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To get the help you really need, you will have to reach out to other people.  Your school counselor is usually who I recommend to start with.  If you are really in danger of doing severe harm to yourself call your doctor's office or go to an Emergency Room or clinic. Your parents are going to have to learn about it in order for you to get the help you need, I am a grandparent, and I have a medical release for my grand kids if it is needed.  I have laid that one down on my son and their mother, and they love their children enough to trust me, and the kids know they can trust me even if what I tell them is not what they want to hear. 

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I would suggest taking a step back. I have known many people who cut, and while I was of course scared when they told me and wanted to stop them, more than anything I just wanted them to be ok. I understand why you may cut, and while I wish you wouldn't, I will not tell someone in a desperate situation what they are and aren't allowed to do. Whenever you have concerns, if fact, every time you feel like or have cut, consider coming on here and messaging me, or anyone, personally. We are here to help, all we want is your health.

 

On a more serious note, cutting is not your best option here. Over time, you will become more desensitized to it, and make them deeper and longer. It is a slippery slope. I would suggest instead, maybe for just a few days, finding some other way to let out that pain. I do not and never will condone self harm, but if you are going to do it, try other methods. Personally, I would put needles in the thick skin on my feet. It didn't actually make me bleed, nor was it painful as I couldn't feel it, but the release I felt was pretty good. Not a long term solution, but it could help you get off cutting for now.

 

I am here anytime. Just stop in, I don't judge, no matter what you have done I will try to help you. Please...

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Thankyou for being so nice I fine myself so thankful that people like you exist. I think I will reconsider or at least no self- harm as much. Thankyou your a great person.

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All you can do is your best sweetie. Your best is good enough.

 

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15 hours ago, Rat man said:

if i dont tell them it will end up with me killing myself

I'm probably not one of the best people to take advice from, I also struggle with self harm. My first time trying was in fourth grade, with a piece of plastic that came off my hand-me-down binder. I hurt myself on and off all through school just because I liked feeling pain inflicted. But I got sloppy and when I got caught I tried to blame it on the neighborhood dogs and then I hid in the room I shared with my sister and one by one everyone in my family came in to talk to me. My sister cried and showed me hers and told me never to do it again because she'd kill me if she saw new ones. My father told me there were other ways to get attention, like asking for it and my mother... she just cried and hugged me and asked how she could make me better. 

There will always be people who will not understand, like my father, and there will always be someone who just wants to help you. Even if they are not blood related, you are not alone and you will not be in trouble. Even if they have an angry reaction like my sister, it's just because they didn't realize it sooner and that makes them upset, because "they could've helped." 

If you're looking for a reason to come out about it think about them because they will remember every instance where they thought there might be something wrong and they didn't ask and now they're upset because they didn't. 

 

Sorry if that doesn't make sense, I think I got a little ramble-y at the end there. If you need someone to talk to let me know. 

 

Warmly,

K

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Hey there!

 

I have a long history with self harm, especially cutting. I definitely agree with everything Vicky said above. If you have an opportunity to find a professional to talk to you should do that, or visit the ER if you are experiencing immediate need.  To be clear, I'm not a mental health professional. 

 

That being said, my experience with self harm was very prolonged. Self injury for me was only a side effect of depression and trauma.  Things only got better for me when I chose to seek out help on my own.  (Its always easier to succeed if you choose it, right?)

 

At 17, I was able to convince my mother that a therapist was a would be helpful for me in a global sense without divulging my self harm issues. I was lucky enough to meet a professional who was kind and attentive. The best advice he gave me was "what if you just tried cutting yourself one less time per week?". 

 

At that point I was cutting myself multiple times per day and had been doing so for two years. I had hid it from everyone around me.  I had isolated myself to the point where people stopped checking in on me. I was certainly suicidal, but more infatuated with the rush of self harm. We'll just say I was treating myself exceptionally poorly.

 

I also had talked to my primary care physician during a yearly physical about medication for symptoms of depression and he was able to work with me in a discrete way. I had a cell phone at the time (remember the Nokia Bricks? those things were indestructible), and he worked with me that way for dosing and changing of meds as necessary.  

 

So the advice I wish I had sooner is, you don't have to fix every problem over night. If you can take small steps to treat yourself better immediately, those are good steps.  There are also multiple ways to confront mental health and self harm issues. That may involve therapy, medication, family/community support and other avenues. Depending on your particular situation any one of those things could will be more or less important.  There is no-size-fits-all for mental health and its okay to try something that doesn't work out perfectly.  

 

I believe in you!

 

Rose

 

 

 

 

 

 

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