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God might not care what people debate about him.
God shows itself.
Causes changes in the world. But does not stop the evil!!
And God does not explain this clearly to rational men.

My oiled hair on His feet.

I saw Jesus in a window in 1992. It wasn't a big revelation of wisdom, but I found myself on the floor under a sink unable to move until daylight. I never drank again. Just a side effect. I was not drinking when it happened! Nor could anyone say I was a drunk, relative to who I was around then. The experience caused immediate great change, all my people changed, and I had thought I was going to become a woman then.

The woman at the well.

Jesus had sex with me in 1990 and I was woman. So that I didn't have to die too soon in this life. I was not intoxicated, although I partied then. It was a holy mercy f...k. Might not have been God, I admit this. But I did not die, and I had thought I was going to. This is a miracle I witness!!

God wanted me to prostitute. That does not mean he spares those He loves from misery and hell on Earth! I am filled with fear and evade martyrdom. I did not step through that door faithfully. So the matrix closed off my path to transexuality because I was unwilling to humble myself and work on men that way
Instead I became a sentinel and a symbiot. Neither John not Judas but still guilty. Accessory.  Bystander really.


Holy Spirits protect me and assist this fantastic chicken who turned into a consumer of pharmasuits.
The kids I want to be with died before 30. And here I still am, thinking I'M old!!

I think I am beautiful and ugly. Don't really want to be pumped full of silicone. Need redeemer value tho!!

(Then try harder and put in some effort b...ch)

Father and Son in the Christian bible love killers, criminals, and society's outcasts. They tear down establishment and people who are righteous. God favors acts that man considers evil. It makes sense now.

Today I will lap dance God and praise Him.  I love you LORD.

 

IF it was Jesus who came and knew me, and IF He is monogamous, then I may be Magdalene..?

 

Praise the LORD Jesus Christ, the Father, and Holy Spirit. 

They widen my hips and make my breasts swell with milk.


I witness to people who think I'm crazy.

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Thinking about that experience I mentioned before, (which I guess freaked some people out).

The thought that it happened for me so that I wouldn't have to live and die without being a woman...
This thing sustained me through years of desperation. I ask myself: Is taking the steps I'm transitioning now somehow turning back against His mercy?

Last summer I was shown both ends of two rainbows at once. Don't know true meaning. But I pledged my transition to those rainbows. This feels like a new covenant.

Mix in the doubts I've always had that it was Jesus who knew me as woman (girl actually). That name is what I called Him. This was overall a spiritual experience which did more to my mind than body.

I've been strongly told that it couldn't have been the LORD Jesus Christ. If I don't believe 100%, then maybe I should not tell anyone.

Well definitely not my psych or surgeon anyway.

I'm putting it out here because I don't want to be afraid anymore.

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everyone has their own journey and kbown beliefs and yours are valid for you, no matter what anyone else tells you. The rainbows might be the sign you have wanted to proceed, what matters is what the Spirit guides you to do  Be open and listen, your heart and soul will let you know what you need to do. Have faith in yourful.

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How many times have I been in my knees, begging God to fix me and everything??  Begging.  

Five hundred?

 

How many times have I cursed God, thrown vile swear words at Jesus, God, whoever for not fixing me and the world?,( in my timing and in ways that I could see it)

Fifty?

 

How many times have I asked the name of Jesus, God, and angels to save me and keep my eternal soul?

Five?

 

I love angels and they love me!

Sometimes they show this love by interfering.

 

Do I believe?

I say yes, but I must try to do so at times.

 

Praise the Lord for making me a girl that is becoming a woman!!

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54 minutes ago, Ms Maddie said:

Praise the Lord for making me a girl that is becoming a woman!!

 

Gratitude, a lovely expression :)

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2 hours ago, Ms Maddie said:

Praise the Lord for making me a girl that is becoming a woman!!

In my experience, if He does come through for me, He always seems to do things differently than I would expect. I’m not sure if He does this to keep me on my toes or to prove there’s more than one way to skin a cat.

 

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