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Dark days are upon us 

But that doesn’t mean hope has forgotten us

There is a bond that binds us 

The power of hope is in all of us 

 

We must choose to accept what’s happening around us 

But not let the fear define us 

We must in this time find us 

Hope will find us 
 

When you feel alone you have us 

There are people just like us 

Do no fear what’s come upon us 

Though dark days are in front of us 

 

We know the hope inside us 

Pray for the ones around us 

That they will see the hope in us 

We will overcome this and we will eventually put this virus behind us 

 

It’s been a while since I’ve posted on this site. I want to give encouragement to those who need it. I lost my temporary job so I’m feeling it. Still got one job. Soon will be working from home. We’re going to make it through this. 
 

Tessa 

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Thanks sweetheart. We all need a dose of hope in these dark times what with the pandemic and the hostile government.

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7 hours ago, Tessa said:

It’s been a while since I’ve posted on this site. I want to give encouragement to those who need it. I lost my temporary job so I’m feeling it. Still got one job. Soon will be working from home. We’re going to make it through this. 

Thank you for your post and helping us keep the hope alive.   It’s nice to see you here inspiring others with your beautiful words despite having your own difficulties.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

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Holding On 

 

Do you feel like your life is on hold 

With everything crazy around 

Don’t believe what you’ve been told 

Hold your ground 

 

Believe in what’s good 

Fill your mind with hope 

This is what we all should 

Use hope to cope 

 

Your night can be light 

Your fear can be your peace 

Your going to be alright 

Anxiety will cease 

 

Your here for a reason 

We need the hope in your heart 

Will get through this season 

So why not today start

 

be encouraged loves 

 

Tessa

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4 hours ago, Tessa said:

be encouraged loves

Thanks Tessa! Your encouraging words help. In times like these, there’s nothing better for the soul!?

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Love Sound

 

Can you hear love

As it tickles your ear 

Its gentle like a dove

Love casts out fear
 

It doesn’t run and hide

It holds you through the night

Love will always be by your side

Telling you your alright

 

It waves war against hate 

Live will always win

Love is never late 

Love will lift up your chin 

 

Love will wipe away your tears 

Give you hope for the day 

Take away all your fears

Love never goes away 

 

Love has a sound 
It’s the joy people express

Love is profound 

Its always their to bless

 

Love has a voice 

It calls out in the darkest night 

Love has no choice 

It will rise up and fight 

 

If love is on your side 

You will never lose the day 

All the tears you’ve cried 

Love feels and wipes them away 

 

In times like these words are more valuable than money. More valuable than human touch. Tell that person you love. That you love them so much. 
 

For all those who fear know that love is near. 
 

Tessa ?‍?

 

 

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Peaceful Wind 

 

I feel it on the back of my neck 

My hairs stand up on end

I turn around to check 

It’s just the gentle wind my friend

 

I lay down near a stream 

I see a tree bend 

I wake up from a dream 

It’s just the gentle wind my friend 

 

I walk into a beautiful valley

I watch as the grass begins to bend 
Who is following me 

It’s just the gentle wind my friend 

 

The wind is my companion 

It will always be at my back 

Pushing me on like a champion

With this wind nothing will I lack

 

Should I compare the wind to true love

Always there as a friend 
Love being gentle as a dove 

It’s just love and it will never end 

 

Tessa?‍?

 

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@Tessa This is another one of your beautiful compositions. It reminds me of the moments when I feel a breeze through my hair against my neck and shoulders...it’s such a peaceful and refreshing feeling much like is described in this poem. Lovely job!

 

My Best,

Susan R?

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Tessa

 

Who is the woman inside me

She haunts my dreams 

Yet to be her is to be free

However it’s not what it seems

 

I am in a male form 

This body does not lie

I face a tormenting storm 

Who am I

 

Everyday Tessa’s is expressed

She is a beautiful soul 

But no one is impressed 

So she never feels whole

 

She had once a love 

Now replaces with pain 

She looks into the skies above 

What is it she is to attain

 

Beauty is her 

Creative poetic Soul 

But sometimes the lines blur

It’s to much to pull

 

The inside war wages on 

However her beauty and charm remain

Tessa is never gone 

Is she their to numb the pain

 

Here is the first poem about the woman living inside of me. 
 

Tessa?‍?

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Creating What We Need

 

You never have to be lonely

If you let your mind create what you need

You never have to be a phony 

If you let your mind feed

 

Feed upon what your heart desires

Let your heart do the walking 

Let your heart put out the fires 

Get your mind talking

 

Put away negative thought

Love then you will find 

Let your mind be taught 

Let your heart hug your mind 
 

Let your heart bring your mind peace 

Knowing you are loved and wanted

Let your heart give you the release

So your mind is no longer haunted

 

Tessa?‍?

 

 

 

 

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Rare

 

As I wake up in the morning light 

I feel a special calling on me 

Got a revelation last night 

That opened my eye to see

 

I’m a rare jewel to this earth 

Spreading my love and light 

Hoping to give it a new birth 

A hope that will guide it through the night 

 

I will never be famous or rich 

I will only love because that’s all I know 

I’m here to enrich 

Show people where to go 

 

I will inspire you 

Make you love deep

Guide you through 

Kiss you to sleep 

 

I will not be understood 

Many will turn me away 

I’ll be their fire wood 

But I will never stray 

 

I’m here for you in every way! 
 

Tessa ?‍?

 

 

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Rare

 

As I wake up in the morning light 

I feel a special calling on me 

Got a revelation last night 

That opened my eye to see

 

I’m a rare jewel to this earth 

Spreading my love and light 

Hoping to give it a new birth 

A hope that will guide it through the night 

 

I will never be famous or rich 

I will only love because that’s all I know 

I’m here to enrich 

Show people where to go 

 

I will inspire you 

Make you love deep

Guide you through 

Kiss you to sleep 

 

I will not be understood 

Many will turn me away 

I’ll be their fire wood 

But I will never stray 

 

I’m here for you in every way! 
 

Tessa ?‍?

 

 

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COVID 

 

C is for connection. In this season the pandemic has called us all to connect more to our love ones. 
 

O is for Obstacles. In this time of reflection we we reminded of the many obstacles we have to face. 
 

V is for vent. This pandemic has caused us all to vent out our frustrations because we can no longer hide them in work or social activities. 

 

I is for internal. This pandemic has made us all internalize who we are inside and see our bad and good sides. 
 

D is for determination. Covid has made us more determined to help those in need and help as many people as we can get through this dark season. 
 

Tessa. 

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Her

 

I feel an ache coming on

My bones begin to creak 

Could this feeling be wrong

The truth I seek

 

Only some will understand 

Many will turn away 

This wasn’t the life I planned 

But She’s here to stay 

 

I can’t deny who’s inside 

She has to come out 

No longer can she hide 

I can hear her shout 

 

To deny ones self 

Is to not live at all
To long she’s been put on a shelf 

Tonight I hear her call 
 

Tessa

 

 

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11 hours ago, ToniTone said:

Ooo I like the firy energy in this one!

Thank you

 

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Normal?

 

So far from normal 

How far will I go 

How deep is the rabbit hole

I don’t know
 

Here starts my journey 

Discovering who I am 

Expelling the phony 

But how will I tell the fam

 

Will I be rejected and shamed 

Told I have to change myself 

Will I be blamed 
Told to put Tessa back on the shelf 

 

Back to my misery

My life of pain 

All so they can judge me 

This is insane 

 

Who can say who I am 

 Better than the person inside me

I have to break through the dam

And let them go free 

 

If they love me that’s fine 

If they hate me that’s ok to 

I forever am mine 

Torn to know what to do

 

Tessa.❤️

 

 

 

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T.S. Elliot just  gave you a  Wayne World bow. Amazing inspirational spoken word. thank you for sharing.

 

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My Own Skin 

 

This morning I woke 

I felt my own skin 

Not the past choke 

Not knowing where I’ve been 

 

I felt love in my heart 

For the one who is most dear

Embracing my female part 

Expelling all my fear 

 

A hot bath to feels so good 

To put my mind at peace 

I know now that I should 

Let all the wrestling cease

 

I will let my true self come out 

Bathed in her own beauty 

Not feel my mind with doubt 

But enjoy the serenity 

 

Let love breathe through my lungs today

A love I can share to everyone 

My sweet voice take their pain away 

Let my light show like the sun 

 

Today you will make it through

Let love be your friend today

All you can be is you 

Thats enough I say

 

Tessa?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Shattered Mirror 

 

Someone dropped me 

I shattered into pieces

Now I can’t see

All my brain ceases 

 

I lay broken on the floor 

Each piece crafted by pain 

What is life for 

Hurting again and again 

 

If you pick me up you might bleed 

So best to leave me shattered 

If it’s love you need 

I’ll let you know I’m bruised and battered 

 

Should you feel for me 

Or even try to fix the mirror

Would you care to see 

Would you recognize I’m here

 

I want to hang in your heart 

A place you can be proud of me 

I want that bran new start 

Can you make me see

 

Tessa ?

 

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