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3 hours ago, Elizabeth Star said:

It took a year and 4 adjustments to get my levels into what my Endo calls the therapeutic range.

A little over a year for me, several dose changes and even a change to my method of administration. It’s not an exact science but they’re getting better I think.

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It took me 2 years to get my T down .  Progesterone didn’t do much so we added the Estradiol injections that’s when things started changing.  Now even with the low doses I’m on he is concerned about long term use. he wants me to get some form of bottom surgery.  At least an Orchidectomy.  I got a message from the Urologist’s assistant that they have the required letters and want me to schedule.  I have to finish some things on the boat before the surgery so we can live on it and there is a very low lifting restriction for a number of weeks afterwards so I have to allow a few days for that.

 

as to grand parents, on my fathers side, my grandfather died a year or so before I was born.  My grandmother died when I was 4 or 5 but we never saw her.  we lived in Ohio and she was in Massachusetts.  On my mother’s side, her mother died of cancer in the early 1930s.  It was her dad that lived with us and was the only one I knew.  I was nine when he died.

 

my sister and I didn’t get along growing up. She was 5 years older and felt I got everything when I came along.  Eventually that straightened out.  But she died of cancer 11 years ago.  So I’m the last one left.

 

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Thought you would like this. My sister sent it to me. She lives in the Chicago area.

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Ugh. Had to get up early to take my granddaughter to band practice and she doesnt like getting up.  We made it on time.  

 

I didn’t sleep well last night.  Too much on my mind.  Our trip is possibly canceled, my doctor wants to set an appointment for my surgery.  The dog kept crawling on me.  Two of us plus a lab dont fit a full size bed very well.  If she would just lay there great.  I was chilly.  But she only lays still for so long before she wants attention.

 

i have a friend that is a Worship Leader at a UU church.  They have a similar welcoming sign at the door.  They welcome everyone regardless.

 

until later

 

Willow

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Good morning all, It's been a long time (too long) since i last posted anything here.  a lot has happened over the last few months, I moved from a three bedroom house with a full basement (24+ years) to a one bedroom apartment. After getting my letters for the surgery I was told that it wouldn't be until January, however in June they called and said that they had an opening in August but didn't have a date. Of course I said lets do it, but when I talked to two of the doctors on the sixth of this month they moved it back to January. Then a couple weeks ago I got a call from the hospital to get a date in November. I am now scheduled for November 24th.  

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2 hours ago, BrandiBri said:

After getting my letters for the surgery I was told that it wouldn't be until January, however in June they called and said that they had an opening in August but didn't have a date. Of course I said lets do it, but when I talked to two of the doctors on the sixth of this month they moved it back to January. Then a couple weeks ago I got a call from the hospital to get a date in November. I am now scheduled for November 24th. 

That's awesome! Congrats.

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12 hours ago, Willow said:

 So I’m the last one left.

This is me as well.

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So it's been an affirming start to my day. I was coming out of 7/11 next to my clinic and saw the chiro from upstairs walking across the parking lot so waited for her so I could say hi. When she got closer she said "OMG that's you!  I was wondering who that hot chick was just standing there". She's always so complimentary so I just thought she was making nice but she said, "no really, I had no idea it was you until I got close".   Then, I'm sitting with the dog (who's looking cute) and my receptionist snapped a pic to show me how cute she was being and I didn't recognize who was sitting there for a second. Then I realized- wow, that's me now and boy have I changed."  I can truly see the woman in me showing now!

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Congrats on your date, Brandi. 

 

@Bri2020 looking good girlfriend.  

 

I too have had an affirming couple of days. Yesterday  I got Ma'am then twice today. On customer said she loved my hair. And the other called me girlfriend.  Makes this girl happy. 

 

Hugs,

 

Kymmie 

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8 hours ago, BrandiBri said:

Good morning all, It's been a long time (too long) since i last posted anything here.  a lot has happened over the last few months, I moved from a three bedroom house with a full basement (24+ years) to a one bedroom apartment. After getting my letters for the surgery I was told that it wouldn't be until January, however in June they called and said that they had an opening in August but didn't have a date. Of course I said lets do it, but when I talked to two of the doctors on the sixth of this month they moved it back to January. Then a couple weeks ago I got a call from the hospital to get a date in November. I am now scheduled for November 24th.  

Gotta stay flexible they say. lol. You must be so excited!!

 

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8 hours ago, BrandiBri said:

Then a couple weeks ago I got a call from the hospital to get a date in November. I am now scheduled for November 24th.

 

Well then, happy Thanksgiving!

 

5 hours ago, Bri2020 said:

I can truly see the woman in me showing now!

 

I LOVE those moments @Bri2020! Congratulations!

 

1 hour ago, KymmieL said:

I too have had an affirming couple of days. Yesterday  I got Ma'am then twice today. On customer said she loved my hair. And the other called me girlfriend.  Makes this girl happy. 

 

I love that too! I hope I NEVER get used to the happy feeling I get from just being one of the girls!

 

I actually reconnected with a family member last night. My uncle contacted me on Facebook. After I told him that his sister disowned me, he invited me to his wedding Anniversary. The big 50. Tragically, I can't go because I'm going to be recovering from surgery, but it was still a nice gesture. It's nice to know that there's only one member of my family who has a problem with be being trans.

 

Hugs!

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1 hour ago, KymmieL said:

And the other called me girlfriend.  Makes this girl happy. 

 

Hugs,

 

Kymmie 

That's the big one for me. I love when that happens!  Congrats on a wonderful day

 

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I've been busy this week trying to get my name (and gender where needed) updated everywhere. So far I have 14 out of  23 done. I'm sure there's a few I forgot about. Thankfully I was able to do some of my credit cards over the phone without sending out any paperwork. My mortgage is definitely one I'm not looking forward to.

 

Fun fact. I wore a skirt to work today and didn't take it off right when I got home like I used to do. So, for 4 hours my wife got to see me "parading" around the house and even out talking to our neighbor in a black and white, tie-dye above the knee skirt. She didn't say anything about it. Not even a sideways look.

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On 8/4/2021 at 10:06 AM, Bri2020 said:

So it's been an affirming start to my day. I was coming out of 7/11 next to my clinic and saw the chiro from upstairs walking across the parking lot so waited for her so I could say hi. When she got closer she said "OMG that's you!  I was wondering who that hot chick was just standing there". She's always so complimentary so I just thought she was making nice but she said, "no really, I had no idea it was you until I got close".   Then, I'm sitting with the dog (who's looking cute) and my receptionist snapped a pic to show me how cute she was being and I didn't recognize who was sitting there for a second. Then I realized- wow, that's me now and boy have I changed."  I can truly see the woman in me showing now!

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That's awesome!

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17 hours ago, Elizabeth Star said:

My mortgage is definitely one I'm not looking forward to.

at least you are in a state that makes things easy for name changes, birth certificate, etc. but with the mortgage you may need to get a lawyer. you can't change anything on a mortgage unless you also change the deed. and that complicates things. you may not need to worry about the mortgage/deed because if you ever sell the house you will have your legal name change documents to use at that time. thank you. :)  

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18 hours ago, Elizabeth Star said:

 She didn't say anything about it. Not even a sideways look.

Victory!!

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hi,

 

Well all letters received, approved for surgery and have it scheduled for the end of September.  Not getting as much done as most of you but that’s ok with me.

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8 hours ago, Willow said:

hi,

 

Well all letters received, approved for surgery and have it scheduled for the end of September.  Not getting as much done as most of you but that’s ok with me.

Congrats!

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Went out last night to a local historic gay bar "This Is It" for the first time in about 40 years.  I had a GREAT time.  Met a very cute boy who gave me his number.  Just wanted to share my good feelings here.

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