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2 hours ago, Timber Wolf said:

Just put my tiny holiday tree up in the window, have my (electric) stove on with a fireplace scented candle burning which smells sooo good, and am watching the snow fall outside my window. 

Wow.  53 here and sunny.

I do have my fire going, but unfortunately can't watch it without opening the stove door.

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I love the gel polishes. I also have an LED light and having my nails instantly dried is just amazing. I can get a whole lot more creative. Currently pink with black and white speckles. I ended up doing acrylic over the nail I broke Sunday and another that was short cause I broke it last week. I didn't do any fill. Can't really tell with the color scheme. I know they'll probably fall off in a week or two but I'm OK with that. I had one of other girls tell me she was jealous of my nails. Her's look quite nice but her thing was that they're overall a lot smaller so you can't really see any designs.


I've been feeling a lot calmer an happier the last couple of days. I think the new E and P are finally starting to do their thing. My girls are a little ouchy so I'm praying it's a precursor to a growth spurt.

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Good Morning Y’all


I just have to throw that in once in a while.  lol.


overcast and cool today.   

yesterday I had a migraine all day. Took the prescription medication for it which helped but didn’t knock it out. Took some ibuprofen which I’m not supposed to take but I have a limited supply of the other,  that knocked it down further.  But it’s back with vigor today.   At least mine are not completely debilitating.  

I hope everyone is going to have a good thanksgiving.  But for sure be safe.  

Seems like the sore loser is giving up.  But I’ll bet hey never congratulates Biden.  Looks like we have an Allie for the next President.  Maybe we will not only get back what Trump took away, but make some progress on our rights.



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Blue clouds and sunshine, but cold and windy. (it is Wyoming) Looks like the truck will cost us a little less. We used the Z plan because her father retired from Ford. She took the number over yesterday. She got a call saying that it saved us more than originally thought. We need to go in and sign some more paperwork.


It is like I am married to Jeckle and Hyde. For months it can be peaches and cream then Mrs. Hyde appears and crashes my scurrility.


Have a great day everyone.



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Coffee keeps flowing, it is the vital "support" to continue with motivation to work before holidays 🙂

More importantly, just had a visit from A/C technician and while finishing the paperwork he was mentioning how he thought the order was wrong because "SHE is not a guy" he was expecting based on the name (I was yet to update from my old name on the account). I had to go full mode into "omg, yes, I know, they made a mistake on the account and I just learned about it and going to update is asap" 🤩

The day just got a lot brighter 🙌😁

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I'm planning to go to my son's house for Thanksgiving tomorrow.  I feel a little weird about it with all they're saying about STAY HOME!  But it will just be me and his family.  I have been there a few times since all this started.  I already turned down a trip to northern Virginia to visit my other son.  This one is in another county, but not real far away.  

Some of my family is real strict, but others seem to not care much at all.

Living alone is just depressing these days.  I'm really glad to have y'all even if it's only online.

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1 hour ago, Jandi said:

I'm planning to go to my son's house for Thanksgiving tomorrow.  I feel a little weird about it with all they're saying about STAY HOME!  But it will just be me and his family.  I have been there a few times since all this started.  I already turned down a trip to northern Virginia to visit my other son.  This one is in another county, but not real far away.  

Some of my family is real strict, but others seem to not care much at all.

Living alone is just depressing these days.  I'm really glad to have y'all even if it's only online.


Yeah, we're going to visit my Sister-In-Law (in the next town over, technically, it's like five miles). Two families. Less than ten people. As safe as it's going to get but nobody should be alone on Thanksgiving.



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Yesterday's snow is melting here. I'm eagerly awaiting my Covid test results. This is not a great week to be sick. I told the girls that we will not be hosting Thanksgiving now. I'm heartbroken. The coffee is wonderful and I look forward to tea this afternoon.

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@Erica GabrielI had covid in August. It was rough and changed many things for me. I hope that you find out that you don't have it. There is really never a good time to be sick but, at least you found out that you needed to take caution before the whole family got together. That would have certainly made things worse. 

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@AbiI hope I don't have it but this is a weird virus I'm fighting. The symptoms are mild except for a fever that I've had since Friday afternoon. It hit hard and very sudden. As an athlete I've some serious concerns. I hope you have healed from it.

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Hello, I know it seems like a while since I've posted. Still fighting depression, sometimes are better than others. I had an interesting discussion with my psychiatrist about the depression worsening and wanted to say it is the hormones. I talked about it with a support group yesterday, and the therapist leading it said based on their knowledge it can escalate emotions. but they won't trigger a depressive episode.


Motivation to do real work is failing me today, I've dabbled a little bit into doing some training, but can't really focus on it this afternoon so thought I would check in and say hi.


Going to be a quiet day tomorrow, my wife and I will most likely be alone, except for the virtual dinner we are hosting with our mental health support group. I look forward to it being low key, and we are going non-traditional meat and doing a pork shoulder because that sounds like better left overs.

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We three are going to our middle sons place tomorrow.  If I  were going  alone I would  so wear a dress or something feminine.  As him and his wife are my. Only  support in my family. 



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speaking of Thanksgiving dinner, my wife and I will definitely be alone.  I bought a turkey breast, I’m making acorn squash and stuffing.  My wife will roast the turkey, make asparagus and she already made cranberry sauce..


I’ll probably make waffles for breakfast but we’ll have to see about that.


if you are driving, be safe .


happy thanksgiving



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15 hours ago, Erica Gabriel said:

I hope you have healed from it.

Health wise I have been fine since the beginning of September. I never had a fever but I had every other symptom they say goes with it. It's a vicious bug. 


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Happy Thanksgiving to all who are celebrating it today. I think cornbread pancakes and sausage patties are going to be breakfast. I get my kids and so the three of us will eat lots of turkey and the fixin's. I made a pineapple upside down cake and deviled eggs today. Starting the turkey in a few hours. I think green bean casserole and mashed potatoes and gravy. My couch will be on standby for the aftermath which will ensue. :stir:  :tv:

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It's midnight, technically it is Thanksgiving, so Happy Thanksgiving everyone!! 


I just finished up cutting all the vegetables to put on a platter, uh this year we are not really doing traditional since my dad isn't here so luckily for me most stuff will be heated up tomorrow, we got a bunch of frozen snacks, including edamame :)) 


And I found a pumpkin pie mix can in the closet so I will make pie! :DD

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Today I'm thankful for all the members here at TransPulse...coming together in cyberspace to help each other out.  It's been a strange, wonderful, scary, emotional, and delightful few months since finding a place to speak openly about my gender issues.  It has been so helpful to read and write about the various versions of our experience.


"Mostly I hope to make new friends that I can talk freely with for once in my life, and finally say goodbye to those two losers...Fear and Shame."


That's from the introduction I wrote when I joined.  It's really happening now, and I'm grateful.


I don't usually like pictures of myself, and I've always been too smart (scared) to ever take a picture of myself as female.  Now that I've met you people, I've turned into an exhibitionist with my little outfits...so, definitely feeling more open and less shameful.


Another goal was to get some therapy going.  Now I have a regular weekly appointment with someone I like.


So these little, trivial, insignificant, day to day stories you all tell are helping someone else feel not so alone in the world.


Thank you all for hanging in there, for being brave, being honest, for not killing yourself, for being afraid of something and doing it anyway.  It means a lot to others.


And thanks to the wonderful administrators here that offer so much time and involvement to keep this site the welcoming place that it is.





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Good morning everyone 


Happy American Thanksgiving.


@Ann W That was a very nice post you wrote.  So glad you found us and enjoy everything we share here.  Kymmie started this thread as a place to share anyand it has gone wild with 

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Argh. Something I hate Apple. I was editing and i got too close to the save as I was saying:


this is a place to share anything like you would if you were sitting at the kitchen table with your best friend having a cup of coffee.  Listen, talk, share what you want.  This is safe and totally accepting of everyone.  We must be with over 6400 posts and 256 pages.  There was a time when I thought it was dying.  Boy was I wrong!





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Happy Thanksgiving to all my family here on Transpulse. It has save my life.


@WillowThat is exactly what my vision for this thread was.



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