda, or their understudies, effective hardworking people.   Bob. Was he okay with this?  He said she was Management.  Was that a problem?  And she was now earning a ridiculous salary, which she put down to company dysfunction more than anything she had done.  Was that a problem? She was not sure.  He was highly competitive and he had that male ego.  She did not.  A feeling of guilt rose.   Her therapist had brought up her feelings of guilt about not making Dad's expectations, never being the man Dad wanted her to be.  She never could, and this physical evidence backed that up.  What would the doctor say?  She thought about it, and that her therapist said she needed to find a sexual assault survivor's group more than a transgender group right now. Was there one here?  She thought about serving in a women's shelter.  There was one here, oddly enough connected to the church they had visited.  That F on her drivers' license would help.  She was waiting until after she talked to the doctor again to move on that stuff.   Was Bob really buying 160 acres near the old air strip on speculation?  Much of the land around Millville had been for sale for a long time.  That land was being offered at a dollar an acre, the owners having inherited it and now living out of state. Common knowledge.  They would take the first offer, and it had been for sale since the airstrip closed twenty years ago. Airstrip.  That would help.  Not tonight. Focus, girl, she told herself, and read over her notes to do so, which were making less sense the further down she went. It was eleven, and she gave up and went to bed.
    • violet r
      .my name is violet. I'm new here and thus is my first try at forums. I'm 45 and just recently having came to terms of who I really am. Thought a lot of self discovery since I stopped drinking. Drinking was my coping mechanism to hide a lot of thing. There were plenty of signs though the years. As I look back. That i hid inside. Now really sure what made all of this bubble to the surface at this time in my life.  Mabye it was waiting for me to be open minded and ready to accept that I am trans. I have a very unhealthy environment at home that is anti trans. I really don't know what else to say but hi. I hope everyone here will be accepting of me and me work through my journey of finding the real me. I know that since I accepted it I have been much happier than I can remember. Being to real me makes me happy. I hate having to hide this all the the time at home. I work retail management and have no idea if I could even stay in this business if I am to fully come out. Wow that was scary saying all that. It's a first for me
    • Ivy
      It is a lifesaver for a lot of us.
    • Abigail Genevieve
      Thanks.  What I do as a man is what a woman would do if she were a man.  There is just something feminine about the way I act as a man.  It's not that being a woman is actually better, or something to aspire to, but it is just that I am one, while not being one.   If beating my head bloody to get rid off this stupid dysphoria would fix it I would find the nearest wall, but I know that if I did that, when I woke up, it would still be there.   If I did not have this struggle I would be someone else and I would be less of a person than I am.  They say an oak tree growing in an open field is far stronger than one in a forest.  The storms come and go and I stand.   This forum is the first time I have interacted with other people struggling with the same struggle and parallel struggles. It helps.
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