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Thanks, everyone, for the congrats. Still on Cloud 9, but on my walk to burn off excess nervous energy, I tried to sabotage it all by taking it down to Cloud 8. While it should be by the end of the month, we still don't have the final date for our divorce. The name change has no effect on any of the divorce stuff, but I tried to convince myself to feel guilty about the timing for my wife's sake. I guess I'm still only about 98% on "It's my life." And she actually told me that during our meeting last weekend. I'm getting there.

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4 hours ago, Mmindy said:

I'm nursing a bruised leg after on of my props fell on me yesterday morning.

Yikes!  Glad to hear it wasn't worse.  

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4 hours ago, Hannah Renee said:

Legal name change to Hannah Renee

Congratulations

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On 6/22/2022 at 7:07 PM, KathyLauren said:

Houses are selling in three days for $50,000 - $100,000 over asking price!  So if we see a place we like, we can't make an offer conditional on financing or on selling our current house.  We have to be able to move fast.  Hence the pre-approval.

 

 

Things are chilling out in the DC area. still a seller market but they aren't getting those inflated offers anymore. Too many buyers dropped out of the market and inventory is sitting longer, almost 3 weeks on average now.  It was a rapid turn. Price will slowly go up but probably at only a 6% year or year level (according to realtor.com's latest numbers yesterday)

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Good morning everyone.

@Hannah Renee Congratulations on the name change. The process in our state is a little weird but at least changing your gender marker is easy peasy.

 

@MmindyI'm sorry to hear about your mishap and thankful you're, more or less, OK.

 

I know I've been pretty quiet here for a while. I've had a LOT of traumas surfacing. Thankfully, my GT actually specializes in trauma and since I'm in a holding pattern with my transition right now we decided to switch gears. I've come to find out that I'm full of automatic trauma responses. Just the simple action of my supervisor calling me into his office fills me with anxiety and triggers a fight or flight response. Just normal, everyday things are setting me off and I can't keep going like this anymore. It's going to be a long and emotionally painful process but it needs to be done. I can't keep running from my problems.

 

 

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Good morning, everyone.

 

I didn't sleep too hot last night (nightmares galore!). And my husband has me worried because he's panicking over the Supreme Court ruling and is having conversations with his parents that don't involve me at all...even though I'm the subject of the conversation. It's making me a little uneasy. I know he's worried and doesn't want me to worry, but he doesn't realize that by not including me in the conversation, it's making me worry. I tried telling him that and he just changed the subject.

 

28 minutes ago, Elizabeth Star said:

Good morning everyone.

@Hannah Renee Congratulations on the name change. The process in our state is a little weird but at least changing your gender marker is easy peasy.

 

@MmindyI'm sorry to hear about your mishap and thankful you're, more or less, OK.

 

I know I've been pretty quiet here for a while. I've had a LOT of traumas surfacing. Thankfully, my GT actually specializes in trauma and since I'm in a holding pattern with my transition right now we decided to switch gears. I've come to find out that I'm full of automatic trauma responses. Just the simple action of my supervisor calling me into his office fills me with anxiety and triggers a fight or flight response. Just normal, everyday things are setting me off and I can't keep going like this anymore. It's going to be a long and emotionally painful process but it needs to be done. I can't keep running from my problems.

 

 

 

I'm so sorry you're going through that, Elizabeth. As someone with CPTSD, I can certainly relate to having automatic trauma responses. You are doing the right thing by seeking treatment. I wish you the best of luck! ❤️

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@Elizabeth StarI had to go in person (which I preferred anyway) since that e-file system is so convoluted. Being in a small county helped that process.

 

I'm sorry you're having to go through all this stress. I also know that you are a woman of strength, and you will get through this.

 

Hugs 

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@Mmindy I'm so glad you're thoroughly taking care of yourself. I hope you heal soon. Consider getting some arnica cream which helps with inflammation and bruising. 

 

@Hannah Renee CONGRATULATIONS! 

 

I feel for you @Elizabeth Star & @NashySlashy . It's not easy. Speaking from personal experience, (C)PTSD can be painful & quite a nuisance, frankly, for every day functioning. I was walking on the beach with my friend two days ago. We stopped to sit on a concrete slab. There was a backhoe driving back and forth, raking piles of seaweed. The driver seemed to be positioning the truck to drop the rake/hoe thing as close to the concrete slab as possible, but instead slammed it down on the slab. My friend and I both screamed. I felt extremely light headed, as if I stood up too quickly x10, but I was sitting. I felt so sick from the sudden rush of adrenaline - I was trying to collect myself, but kept seeing stars be felt sick. I commented to my friend, well there goes all my cortisol for the day. Next day (yesterday) I was in bed half the day - just had no energy. I did manage to make it to choir rehearsal last night, and I'm doing a bit better today. 

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8 minutes ago, Vidanjali said:

I feel for you @Elizabeth Star & @NashySlashy . It's not easy. Speaking from personal experience, (C)PTSD can be painful & quite a nuisance, frankly, for every day functioning. I was walking on the beach with my friend two days ago. We stopped to sit on a concrete slab. There was a backhoe driving back and forth, raking piles of seaweed. The driver seemed to be positioning the truck to drop the rake/hoe thing as close to the concrete slab as possible, but instead slammed it down on the slab. My friend and I both screamed. I felt extremely light headed, as if I stood up too quickly x10, but I was sitting. I felt so sick from the sudden rush of adrenaline - I was trying to collect myself, but kept seeing stars be felt sick. I commented to my friend, well there goes all my cortisol for the day. Next day (yesterday) I was in bed half the day - just had no energy. I did manage to make it to choir rehearsal last night, and I'm doing a bit better today. 

Ick, that's awful. I'm sorry that happened. :(

 

I'm glad you're feeling better today!

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My morning so far:

 

Woke up at 5:30 feeling nauseous. Not great, considering what else was in store. My wife is having a colonoscopy, so my older daughter took her. Dropped my younger daughter off at school, then headed to my wife's house. I am watching my youngest, along with a friend's 22 year old son with severe CP, 2 goldfish, a guinea pig that my older daughter wanted and now ignores, a foster dog, foster chicken and duck, and my younger daughter's ferret, because she'll be staying here for the holiday helping her sister take care of the friend's son, because the friend is out of town again and my wife is leaving tomorrow to visit her TG friend in Taos. (How's that for a run-on sentence?)  Heck, she doesn't have to go that far - I'm only 25 miles away. Guess I'm not her friend. Maybe I can spice things up with her by telling her I filed for my name change. Sorry. I'm in a peculiar mood today. 

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4 hours ago, Hannah Renee said:

Sorry. I'm in a peculiar mood today. 

It happens

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20 minutes ago, Jandi said:

It happens

Frequently these days 🙂

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Sitting at the side of the road in a dead car, waiting for a tow. I mentioned in another thread that I've come to like lavender. So here we are.

 

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1 hour ago, Hannah Renee said:

Sitting at the side of the road in a dead car, waiting for a tow.

Bummer.   At least you do have a nice view.

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Wow,  @Mmindy get well soon.

 

@Hannah Renee congratulations on the name news.

 

@Bri2020  the Myrtle Beach market still appears to be pretty hot.  Fastest growing area.  We just moved in and the theoretical value is up about $40k.

 

three more buildings and they are done.  They have barely started on the next building.  It’s on the other side of the parking lot from ours.

 

I did not go to group this evening.  Traffic is bad and roads are wet so not a good travel day.

 

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Well got a message from our realtor. the current owner has signed a contract on another house. Yea, now just have to wait till the closing date. Come on July 29th.

 

I am wondering if I will have my own bathroom in our new house. the master bath has a shower. and the other bathroom has the tub and shower. Being my wife and youngest most of the time take a bath. I wonder if I will have the master bath to myself.

Just after I got the good news I texted my wife. It was before noon. I had to ask her while out at dinner if she got it. over 6 hours later. I don't know what is going on with her. Does she want to move or not? She has complained about this place for over 5 yrs especially when recertification time comes. I just wonder what she has on her mind, about the house.  She doesn't seem to thrilled at the idea of getting one.

Is she expecting me to pay all the housing bills. like I do now. while she seems to always have money to burn. While I don't know bit I think she has about 4-5k in her savings. I know she has her retirement from her other job, and the reissued xmas check from her father I never saw. She calls it her Lincoln fund. She actually took 500 out of it to help pay the ernist money.

 

I'll tell you that if the SHTF with us. I have no qualms of just up and leaving her the house. 

 

Well I hope everyone has a good weekend. Of course I have to work.

 

I'll be checking in.

 

Kymmie

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Good early morning

 

The NWS woke me up at 5am when they issued a Tropical Storm Warning for our area.  Gee last night it was only 10% chance it would produce any more than rain and maybe a thunderstorm.  
 

@KymmieL I’m sorry you are going through all this trauma.  None of us deserve to be treated like this, but many are.  I know more who have than who haven’t unfortunately.  
 

I could use a refill on my coffee.  Who’s hosting today?  Oh I guess I am.   I need to make a pot so everyone can enjoy a cup.  Any volunteers to bring the donuts?  maybe some Jersey blueberries?

 

If the rain doesn’t cancel it, the COA is having an ice cream social this afternoon.  Looking forward to that.  Our first social gathering/meet and greet.

 

hugs

 

Willow
 

 

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7 hours ago, KymmieL said:

Well I hope everyone has a good weekend. Of course I have to work.

 

At least you're not alone. I've got clients today too.

 

Hugs!

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Happy Independence Day weekend to those in the USA 😊

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17 hours ago, Hannah Renee said:

I've come to like lavender. So here we are

Good morning Hannah,

Lavender is my fragrance of choice these days.

I hope the car troubles are minimal, and your house/kid sitting went well.

 

Mindy🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

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Well, as far as the car is concerned, it has actually been a dead piece of metal sitting just off my wife's driveway for the past month or two. It had already been replaced for actual usage, so we just wanted to sell it and recoup our money from previous repairs. "Probably only needs a new alternator." Yeah, definitely needs one, along with a radiator (didn't we just have work done on that in March?). Oh, and the chassis is rotting out from underneath it. Buh-bye. 

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Good morning everyone,

 

Thank you for the well wishes, and concern about my mishap and knee injury.

 

I've been working early in the shop to take advantage of the lower temperatures. So my coffee was hours ago, and I've switched to cool water, and the occupational sports drink to keep up my electrolytes. 

 

My knee is still very tender where the darkest of bruising still exists. I never lost any range of motion while wearing shorts, however my jeans put pressure on the side of my knee when I sit or squat. I have a real busy schedule for the next three weeks, and will only take Sunday and Monday evening to celebrate our Independence Day festivities. IMS Symphony on the Prairie at Conner Prairie, IN, then Monday evening we'll take in Westfield Rocks the 4th, in Westfield, IN

 

Best wishes, stay positive, and motivated,

 

Mindy🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋 

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Impressed with every a couple months on my transition going well.My parents say they do not miss the unhappy son they once had now a much happier daughter.My wife loves my soft skin and how my breast development is going.A b cup right now and my goal is a c cup wanting 38 C breasts.My estrogen levels look good so far,this is from my latest check up with the hrt specialist

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Well, I am beginning to think my relationship with E. may be that the girl has never had ever had a real friendship, or very few. Lots of other kinds, and dysfunctional abusive kinds.

If someone really strikes my fancy, I generally love easily and there is little that can happen to change my loyalty, but I have been minding my emotions because I didn't want to ruin it. But when you start caring for a person and they are sick, or still abusing themselves or hurting in general- it hurts. So perhaps the best I can do is just be there for her. 

The strange thing is that she really isn't unique. So many people have to work through healing trauma, that can take a lifetime, myself included. So it is a lesson for me to learn to put my feelings aside and really trying to be nurturing, which isn't always direct. Sometimes, it's about giving space and time to another to work their own garden in their own time and being patient and tolerant. 

Sometimes love is wanting to see the other person find their healing and become whole regardless if it includes you or not.

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