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I have as well. Having problems accessing the site.

 

Well came out on Classmates. Since then I have had 6 people look at my profile. Most of them from the class or two behind mine. Nothing said though, yet. Speaking of classmates, I sent my RSVP for the reunion. Now I am making plans. Have made a hair appointment for about a week before. Want to get a gel mani-pedi. Toe nails will be blue/gold our school colors and the finger nails will be clear. but will do a possible blue/gold on them in normal polish. I am also shopping for a nice casual dress and sandals to possibly wear. Right now time will tell.

 

Well I have a free weekend as my wife and youngest are heading to Lincoln, NE to visit our oldest and family. Leave tomorrow, However I work Fri and Sat. but have a 3 day weekend. Of course, I cannot get over time so I am only working 32hrs. plus holiday pay is my 40.

 

Have a good evening everyone.

 

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3 hours ago, April Marie said:

Ugh. Sorry for the double post. I’ve had problems connecting to the forum the past few days. I assume it’s my ISP, as usual.

 

3 hours ago, EasyE said:

I've had problems connecting as well... it times me out and tells me there is a problem with the server hosting these forums... I, too, always assume it's something on my end...

 

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'Fraid not, our server is under attack and our server gurus are working hard to rectify this issue.

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3 hours ago, Petra Jane said:

 

'Fraid not, our server is under attack and our server gurus are working hard to rectify this issue.

Ugh. I had hoped that it was just on my end. Seems we are "under attack" at all levels. Stand tall, all of us.

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Good morning, everyone!! First cup of coffee is in my system and bringing me back to life. Looks to be another beautiful weather day here so we plan to work out in the yard completing the Spring refresh. The weekend weather looks warm enough that we'll be in the pool and getting some sun.

 

My wife and I decided to have our Happy Hour tonight in dresses instead of casual clothes - now I just have to figure out which to wear. Oh, and which earrings, too, now that I finally have that new dimension of fashion open to me.

 

Be safe, everyone. Enjoy this day - look for the goodness and find a reason to smile. You are all beautiful and loved.

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3 hours ago, April Marie said:

Be safe, everyone. Enjoy this day - look for the goodness and find a reason to smile. You are all beautiful and loved.

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Yeah, I've had problems as well.   I had recently up dated my OS and was suspecting that.

It's been working for me this morning.

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11 hours ago, Petra Jane said:

'Fraid not, our server is under attack and our server gurus are working hard to rectify this issue.

Thank you @Petra Janeand server gurus.

I love you to death. Can't say enough about how beneficial this site is to me, and my coping mechanism.

 

Mindy🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋💖

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Well I've been having some pain in my left wrist. Even a prescription Hydrocodone wouldn't help. So, Headed out to the Cheyenne VA. Got in quickly. Diagnosis carpel tunnel, I've got a wrist brace to wear at night and some topical treatment. When I finished seeing the DR. They gave me my after visit summery, which had all my prescriptions on it. Including, my new E script, which I have been waiting for.  SO I asked the pharmacist about it. 15min later I find out the review group in Minnesota turned it over to our medical center to work out dosage vs anti-coagulant. 

 

So, I am just waiting for my topical treatment. I get called to the window. OH, they are not done with your yet they are adding other things. I wind up getting my months worth of E shots. Now I become a pin cushion.

 

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Kymmie

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Good morning 

 

I too have had intermittent issues getting on but I trust the server team.  They’ve always fixed it before.

 

Got my Botox injections into my larynx yesterday.  Good thing too as I have been having lots of muscle spasms causing me to be unable to speak.  I finally got a better schedule.  More morning shifts less late shifts.  I work all weekend but at least it is 7am to 2 pm so I get the better part of my day off.  As a matter of fact, I need to finish my coffee and go get ready for my shift.

 

Remember those friends we lost, regardless of which action it was.  For me, it was Vietnam.  Several friends lost to fighting and one to agent Orange.  He would help load it on to the planes dispersing it.  Not his job but he had nothing better to do on his time off from regular duties.

 

very rainy here 3 to 5 inches expected before it’s done.

 

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Good morning, everyone! The sun is shining....and I was finally able to get back into the forum so my smile is shining. At one point this morning, I couldn't even access through my cell phone which routes thru Verizon's servers. You've all become such a part of my sanity and support system that I worried that I'd not be able to get back here. I know the admins have to do whatever is needed to protect us all - and the forum - and I'm very thankful to have a chance to check back in.

 

Hopefully, whatever they come up with will allow me to maintain access. But, thinking that I might not get back on made me realize that I needed to thank all of you who have helped me, encouraged me, consoled me and laughed with me over these past 4 months. Your encouragement made me stronger and saved me early on. Please know that I will always be thankful for that.

 

In the meantime, I'm going to relish every moment I have here with you all.

 

Smiles, happiness....and a skort with a t-shirt and flip flops...is the order of the day.

 

Be safe and find the goodness in this beautiful day. Believe me, it's there.

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39 minutes ago, April Marie said:

At one point this morning, I couldn't even access through my cell phone which routes thru Verizon's servers. You've all become such a part of my sanity and support system that I worried that I'd not be able to get back here. I know the admins have to do whatever is needed to protect us all - and the forum - and I'm very thankful to have a chance to check back in.

I had the same problem.  I was really bummed out.  Y'all here are my main support these days.  I live in a very red area, and while most people around here are not personally hostile, they are don't understand being transgender at all.  I've heard there may be a couple trans folks in the area, but I have no contact with them - and they are much younger.

I was so happy when I was able to get in here this morning.

 

I have gotten the impression that the site has been under an attack of some sort?  IDK, not a computer geek myself.  But I would hate to completely lose contact with people I depend on to maintain what's left of my sanity.  If anyone would like to exchange emails or something, in case worse comes to worse, they can DM me.

 

There seems to be a concerted effort to attack LGBT+ people and supporters now, and transgender people in particular.  I don't like the feeling of being isolated.  I wonder if that is the intent.

 

Nolite te bastardes carborundorum

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When I couldn't get access yesterday. I worried some, however I knew that Petra Jane would come through and get us up again.

 

All of you are my family. I can be open and my true self here. Something that I can't even be in my own home.

 

I just wonder how many of these haters have dealt with a trans person and never knew it. We, like everyone else in the world come in all shapes and sizes. What I look at is there are CIS females that are pure and simple ugly. Some manly some ugly and feminine CIS males. Do I make an ugly woman, probably. so do some other females. Would I want to look like a 20 something Hottie. Yes. Daily, I see a woman and wish I looked like them. Alas I am just me. I don't have the disposable income to look like that. I wish. but I am me.

 

I am that young cute girl when I write. I am the person I writing about. In my stories, I can be beautiful, talented, rich, even deadly. Anything I can think of. The only limit is my imagination.

 

Off my soap box and headed for the kitchen for coffee.

 

Hugs,

Kymmie

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Hi everyone

 

We (30 of our friends and neighbors) had a cook out/eat in yesterday evening in celebration of Memorial Day.  They honored the four of us who are Vets and were there.  Hot dogs with chili, meatballs, potato and macaroni salad, deserts and wine.

 

Yes, this is important to all of us to be able to talk to each other even about things you can’t really share with family.  I know my family doesn’t really fully understand.  It’s nice being able to open up here.

 

Unfortunately, we are going through a period of intense hatred.  Just look at all the people who are shooting kids just for going after a ball the is in their yard or being killed just for pulling into a wrong driveway.  Or police officers shooting a child with his wants up after his mother’s boyfriend was fighting with her and the boy called 911.  Way too many people have become killers of innocent people.  Yes, I am aware of transgender friends beginning to arm themselves for self defense.  
 

Certainly, we are being challenged by people who are buying into the hatred and lies.  If they find us and our website there are a lot of ways they can attack even a denial of service attack.  
 

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21 minutes ago, ShawnaB said:

Mom did order me 3 new maxi dresses,she knows I love Maxi dresses 

I love it!!! My wife ordered me a LBD, yesterday. She's known I've wanted one and found a nice one while looking at JJill online.

 

I just got out of the pool for the day, watered the flower beds and as soon as I feed the dogs I'm going to get ready for our Happy Hour - planning on wearing my light blue crop pants with a new navy popover with embroidered flowers on the sleeves.

 

Heaven on Earth.

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Still struggling with the fact that my daughter (18 yo) isn't talking to me at all these days ... My wife and I haven't been doing well at all (after I told her I like to wear women's clothes), and she outed me to the kids. My daughter apparently blames me completely for the marriage going south. We were so close up until all of this. I just can't believe how much I am being vilified while my wife just ignores all of her issues because they are much less sensational...

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My nephew Johnathan was the first to call me Aunt Ashley. I didn't know to cry or be extremely happy to finally see a family member recognize who I actually am. My second ex and I have become friends but I think it was only because we have kids together. She had her top layer of her right eye damaged really badly. They removed it and at first didn't give her any narcotics. They just gave her ibprophen. A couple days later they finally gave her some good pain medicine. Last Friday the doctor gave her his personal cell phone number because he was concerned about it. Saturday came around and it didn't get any better so they removed the lens that was protecting her eye and gave more eye drops. I don't remember any of the technical terms but I do know that she is in a lot of pain because I had eye surgery too. It was kind of nice because I was able to spend more time with the kids on Saturday while she went to the appointment. I'm just now on my second cup of coffee because I forgot to clean out the reusable k-cups. Which I am thinking about just using regular k-cups instead after I finish up my coffee grounds. Church service was great I'm glad I changed to an affirming church and they even remember me. I'm not just a number. I do like the modern Christian music but the old hymns are nice too. Thank you @April Marie I'm definitely glad to get going and can't wait to see what the good Lord has planned out for me. I sure was wondering what happened the server. I did a check up on the internet and it wasn't on my side. It said that it was the site that was the problem. 

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Oh I forgot to mention that I might have a female partner. We are currently just friends but we do love each other. It can't be anything more since by law I'm considered separated so still married. Which I can't wait to take things to the next step. She lives in Colorado and I live in Mississippi. This is my second attempt at long distance relationship so hopefully it works out. Her name is Cindy. We met on Plenty of Fish dating site. She did have a relationship where the other girl was in Germany so this is no where near as long distance. I get to talk to her grandma since her parents died. I can't wait for that. I'm hoping that she will like me. 

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@EasyE it's going to take time and hopefully they'll come around. I understand how you feel. I lost my third wife over it. We are getting a divorce. Then again I didn't tell her I was trans. I don't get to see her boy anymore. The good thing is that my second wife hasn't put in hate in our kids. Which I think she doesn't do that because she knows that she relies on me a lot. Just keep praying and it will work in God's time. I think another thing that your 18 year old is struggling with is why didn't you tell her earlier. It's not easy finding something big happening when you get to that age. Also hopefully in time you won't be stressed out because you were living in secret. 

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36 minutes ago, Ashley0616 said:

@EasyE it's going to take time and hopefully they'll come around. I understand how you feel. I lost my third wife over it. We are getting a divorce. Then again I didn't tell her I was trans. I don't get to see her boy anymore. The good thing is that my second wife hasn't put in hate in our kids. Which I think she doesn't do that because she knows that she relies on me a lot. Just keep praying and it will work in God's time. I think another thing that your 18 year old is struggling with is why didn't you tell her earlier. It's not easy finding something big happening when you get to that age. Also hopefully in time you won't be stressed out because you were living in secret. 

Thanks for the encouragement. Down deep I think my daughter is mad at me more because she sees my marriage with her mom disintegrating and not so much because of the clothes thing (she has trans friends for goodness sakes!)

 

Ironically, she and her mom fight like cats and dogs EVERY DAY. I have always been the peacemaker. I have always been the one defending my daughter because her mom is very strict with her. Yet, she has chosen to abandon me completely. I don't get it. She won't even hear my side of things -- we haven't talked since my wife outed me to her... 🙁😞

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17 minutes ago, EasyE said:

Thanks for the encouragement. Down deep I think my daughter is mad at me more because she sees my marriage with her mom disintegrating and not so much because of the clothes thing (she has trans friends for goodness sakes!)

 

Ironically, she and her mom fight like cats and dogs EVERY DAY. I have always been the peacemaker. I have always been the one defending my daughter because her mom is very strict with her. Yet, she has chosen to abandon me completely. I don't get it. She won't even hear my side of things -- we haven't talked since my wife outed me to her... 🙁😞

She needs time to process like I said. It's rough because all she has known is you two. She is going to quickly find someone or something to blame. I don't I would take it personally yet. She'll give you a chance. 

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Hi Ivy

 

I am trying to help a mother who needs an endocrinologist for her teenage daughter, Bella.  The endocrinologist they were talking to has decided to no longer treat teens.  That seems to be a growing problem.  Do you know of any endocrinologist in or near Ashland that might be willing to take a teen patient?  
 

thank you.  Willow 

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3 hours ago, Willow said:

Do you know of any endocrinologist in or near Ashland that might be willing to take a teen patient?

I'm afraid not.  I would suggest Asheville, but even that is a pretty good drive.  What about Boone?  It is a university town.  

I get my HRT from the VA  in Asheville.

I'm actually in Cleveland County, close to the SC border myself.

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Good morning, everyone!!! It was so refreshing to sit down at the computer and find you all here this morning - thanks again to our Admin team!!!

 

Yesterday was a beautiful day spent at our pool followed by Happy Hour and a light dinner with my wife out on our patio. I decided to wear the new popover I got recently - Navy Blue with embroidered flowers on the sleeves. I changed my avatar picture to one wearing the top - I think it's just gorgeous...the top...I'm just the old grandmother wearing it. 🙂  We ended the evening sitting out drinking wine and watching the sun set. I am so very blessed.

 

I always struggle with Memorial Day here in the US. While it's become a day of BBQ's and fun for most, it is a somber day for me as I remember The Fallen in our militaries including some friends lost along the way. I, ultimately, have decided to make it a celebration of their lives and sacrifices. I'm here because of their sacrifice - and I have been given this opportunity to explore and become because of them, as well. Salute to all those who made that ultimate sacrifice for us.

 

So, today I will spend some more time working on my tan by the pool. We plan on making burgers on the grill for dinner...and, perhaps, another evening of watching the sun set with a glass of wine and the woman I love so dearly.

 

Be safe, everyone, and find the goodness in this day we've been given.

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Good morning y'all!

 

I'll be home all day, but maybe some friends might come by to visit.  I don't get out much anymore, so it is what it is. 

I have plenty to keep me busy if I really wanted to, but sometimes a lazy day around the house with a warm cup of coffee is rewarding as well. 

I just looked in the mirror and I can't believe that just a year ago I was pretending to be a man dressing in bib overalls to hide my breasts. Those overalls weren't working anymore (growing spree) so they went on a shelf, and I let my hair grow. Now I look like a completely different person.  I have always felt more female than male, so now I'm just letting my body lead the way. I do hope my body decides to stop soon, my breasts are large enough already and big breasts do get in the way. 🙄

 

Have a good Memorial day y'all!

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      Bob was on his way home from the dojo and he "just happened" to driver by her place. It was 10:30.  Her light was still on.  He knew exactly where she was sitting.  He saw her in his mind.   A fierce wave of desire that took his breath away suddenly showed up. All he had to do was stop, get out of the car, walk to the door and knock.  She would answer, glad to see him.  She would know why he was there and what he wanted. She would invite him in, maybe get him something to drink, disappear for a moment and return in "something more comfortable."  She would lead him back. Oh, joy.   And never, ever speak to him again afterwards.  Or she would not let him in but be angry about it.  In no way, emotionally, physically, mentally or spiritually, was she ready for this, and he knew it, if he was honest with himself, and she knew he knew it.  She would look upon it as another assault and their relationship would be irretrievably broken.  He would have to leave town. It would devastate her. It would devastate him.    He fought himself.  He was frozen to his seat as his reason and his body fought. He was twenty four years old, a full-blooded male with normal desires; he had just worked out and he was ready.  All he had to do now was open the car door. No one would know. He held his hands, one in the other, to keep one from moving, against his reason and will, to open that door.  He did not want to be a slave of his desires.   He looked across the street.  Mrs. McCarthy, sister of his landlord, was peeking though her window.  She knew his car.  Everyone in town would know by noon the next day if he got out of the car.  Taylor did not need that, either, and she would know, if he came to the door now, what a selfish thing it would be: in his own eyes, in the eyes of Taylor, in the eyes of the town, and worst of all, in the eyes of God.   He sat there a moment longer.  He was, as he reflected, entering into her sufferings in a small way that she would be made whole, healthy and happy: what he wanted more than anything.  But this hurt.  Why had all this come on her?  He asked God again, but there was only silence. He drove home in that silence. He chided himself for even going on her street and for driving on it other nights.  He would stop that, he told himself.   ------------------------------------------   The next morning Taylor went out to her car to go to work.  Mrs. McCarthy met her before she got to it. "I thought you were going to get lucky last night, dearie," she said. Taylor was puzzled. "Why, what do you mean?" "That young fellow - you know, Bob - he's been driving around here, going up and down the street some nights, not stopping.  Well, last night he parked and sat in his car for a while.   I think he was staring at your window.  I think he was trying to get up the courage to knock on the door. I was rooting for him.   But then he drove away.  Faint heart never won fair lady, as they say. What a shame. You two are a lovely couple.  Well, have a good day!" "Thank you, Mrs. McCarthy."  Taylor knew Bob extremely well and knew what had been going through his mind.  She was more than grateful he had not gotten out of the car. Better for him, better for her, better for everybody.  Surgery "down there" sooner than later.  This was driving the poor boy crazy. It was driving her crazy, too.  But she had a lot to work through. Surgery "up here" she said, pointing to her head.  She woke up her therapist on the way to work.  They were still talking when she pulled into her designated parking spot.  That was a perk that had happened yesterday.  She took a deep breath and headed into work. It would be another wild day.
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