A Change In Scenery IV: Exercise revisted and getting a few things off the chest (no pun intended)

[CharlotteVictoria]

Hello all, long time no see. Life's been rather crazy as of late, so i sorta forgot how to structure things and where to place them but here i go.

Over the past year, i've continued to work on my figure, primarily my lower half. I have now begun trying to slim the tummy. I still believe my lower half can get thiccer, as i don't really see much of a difference from then and now, however i need to invest in protein shakes and weights. Both of which are investments i've just now set my mind on committing to (equipment can be expensive). I've started by doing squats with two 10lbs dumbbells in each hand that i found laying around. I intend to try and get a bar and weights. However, i never really have anyone around to spot me, so i'm a little nervous.  

I currently have 2 routines for each part (lower half and tummy). I do my lower half on one day, followed by a 10-15 minute work out video at night. The next day i follow a cardio workout video 

(10-15 minutes), followed by that same tummy video at night. Then again, my lower half but a different routine, followed by the video. I try doing this at least 5 times a week, Mon-Fri if i can help it. I'm hoping this will get me somewhere, as best as possible while i work on a proper diet (which also costs alot of money). As always, if you have any tips or tricks you'd like to share that helped you slim down, then by all means, don't hesitate to share :D!


On the miscellaneous topic i mentioned..

Over the year, as hard as i have tried to reach my goal, i noticed it was putting some strain on my mental health. As lofty as a goal it was, i felt that every day i didn't workout, everyday i didn't eat right, every time i didn't do 1 more..2 more..i felt i was getting further and further away from my goal. Recently i sat down and, for lack of a better word, revised what i wanted. While i still want the same figure i've always wanted, i made a compromise point. A point where, if i can at least get to the compromise or close, i'd feel better. Needless to say, it has helped me tremendously with stress management. I've also bought two pairs of prosthetic breasts, and will probably buy more to see where i'd like my perma-size to be, assuming i do so (having an IRL boob-slider is awesome). All in all, the journey towards rebirth has been an interesting one so far. Filled with stress, confusion, irritation, happiness, relief. As wild of a ride as it is , though, i'm loving it nonetheless. Perhaps someday, i'll post the finish product of what the rebirth has sculpted. Maybe it'll inspire others.

[Abi]

Good luck on the workouts. It is important to have goals for sure. It also makes sense not to set unrealistic goals too. I find shorter goals make more positive feelings about accomplishments. Like I want to have the end results now but if I set myself a smaller prize, then I feel better about mysel,f which will encourage my desire to do more the next time. Everyone is always telling me it's more important to find little things to make myself happy, until the big things are more realistic. Seems like a good confidence builder at least. Have fun.