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1 hour ago, Willow said:

 I didn’t play sports in high school except in gym class.

I wrestled in high school.  Wasn't that good at it though.  Looking back, I think it kinda reinforced my fears that I was secretly too feminine.  The exercise was good for me though.  I've never been very competitive - which doesn't help with sports.

 

Our school was too small to field a football team.  I think they started one after I had left.  Basketball was the prestige sport there.  I never was much good at that either.

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1 hour ago, Willow said:

 I didn’t play sports in high school except in gym class.

 

One of my biggest triumphs was getting PE (Physical Education) credit for being in marching band (flute/piccolo) throughout high school. I was still recovering from my junior high boy's PE teacher looking at all us scrawny kids, finding some excuse for doing something not quite right, and then barking in a low, growly voice: "Take a lap. ace!"

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9 hours ago, KymmieL said:

In the past week I developed a painful tooth. Today I went to the dentist. Found I have a fractured root. So the dentist has suggested getting a implant. So tomorrow I have to get an appointment with the surgeon. Despite the diagnosis, it was a great visit. They referred to me in feminine terms. The clincher I never told them I was trans. Maybe they saw that one of my medications is estradiol. that is the only thing I can think of. other than my painted fingernails.

 

Reminds me of stories that end with the phrase "It was worth the pain!" Nice to be identified as you want, without prompting.  

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Good morning, everyone the coffee is strong today. Happy New Year to all. One week from today I will be in Denver Colo, for a FFS consult. getting really excited. 

 

Hugs 

Riley.

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@Davie@Marcie Jensen

I also played HS football. I was very small at the time so wasn't allowed to play as much as I wanted. I played safety, running back and was a kick returner. I broke finger and toes as well as my nose. I don't recall getting smelling salts, how concussions were treated then, more than once. I loved playing and especially the contact; I was very angry at the world and got relief from football. The dumbest thing I remember is that we weren't allowed to drink water during the 2 a day summer practices, geez  august is not comfortable.

 

I pray that the injured young man fully recovers his health. I have read of similar incidents of cardiac arrest from getting in the chest with a baseball.

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17 minutes ago, miz miranda said:

The dumbest thing I remember is that we weren't allowed to drink water during the 2 a day summer practices, geez  august is not comfortable.

 

Yikes! That's just asking for heatstroke.

 

Hugs!

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5 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

 

Yikes! That's just asking for heatstroke.

 

Hugs!

Yes, we had that stupid idea of No Water, too. Now days they encourage hydration and even schedule water breaks, They know they could be sued. They must eventually switch to flag football with no helmets or pads—same skill sets, much less violence. I pray Hamlin will be OK.

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Went to court this afternoon,the man that sexually assaulted me has been charged with one count of sexual assault and a hate crime.I have a victim's right lawyer and she is glad there is no plea deals at all.So far I am doing better and my therapist is amazed with my progress.I know it takes time and has been one step at a time.

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32 minutes ago, heatherd said:

Went to court this afternoon,the man that sexually assaulted me has been charged with one count of sexual assault and a hate crime.I have a victim's right lawyer and she is glad there is no plea deals at all.So far I am doing better and my therapist is amazed with my progress.I know it takes time and has been one step at a time.

 

I hope you continue to feel better as time goes on, and that the court process won't be traumatic.  I'm glad there's no plea deals.  Do you live in a state with a victims' compensation fund? 

 

I'm dreading my upcoming court process, even though I don't remember a lot of what happened to me.  I just don't want to think about it at all.  I want to forget, and the judicial process seems to hurt that more than help.

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13 hours ago, Willow said:

Good morning my coffee is here beside me.
 

@awkward-yet-sweet Last night I had some tea.  And because of stomach issues I often drink chocolate milk. I hope that counts.  Oh, I also had a rare taste of my Irish Whiskey.

 

I had my first taste of hot cocoa made with Carolans Irish Cream a couple of weeks ago.  I'm not much into drinking alcohol, but... oh my.  You could lead me anywhere with a cup of that mixture.  Hot cocoa with Carolans, whipped cream and shaved dark chocolate on top.  I adore sweets 😍 

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14 minutes ago, awkward-yet-sweet said:

 

I hope you continue to feel better as time goes on, and that the court process won't be traumatic.  I'm glad there's no plea deals.  Do you live in a state with a victims' compensation fund? 

 

I'm dreading my upcoming court process, even though I don't remember a lot of what happened to me.  I just don't want to think about it at all.  I want to forget, and the judicial process seems to hurt that more than help.

Yes and is covering the therapy.I may have to testify.He is facing 25 to 30 years based on his record when convicted.Been listening to my victim's rights lawyer very well 

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12 minutes ago, heatherd said:

Yes and is covering the therapy.I may have to testify.He is facing 25 to 30 years based on his record when convicted.Been listening to my victim's rights lawyer very well 

Yeah, generally prosecution will ask the victim to testify if they are going for the big sentence.  I wish it didn't have to be that way.  It'll be the same for me, as the guy who hurt me is facing 20 years.  That, and just putting me on the stand in front of everybody because I'm small.  Huge assailant vs tiny victim = win.  At least in an assault/battery case. 

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Today was another affirming day. Lot of customers ma'amed me. I even had one customer say. That it was great having three ladies working the counter at a auto parts store. It was me and two of the three  other girls at the store.

 

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Good morning 

 

I hope all of the coffee fans appreciate this one

 

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another warm day today with rain and possible thunderstorms expected.  At least we aren’t getting feet of snow or floods rains.

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11 hours ago, awkward-yet-sweet said:

Hot cocoa with Carolans, whipped cream and shaved dark chocolate on top.

Sounds delicious 

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@Ivy  I didn’t exactly wrestle, but I was the freshman wrestling team manager.  I wound up learning a lot from that and often had to be the teaching dummy.  Before the season was over I was teaching moves to teammates.

 

in high school gym class during wrestling I would always get paired up with someone slightly bigger and definitely stronger.  But I was determined not to loose, and even if behind on points I’d find a way to win, even if it meant the only way was to get a pin.

 

@Astrid I was in band as well.  But we did not escape gym class.  Twice a week for all 6 years. (3 of junior high and three of senior high). All band members and nerds were kept together but half the class was always hoods.  I stupidly chose a hood for my boxing partner figuring I might learn something.  Bad idea.

 

@awkward-yet-sweet your cocoa sounds good.  I am not a drinker, hence “the rare taste” but I do like a good Irish Wiskey, the high end stuff age in a sherry barrel.  The slight sweetness and fruity flavors takes away the harsh whiskey sting of the lower grade stuff.  I do have that on hand as well, to use as a mixer.

 

Willow

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Hi, I am here to ask for opinions.  I just got a new do.  Problem is I don’t keep it out of my face.  But I really like the look.  What do you think and if you have a similar style how do you keep it out of your face?  Sorry no makeup.BD659E2B-9BEC-4A32-B041-E7494129D78D.thumb.jpeg.6b73e6c988b4108951326995a512eb49.jpeg

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Happy Thursday 

 

coffee is done.  It’s a beautiful day today.  Mostly sunny, high wispy clouds 70 degrees.  This is why I moved to The Grand Strand, SC.

 

I am going to adult group tomorrow.  I am also going to meet a friend before the meeting, wait for it, for coffee! lol.  Honestly I will probably either have a soda or an iced tea/lemonade.

 

I haven’t been to the adult group in quite a while and it will likely be a while again.  I am considering checking the local adult group again just to keep my head in.

 

I hope everyone in California is safe as well as everyone else in the storms path.

 

hugs

 

Willow

 

 

 

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Well, its almost 2am.  Technically morning.  Today is my GF and husband's 5th wedding anniversary. Also the 5th anniversary of my sister and I being brought into our forever family. 💞

 

Also, for those who follow the Christian year calendar, today is Epiphany.

 

 

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So I'm off the doctor's office this morning. Got to get my blood tested and I hate to get judged by medical people for it, but it's also an important part of my health. So I'm a bit nervous (OK, a lot nervous) but I suit up and show up. And I'll report back on how it went. Wish me luck.  -- Davie

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Good luck!

 

I get 3 vials of blood drawn every 3 months.  It used to be seven!😂

 

Hugs,

 

Astrid 

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Good morning everyone, :coffee:

 

I'm getting a late start today, because I'm ahead of schedule on my project builds, and I wanted to sleep in. Just a few clerical things to take care of and I'll be starting my weekend of doing nothing. Just me, Suzie, and the cats watching TV. Oh and then there will be a lot of bird watching from the living room window.

 

Hugs,

 

Mindy🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

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Good Friday morning 

 

I am meeting with a friend this afternoon then going to group In Wilmington.  I am going to have to watch my back.  Wilmington has pockets of hate these days. And I need to make sure I am not followed.

 

@Davie and @Astrid I get my blood tested every three months for one doc, and every time I go to see my pcp which is every 3-4 months.  I’ve been poked so many times I can suggest where to look and I can watch.  I never used to watch.  I will be especially interested in my next draw, I’m having some issues with my levels and side effects of the medication that I need to have a long talk with my doctor.

 

@awkward-yet-sweethappy anniversary 

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