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Ok, Thanks Liz. I called my insur. co. today and they aren't in network either. I called planned parenthood of Indiana and they don't do HRT. Hopefully there is someone close by that does it all that is in network. I think Howard Brown might be the only full service place close by. I guess I have my work cut out for me. In the meantime, my wife said I should get my ears pierced. I said, hell yeah! Going to get some diamond and yellow gold studs. 

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Hey Jamie,

I'm sorry to hear it's becoming a thing trying to find a place. Have you considered straight out asking your insurance provider? Maybe they can point you in the right direction.

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I only asked about those two specific places. The next step is to ask them who IS in their network for full service LGBTQ care. There has to be someone in the Chicagoland area. They have a search engine if you log into their portal that has shown to be utterly useless so far. Thanks for the advice.

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Five months in today!

 

Slow progress I suppose, maybe a slight growth in the breasts since last report, skin a little softer.

 

I had thought outward progress would work on helping inner turmoil, but surprised to have a more proper balance of hormones has done wonders for the inside so much faster than outward changes happened.

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2 hours ago, RhondaS said:

Slow progress I suppose, maybe a slight growth in the breasts since last report, skin a little softer.

 

My first pass at that sentence I read, "maybe a slight growth in the breasts since last night." I was ready to be all jealous. ?

 

The mental changes are amazing aren't they? Just the ability to properly THINK without all that mental static is worth the price of admission. It's like when my heavily ADHD cousin finally got properly medicated and he was so very happy that he could finally concentrate. It's a beautiful thing.

 

Hugs!

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Today marks 6 months since starting...

 

Skin has gotten soft enough that I can tell the difference when shaving. Breasts seem to be getting a more obvious shape even if the growth is slow. 

 

Emotionally I've gone from stressing over gender to regret over waiting so long. And now also getting upset when for whatever reason I stick to the closet in certain relationships. 

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On 3/16/2021 at 2:42 AM, RhondaS said:

Today marks 6 months since starting...

 

Skin has gotten soft enough that I can tell the difference when shaving. Breasts seem to be getting a more obvious shape even if the growth is slow. 

 

Emotionally I've gone from stressing over gender to regret over waiting so long. And now also getting upset when for whatever reason I stick to the closet in certain relationships. 

@RhondaS, the 21st will be my 6 month anniversary. It doesn't feel like its been that long but I counted it up on the calendar and it actually is. My changes have been subtle but I can tell they are there. Like I'm losing weight easier and in places that a woman would and I'm gaining weight in other places. My skin also feels softer, the body hair is slowly getting lighter in both the amount and color (love that). My voice is becoming higher and my face seems just a little more feminine. I'm not sure but I think that my head hair is starting to come back, I could be wrong, it might just be getting longer and making it look like its coming back.

 

There are more but if I were to list them I would need a 1000 page book to write them all out. I love them all.

 

XOXO Holly.

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@HollyNoel Yay! It will be interesting when I (we?) start running into people that haven't seen me (us) in months to see how subtle the changes are...

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On 3/18/2021 at 2:21 AM, RhondaS said:

@HollyNoel Yay! It will be interesting when I (we?) start running into people that haven't seen me (us) in months to see how subtle the changes are...

@RhondaS, So I just signed back up to Facebook yesterday, I thought I would refriend people that I was friends with but when I did, I didn't say who I was. Of the 20 people I asked to befriended only one person recognized me. and they were floored. After about an hour conversation I asked him if he would have dated me, he said yes, but knowing I used to be his friend, it was a no. I'm not into him but if I were I know I could get him. lol

 

But anyway, every time I go out I kinda wish I would run into people I know that hasn't seen me since my change. Damn! It hasn't happened yet. lol

 

XOXO Holly

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@RhondaS Nope. I don't want anyone from my old life to think of the old me. Like a snake, I shed who I was and came out someone new. If they figure it out, I won't hide it. If they don't recognize me then that's great IMO, its the way I want it. I just want to see if they know me.

 

XOXO Holly.

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@RhondaSI soo happy for you!!! I Just did my bloodwork on thursday... So I should start my party this week!!!!

Please keep me posted on your changes.... 

Luv&Hugs, Shawn

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Yes, maybe, looked down changing clothes and thinking that I might need a sports bra soon if I'm gonna wear any of my tighter summer shirts...and there was discussion of going to the beach this summer and wondering what I'd have to wear in the water...

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7 hours ago, RhondaS said:

wondering what I'd have to wear in the water...

I wonder about this too

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7 month anniversary for me today, since I'm a baby trans I'm still marking the time by months. 

 

Maybe the only difference I notice since a month ago is there is some sort of hint of cleavage that's visible no matter what, instead of hiding and appearing depending on posture at the moment. 

 

Emotionally still feeling everything a bit more than old me, and surprised myself by laughing uncontrollably at some stupid twitter thread last week...can't remember laughing like that outside of a really funny show or movie in a long time. 

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Eh, I kept track in months up until my surgery. I had to go off HRT for six weeks and it completely spoiled my count and I'd forgotten to take note of the exact day anyway. I'm just counting in years now because I don't have a good tally anymore. I started in 2018. That's good enough, right?

 

Jealous of the cleavage though. I got a lot of nothing. You can see it when I've got the girls corralled in a bra, but just walking around I'm still pretty flat. I think it's karma for teasing a less-endowed friend back in high school.

 

Hugs!

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@RhondaS congrats on 7 months - I'm at 9 months - but I'm even a little more anal - I'm finishing week 39. 

Hugs

Shay

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@Jackie C. it's a sort of a smidge of a hint of something where cleavage would be, nothing to get too jealous about!

 

@Ava87 Thanks!

 

@Shay I stopped thinking about it in terms of weeks when I got to a month but congrats on those 39 weeks. Are we no longer baby transes when we hit 9 months?

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8 months in today. 

 

Doing the old 'ooh things are changing' mode alternating with 'dang, when are things gonna change faster' mode. 

 

Still stuck in weird limbo between full support from wife and no support/divorce from her. 

 

Need a pill that provides patience. 

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3 hours ago, RhondaS said:

Still stuck in weird limbo between full support from wife and no support/divorce from her. 

 

That has to be rough. I hope she makes up her mind one way or another. Knowing, even when the news is bad, always seems easier than the anticipation to me.

 

Hugs!

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