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Guest Vickie

Still figuring out where things are and how they work on this site..Wondered why we need for a moderator, almost don’t need to ask. With that I already know of how bad the world could be. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. 

ps my given name at the bottom of these pieces , my chosen name I use ,and so will require others to use as well. fyi V. ✌️

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Protection from the outside or from within?

  it seems to be on common ground that we share a more than what is external and a name, It is hard to explain to someone who never knew,,...but 

knowledge is the key to unfetter oppression and ignorance of sight

just my two cents for what that is worth , love as always

~^..^ hugs 

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My favorite is the ship out on the water. ? Nice work. Posted some of my abstracts to the gallery, when I found out too many pictures posted to the forums isn't good.

Every body needs protection both outside and inside. Some places need more than others. Mods and Admins are the necessary for keeping the grounds together. Everybody is different and comes from different places. Claiming things "Common" still is an assumption and an ideal that generalizes too far from the reality that exists.

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Guest Vickie

Dinaki by all means it is an honor for me , I will one up that with this, the heart on the vase is for you. But don’t look at this as if it is from me but as if it is from all of  in your life that you touch. I am just the messenger and the reasons I don’t need to know. love as always. V.

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Mx.Drago my most recent piece 2’x3’ acrylic on canvas , I am working up the courage to start a 6’ x7’ peice. Not trying to distract anyone here, or myself really. I put everything on hold , hid all of my distractions out of sight. Deleted myself from every website till I get my life on track. That is why I came here. I am completely lost navigating  this site. Not unlike life, I get lost looking for my car keys. Seriously I am broken by the loss of my bbf and life partner of 30 years. I made a promiss to help myself in his absence, why IDK. It is kind of you to say and all the best to you, love as alwaysV.  as a note I am going to insist on my friends and family to use my chosen name and not my given name.

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Why moderators exist?  We are hopefully acting as you servants.  This site like so many are often under attack by those who want to see trans folks return to the closet.  We now read and approve every post from new members but at one point we approved every post before it went up.  For the most part you will hopefully never be disturbed by folks who want a porn site(they are available elsewhere) or by posts filled with hate.

When i first found this site i was amazed.  All i had ever seen before  on the internet was the kind of porn that did little but make me feel dirty for simply being myself.  Being here to help each other find peace with themselves is a miracle.

Hopefully we as mods and admins can help with that.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

 

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31 minutes ago, Charlize said:

  For the most part you will hopefully never be disturbed by folks who want a porn site(they are available elsewhere) or by posts filled with hate.

 

 

Well said above Charlize, and thanks for what you do here :)

 

nice art work above

 

Hugs

 

Cyndee

 

 

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I am the Author ,I have a few of them I post on my work. As well as a book that I am in the middle of the first rewrite before it goes into editing.Thank you kindly

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Thank you Charlize, I knew why and share the sentiment, I found myself shocked to say the least by comments made by close friends and family on social media sites. Often warning them that even in jest it is a double edged sword ,as well as hurtful and uncalled for to treat anyone with no respect. Now the same people are telling me they are in my corner and that I am loved. I find that hard to believe no matter how much I like too. I tell everyone , look I have been listening for years to you make these nasty and rude comments thinking you were hurting no one. While I sat right across from you. I am not trying to make anyone feel bad or guilty or anything other than “ hey if one person loses their rights then  everyone loses their rights. It maybe trans today the women tomorrow and so on where will it end.?  

 So coming here I hoped to move forward , just a note but I have been in counseling for like forever dealing with PTS and ever other issue before dealing with gender. It made no sense to put the cart before the horse, yes my gender is important but thinking oh if I change that everything will be great. It simply doesn’t work that way. I wish it did for everyones sake. I apologize for the long winded comment and thank you for taking the time to reply. V.

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Hi Vickie

Loved the art. 

Perhaps those close friends and family will come around eventually. Yes it does hurt.

Many times it is just thoughtlessness before making a comment. Hopefully it will resolve itself in time.

Wish you all the best.

Carrie

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Carrie thank you dear I believe it will, sometimes we need to make a few mistakes before we learn. I have two rules  
Rule #1 sometimes people make a bad choice

Rule #2 you can’t change rule #1

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