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DragonflyGirl

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I'm drinking a bottle of rum. It's the first one I've allowed myself this year.

 

I used to drink this stuff to shut my brain down, because I was in pain.

 

When my mum died last year, I went into a two month long black out, during which time I emerged as the person I am today.

 

Alcohol is an enemy of mine, but it got me through a barrier I wouldn't have got through without it.

 

Cheers, all! ?

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Hope you're enjoying good food with that rum and have some water on the side to refresh the palate. Cheers! Be well and stay safe.

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I think I've survived without posting anything embarrassing here or elsewhere! ?

 

I really shouldn't drink though.

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If it becomes a problem as it became for me i found help from other folks in the AA program.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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I went to AA 16 years ago. Maybe it wasn't the best group, but I found the people absolutely insufferable and ended up walking out straight into the boozer across the road! ?

 

I'm pretty good these days. The worst thing about necking that bottle last night has been the cloud of depression that's hung over me today. I really can't handle it and it totally defeats the object of having a drink.

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On 6/9/2020 at 9:43 AM, DragonflyGirl said:

When my mum died last year, I went into a two month long black out, during which time I emerged as the person I am today.

Hi Isobel

The passing of my mother also was the Life event that spun me into a depression (for the first time in my life)... my "bottle" at that time was to seek out and almost have an affair.
When I came out of the funk "Kay" was staring back at me in the mirror, wondering why I had kept her stuffed away for so long. 

 

I hope you can seek out therapy or even a support group that involves loss of a loved one.  I know you know the bottle won't be your friend but if a relapse gives you enough of a scare to seek help then consider that a good sign and opportunity. 
wishing you all the best❣️

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I'm sure some groups are difficult but i normally experience others in recovery who can share about the pain of losses or joy of success.  Many folks don't need a program of recovery.  Some do and die from substance abuse rather than ask for help.  I am grateful for my addiction as it has lead me on a journey to self acceptance as well as sobriety today. 

I'm sorry for your loss.  When my parents died i was more devastated than i admitted at the time.  Life can give us a kick sometimes. 

 

 Big Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Thanks! ??

 

It's amazing how long the effects of that bottle of rum are lingering. It really has pulled the rug from under my mental health this week. My anxiety has been sky high and I'm not coping with things I usually deal with reasonably well. How I used to drink all the time I just do not know.

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I’m still trying to figure out how to join the zoom meetings specially for trans people. I used the link and requested to be added to a list but no response yet.  I would like to join today’s meeting if anyone can help I would appreciate it. Thanks so much!

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The Zoom Meetings often wait until just a few hours before they give out the meeting access codes to help assure the recovering folks are not going to be hacked into, as some people have done recently.  @Charlize who is another one of our Moderators uses Zoom quite a bit and hopefully will get in to see this soon.

 

There is an online text meeting over on our Chat area which is on Discord.  That meeting which Charlize moderates over there is at 9:00PM on Sunday nights.

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Thanks for your reply.  I received an email with a password to join a trans A.A. meeting but no info on the actual zoom ID was provided

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If you filled out the form found at this address:  https://oso-aa.org/mailman/listinfo/tggroup_oso-aa.org

you should be added to our list serve where we have discussions.  When there request that Ravin give you our room # and password.  Sorry that it is as hard as this but by doing so we are safe from others who would disrupt our meetings.

Please do make the extra effort.  I have grown to love the other trans folks at our meetings as we help each other get through issues with alcohol(and other substances) as well as helping each other with trans or simply life's issues.

Hope to see you there.

 

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Charlize

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Just got finished reading my email Summer and see you have joined us on the list serve.  Please write a note to Ravin on that site and she will get back to you with meeting info.  There is a Zoom meeting tonight at 7 eastern.  We are reading and discussing an AA book called "Emotional Sobriety".  Other Zoom meetings are on Thursday, Saturday, and Sunday.  I can also give you the room # and password to a great GLBTQ Friday meeting if you message me.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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I’m trying to message you directly but it says I’m “allowed To send 0 messages per day” ?  I just want to expand my network of sober trans people. I filled out the other request and I’m trying to figure out that site

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I’m trying to message you directly but it says I’m “allowed To send 0 messages per day”

 

New members need to have made 5 posts before the private messenger can be used.

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