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Thank Goodness for HRT


Heather Shay

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Today was not one of my better days....seems like everything I touched went south. A van I wanted to sell replaced the battery yesterday and the guy at Advanced Auto - arc it and blew out a computer which costs more then it's worth, my wife's best friend who lives in Germany was admitted to a hospital with anxiety and depression issues, the sirius radio onyx EZR that I had to buy to keep getting the station - started out ok today then turned south and...I think you get the point.

 

I am soooooooooooooo happy I am on HRT because even with just a month, I am calm and collected and not letting it worry me in the least and that feels good. 

 

AND I am so glad to hear that Kylie is doing so well after her final surgery to become the total physical woman she deserves to be and it brings tears of joy to my ears that she has made it and I'm so happy for her. 

 

I'm sorry if I ranted a little - needed to let it out - but with the bad came the good and I am happy to be moving forward as this is certainly not going to be the worst day I've faced but a much easier one thanks to the E finally coursing through me.

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Hope tomorrow's a better one!

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf ?

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Hi Heather, you sound like you are taking things in stride, even though these events were not all that pleasant, I think a cooler head prevails after HRT (my take). Hope tomorrow is a better day for ya. I do like Sirius XM radio / streaming and keep the service here, lot's of music found there. You can stream their content to your computer / phone if you'd like too (you probably know that).

 

Hugs and take care.

 

Cyndi

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Heather I am sooo sorry to read of your bad day.  I am glad you are alright though and taking it in stride.  Life is short and some days it doesn't pay to get up but we never know that when our feet hit the floor.  I do agree that E has made me calmer too.  

 

Was Advanced Auto able to do anything for you to make amends?

 

Hugs, Jani 

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Thank you ladies.  Cyndee nope I'm not that smart about Sirius I like it in the car. Jani a mechanic friend said to have the service guy take off cables and hold together then retry computers may reset. Worth a try and Timber wolf lady...thank you. Ok you have already meant so much to me by telling me about the Living With Wolves with my boy Kamots

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What a bummer or rather a series of bummers.  Sorry.  I also have found that HRT has improved my ability to handle stress and anger.  It's still there but i'm not nearly as ready to kick butt.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Happy things turned around for you, Heather Shay!  every storm cloud hides a rainbow waiting to come out ?️?❤️

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thank you - it is nice to have friends like you to give a comforting word.

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I hate to hear the series of unfortunate events. I really hope you can put the bad events behind and grow from them.

 

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@Kylie I am doing fine. and thank you. I admire you and can't wait to be able to have my hrs. You are amazing and to think you are reaching out to me when you are only days from having major surgery. That says just how loving a woman you are. Heal quickly and say hello to your kitty for me when you go home.

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