Jump to content
  • Welcome to the TransPulse Forums!

    We offer a safe, inclusive community for transgender and gender non-conforming folks, as well as their loved ones, to find support and information.  Join today!

I Am Beautiful


Tessa

Recommended Posts

Us

 

Dark days are upon us 

But that doesn’t mean hope has forgotten us

There is a bond that binds us 

The power of hope is in all of us 

 

We must choose to accept what’s happening around us 

But not let the fear define us 

We must in this time find us 

Hope will find us 
 

When you feel alone you have us 

There are people just like us 

Do no fear what’s come upon us 

Though dark days are in front of us 

 

We know the hope inside us 

Pray for the ones around us 

That they will see the hope in us 

We will overcome this and we will eventually put this virus behind us 

 

It’s been a while since I’ve posted on this site. I want to give encouragement to those who need it. I lost my temporary job so I’m feeling it. Still got one job. Soon will be working from home. We’re going to make it through this. 
 

Tessa 

Link to comment
  • Replies 118
  • Created
  • Last Reply

Top Posters In This Topic

  • Tessa

    76

  • Susan R

    7

  • ToniTone

    7

  • Mmindy

    7

Top Posters In This Topic

Posted Images

Thanks sweetheart. We all need a dose of hope in these dark times what with the pandemic and the hostile government.

Link to comment
  • Forum Moderator
7 hours ago, Tessa said:

It’s been a while since I’ve posted on this site. I want to give encouragement to those who need it. I lost my temporary job so I’m feeling it. Still got one job. Soon will be working from home. We’re going to make it through this. 

Thank you for your post and helping us keep the hope alive.   It’s nice to see you here inspiring others with your beautiful words despite having your own difficulties.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

Link to comment

Holding On 

 

Do you feel like your life is on hold 

With everything crazy around 

Don’t believe what you’ve been told 

Hold your ground 

 

Believe in what’s good 

Fill your mind with hope 

This is what we all should 

Use hope to cope 

 

Your night can be light 

Your fear can be your peace 

Your going to be alright 

Anxiety will cease 

 

Your here for a reason 

We need the hope in your heart 

Will get through this season 

So why not today start

 

be encouraged loves 

 

Tessa

Link to comment
  • Forum Moderator
4 hours ago, Tessa said:

be encouraged loves

Thanks Tessa! Your encouraging words help. In times like these, there’s nothing better for the soul!?

Link to comment

Love Sound

 

Can you hear love

As it tickles your ear 

Its gentle like a dove

Love casts out fear
 

It doesn’t run and hide

It holds you through the night

Love will always be by your side

Telling you your alright

 

It waves war against hate 

Live will always win

Love is never late 

Love will lift up your chin 

 

Love will wipe away your tears 

Give you hope for the day 

Take away all your fears

Love never goes away 

 

Love has a sound 
It’s the joy people express

Love is profound 

Its always their to bless

 

Love has a voice 

It calls out in the darkest night 

Love has no choice 

It will rise up and fight 

 

If love is on your side 

You will never lose the day 

All the tears you’ve cried 

Love feels and wipes them away 

 

In times like these words are more valuable than money. More valuable than human touch. Tell that person you love. That you love them so much. 
 

For all those who fear know that love is near. 
 

Tessa ?‍?

 

 

Link to comment

Peaceful Wind 

 

I feel it on the back of my neck 

My hairs stand up on end

I turn around to check 

It’s just the gentle wind my friend

 

I lay down near a stream 

I see a tree bend 

I wake up from a dream 

It’s just the gentle wind my friend 

 

I walk into a beautiful valley

I watch as the grass begins to bend 
Who is following me 

It’s just the gentle wind my friend 

 

The wind is my companion 

It will always be at my back 

Pushing me on like a champion

With this wind nothing will I lack

 

Should I compare the wind to true love

Always there as a friend 
Love being gentle as a dove 

It’s just love and it will never end 

 

Tessa?‍?

 

Link to comment
  • Forum Moderator

@Tessa This is another one of your beautiful compositions. It reminds me of the moments when I feel a breeze through my hair against my neck and shoulders...it’s such a peaceful and refreshing feeling much like is described in this poem. Lovely job!

 

My Best,

Susan R?

Link to comment

Tessa

 

Who is the woman inside me

She haunts my dreams 

Yet to be her is to be free

However it’s not what it seems

 

I am in a male form 

This body does not lie

I face a tormenting storm 

Who am I

 

Everyday Tessa’s is expressed

She is a beautiful soul 

But no one is impressed 

So she never feels whole

 

She had once a love 

Now replaces with pain 

She looks into the skies above 

What is it she is to attain

 

Beauty is her 

Creative poetic Soul 

But sometimes the lines blur

It’s to much to pull

 

The inside war wages on 

However her beauty and charm remain

Tessa is never gone 

Is she their to numb the pain

 

Here is the first poem about the woman living inside of me. 
 

Tessa?‍?

Link to comment
  • 2 weeks later...

Creating What We Need

 

You never have to be lonely

If you let your mind create what you need

You never have to be a phony 

If you let your mind feed

 

Feed upon what your heart desires

Let your heart do the walking 

Let your heart put out the fires 

Get your mind talking

 

Put away negative thought

Love then you will find 

Let your mind be taught 

Let your heart hug your mind 
 

Let your heart bring your mind peace 

Knowing you are loved and wanted

Let your heart give you the release

So your mind is no longer haunted

 

Tessa?‍?

 

 

 

 

Link to comment

Rare

 

As I wake up in the morning light 

I feel a special calling on me 

Got a revelation last night 

That opened my eye to see

 

I’m a rare jewel to this earth 

Spreading my love and light 

Hoping to give it a new birth 

A hope that will guide it through the night 

 

I will never be famous or rich 

I will only love because that’s all I know 

I’m here to enrich 

Show people where to go 

 

I will inspire you 

Make you love deep

Guide you through 

Kiss you to sleep 

 

I will not be understood 

Many will turn me away 

I’ll be their fire wood 

But I will never stray 

 

I’m here for you in every way! 
 

Tessa ?‍?

 

 

Link to comment

Rare

 

As I wake up in the morning light 

I feel a special calling on me 

Got a revelation last night 

That opened my eye to see

 

I’m a rare jewel to this earth 

Spreading my love and light 

Hoping to give it a new birth 

A hope that will guide it through the night 

 

I will never be famous or rich 

I will only love because that’s all I know 

I’m here to enrich 

Show people where to go 

 

I will inspire you 

Make you love deep

Guide you through 

Kiss you to sleep 

 

I will not be understood 

Many will turn me away 

I’ll be their fire wood 

But I will never stray 

 

I’m here for you in every way! 
 

Tessa ?‍?

 

 

Link to comment

COVID 

 

C is for connection. In this season the pandemic has called us all to connect more to our love ones. 
 

O is for Obstacles. In this time of reflection we we reminded of the many obstacles we have to face. 
 

V is for vent. This pandemic has caused us all to vent out our frustrations because we can no longer hide them in work or social activities. 

 

I is for internal. This pandemic has made us all internalize who we are inside and see our bad and good sides. 
 

D is for determination. Covid has made us more determined to help those in need and help as many people as we can get through this dark season. 
 

Tessa. 

Link to comment

Her

 

I feel an ache coming on

My bones begin to creak 

Could this feeling be wrong

The truth I seek

 

Only some will understand 

Many will turn away 

This wasn’t the life I planned 

But She’s here to stay 

 

I can’t deny who’s inside 

She has to come out 

No longer can she hide 

I can hear her shout 

 

To deny ones self 

Is to not live at all
To long she’s been put on a shelf 

Tonight I hear her call 
 

Tessa

 

 

Link to comment
11 hours ago, ToniTone said:

Ooo I like the firy energy in this one!

Thank you

 

Link to comment

Normal?

 

So far from normal 

How far will I go 

How deep is the rabbit hole

I don’t know
 

Here starts my journey 

Discovering who I am 

Expelling the phony 

But how will I tell the fam

 

Will I be rejected and shamed 

Told I have to change myself 

Will I be blamed 
Told to put Tessa back on the shelf 

 

Back to my misery

My life of pain 

All so they can judge me 

This is insane 

 

Who can say who I am 

 Better than the person inside me

I have to break through the dam

And let them go free 

 

If they love me that’s fine 

If they hate me that’s ok to 

I forever am mine 

Torn to know what to do

 

Tessa.❤️

 

 

 

Link to comment

T.S. Elliot just  gave you a  Wayne World bow. Amazing inspirational spoken word. thank you for sharing.

 

Link to comment

My Own Skin 

 

This morning I woke 

I felt my own skin 

Not the past choke 

Not knowing where I’ve been 

 

I felt love in my heart 

For the one who is most dear

Embracing my female part 

Expelling all my fear 

 

A hot bath to feels so good 

To put my mind at peace 

I know now that I should 

Let all the wrestling cease

 

I will let my true self come out 

Bathed in her own beauty 

Not feel my mind with doubt 

But enjoy the serenity 

 

Let love breathe through my lungs today

A love I can share to everyone 

My sweet voice take their pain away 

Let my light show like the sun 

 

Today you will make it through

Let love be your friend today

All you can be is you 

Thats enough I say

 

Tessa?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Link to comment

Shattered Mirror 

 

Someone dropped me 

I shattered into pieces

Now I can’t see

All my brain ceases 

 

I lay broken on the floor 

Each piece crafted by pain 

What is life for 

Hurting again and again 

 

If you pick me up you might bleed 

So best to leave me shattered 

If it’s love you need 

I’ll let you know I’m bruised and battered 

 

Should you feel for me 

Or even try to fix the mirror

Would you care to see 

Would you recognize I’m here

 

I want to hang in your heart 

A place you can be proud of me 

I want that bran new start 

Can you make me see

 

Tessa ?

 

Link to comment

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now
  • Who's Online   2 Members, 0 Anonymous, 124 Guests (See full list)

    • Mmindy
    • MaeBe
  • Recently Browsing   0 members

    • No registered users viewing this page.

  • Forum Statistics

    • Total Topics
      80.5k
    • Total Posts
      767.2k
  • Member Statistics

    • Total Members
      11,941
    • Most Online
      8,356

    Miss Cormac
    Newest Member
    Miss Cormac
    Joined
  • Today's Birthdays

    1. **Angela Charlotte **
      **Angela Charlotte **
    2. Carlie
      Carlie
      (63 years old)
    3. Cbxshawn
      Cbxshawn
      (49 years old)
    4. HannahO
      HannahO
      (31 years old)
    5. JustKatie
      JustKatie
      (40 years old)
  • Posts

    • Mmindy
      Good evening everyone,   I don't think my mother ever cooked a meal that I didn't like. We also had a kitchen where mom fixed the food, dad filled your plate, and you eat it. It wasn't until our baby brother was born that we could have Pop-Tarts for snacks. Before that all snacks had to meet mom's approval, and in her opinion wouldn't prevent you from eating supper.   Well my day started off on a good note, but has become frustrating because my IT person didn't transfer my saved videos I use for teaching. Then I found out that they didn't save any of my book marks for websites I use frequently.   Best wishes, stay motivated,   Mindy🌈🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋
    • MaeBe
      The number is relative to method of deliver, the time of the dose, and when the blood is drawn. However, I do want to keep away from DVT and other potential issues. I assume I may be getting backed down from my current dose, but my doc told me to stick with the higher dose, so? I also wonder if this has anything to do the my breast growth and mental changes that have been happening over the past few years, like I have some estrogen sensitivity so a little goes a long way or something? I don't have enough data to postulate, but who knows!   With weekly, subcutaneous, shots you expect to see big swings of serum level estradiol from shot to peak to trough. My doctor is interested in mid-week testing (for E and T levels only), which would be post-peak blood serum levels but they will be higher than trough. Most, if not all, resources I've seen online is to measure at trough (which I might do just to do it next time) along with a SHBG, LH, and other metrics.   This is from transfemscience.org for Estradiol valerate in oil, which is very spiky compared to some other estradiol combinations. It's also for intramuscular, which will have a slower uptake and is usually dosed in higher volume due to the slower absorption rate from muscles. They don't have subcutaneous numbers, which I would expect to see similar spikes but higher levels at similar doses due to the relatively higher absorption rate direct from fat.   Are you doing pills, shots, or patches? And when you do get your levels checked are you getting that done when your levels are lowest or some other time?
    • Willow
      Both of my parents were from the “North Shore” of Boston.  My mother Lynn and my father Swampscot.  They had an early 1900s Scots-Irish New England diet.  My sister and I were born in the 40s in Ohio well away from New England seafood and in an area where food was more German and Polish.  My first experience with liver and onions was during basic training.  They ate salt cod but never forced us to eat it same with oysters.  My dad ate oysters but my mother wouldn’t.  Anyone who ever ate an oyster can figure that one out.  I grew up eating lamb.  My wife won’t touch it. I love brazed ox tail, again no way. And the list goes on.  
    • KathyLauren
      My mother was German, so yes, I think it was a cultural thing.  If I'd known you when we were cleaning out my mother's place, I could have sent you her "threat jar". 
    • Adrianna Danielle
      Been taking it real easy.Another good neighbor of mine and his 15 year old son came over and cut down a couple dead trees on my property.Knew not to do it taking it easy.I had them put the wood near my fire pit in the back yard.Did it and happy where they put it.They knew I had stents put in and needed to take it easy
    • Ashley0616
      Wow that is a high number for Estradiol good grief! Testosterone levels are better than mine. I don't remember my Estradiol level but testosterone was 80. To me that is really high but it was in the two hundreds the check in before last one. 
    • Ivy
      I don't understand why this would make a difference being a "dad" I mean, as far as how they would grow.
    • Ashley0616
      I don't see why not. I have worn forms since I came out. 
    • MaeBe
      I have never worn breastforms, but I assume as long as they don't aggravate your nipples you could.
    • MaeBe
      Every week I've been excited to take my shot, so it's never been an issue. Yesterday, however, I woke up and started my usual "slow roll" and then suddenly realized I had breakfast plans that I had to rush out the door for. After, it was straight into work calls, and then I got the notification from the doctor about things being too high and all the while my mind had completely slipped that I needed take my shot.   Given that I am not asking for medical advice, but sharing my journey, I will note my results: Estradiol at 447 pg/mL and Testosterone was 23 ng/dL, up and down from 26 pg/mL and 526 ng/dL respectively before treatment. Almost flipped the bit! The doc would like my Estradiol closer to 300 pg/mL, so we'll see what Monday's tests state.   Oh, and I teased the dinner with old soccer teammates and never updated the thread! It went well. There were a couple funny moments. One guy, who I was worried about their response, greeted me with "Hey, you've lost some weight!" 😎 And a friend who lives near me picked me up on the way to dinner exclaimed, after we learned one of the invitees might show up with a date, "Wait! We could have brought women?!" To which I instantly responded, "You kind of did, bringing me!" Everyone got a good laugh out of that. 😁
    • Ashley0616
      To me there isn't that much difference other the measurement, which side the zipper is on and men's pants have bigger pockets. 
    • missyjo
      I hope this is not stupid question..I have yet to start n not sure if doc will approve..but once you start growing buds n such, can you still wear forms to get to the size you were?   I'm a dad, so when I start blossoms they will be smaller for a long time n probably need surgical augmented..that's fine. I don't want to go ddd to aa to ddd..   any ideas?   thank you
    • missyjo
      April sounds fun..I keep some boy jeans to visit mom in..fir now   hugs
    • Ivy
      I like them too.  We had them growing up.  But my father's family were Swedes.
    • awkward-yet-sweet
      Oh my!  I guess it just goes to show how different tastes can be. Since we don't live near the ocean, Seafood is a rare luxury. We absolutely love pickled herring! Especially my husband and my GF, I guess it's a Ferman/Russian cultural thing.  But most of the kids like it too, and a jar wouldn't last in the pantry for long 😆
  • Upcoming Events

Contact TransPulse

TransPulse can be contacted in the following ways:

Email: Click Here.

To report an error on this page.

Legal

Your use of this site is subject to the following rules and policies, whether you have read them or not.

Terms of Use
Privacy Policy
DMCA Policy
Community Rules

Hosting

Upstream hosting for TransPulse provided by QnEZ.

Sponsorship

Special consideration for TransPulse is kindly provided by The Breast Form Store.
×
×
  • Create New...