IT HAS BEGUN!

[ThankOurTroops]

I decided to keep track of major milestones (if I remember to) on my phone. My one month anniversary of starting HRT is on Thanksgiving! Man, do I have something to be thankful for this year!

 

My birthday is December 4th which will be the beginning of my first full year of treatment.

 

Then of course there's Christmas. I might actually ask for feminine things to help me adjust to my new self. Although that one might be too difficult to push myself to do. At least the first year. Especially since I started so late.

[Jackie C.]

2 hours ago, ThankOurTroops said:

Especially since I started so late.

 

Sweetie, I started at 48. By the end of my first year, my boy stuff was GONE. I just had no need for it.

 

Ask for things that make you happy. Making somebody else happy is the whole point of gift-giving.

 

Hugs!

[ThankOurTroops]

I understand that everyone is different and this could just be me, but I've been on HRT for over two weeks and I'm still not feeling it. The only thing I am feeling is growing concern.

 

I have my one month follow up on the 30th so I'm not freaking out or anything because I know it hasn't been very long and I will be going over things with my provider soon.

 

It's just that my hopes/expectations aren't being met and I need this to happen.

[MirandaB]

Totally get the need for it to happen fast, @ThankOurTroops. The only thing that happened in two weeks for me was mental relief, and who knows how much of that was from the HRT and how much was just me allowing myself to finally do it, hard to say.  

[Jackie C.]

5 hours ago, ThankOurTroops said:

I understand that everyone is different and this could just be me, but I've been on HRT for over two weeks and I'm still not feeling it. The only thing I am feeling is growing concern.

 

It's OK sweetie, it can be a couple of months before they really start to kick in. The early changes are subtle and, well, you live in your own head every day. It takes a while before you have that "Ah-HA!" moment when you can see the differences for yourself. Relax. Be patient. It's only been two weeks.

 

I completely get the desire for it to GO FASTER! Seriously. I've been on HRT for about two years and I'm still thinking, "I should have been a woman two years ago!" The thing is I already was. It's just harder to see from our side of the mirror.

 

Hugs!

[Maid In Bedlam]

On 10/27/2020 at 2:19 PM, Jackie C. said:

 

Totally worth it. My only regret is not doing it back when I was eighteen.

 

Hugs!

 

 

Amen to that. I should have started earlier. I suppose you can not dwell on the past. But look to the future.

 

Good luck with your Transition. Its been said before but just to reiterate. The changes are very slow. But they will happen. I will give you a tip as you may not see it intially Maybe you have had the insight to do this already. But Take your measurements. Hips, Bust,  Waist Well in reality as many as you can get a tape measure round. See what changes. But I dont know about everyone else as all reactions and bodys are diffrent. You couldnt really pin it down to one particular change its lots of little ones that make up the whole. You bone stucture doesnt change but you will be surprised how much that fat moving around makes such a huge diffrence.  Regardless if you think yourself lean. It still moves around and we all have in in one shape or form. I think the first thing i noticed was my skin became softer very quickly. Many milestones to celebrate ahead. Its a marathon not a sprint and you past the first marker. WTG ?

[Elizabeth Star]

6 hours ago, ThankOurTroops said:

I understand that everyone is different and this could just be me, but I've been on HRT for over two weeks and I'm still not feeling it. The only thing I am feeling is growing concern.

It was 4-5 weeks before I noticed any physical changes. By that time I was getting really worried and thinking nothing was going to happen. But it did and since then it's just been slow and steady.

[ThankOurTroops]

Thank you for all the support. I'm really glad I found this site.

 

I know the physical changes are going to take a long time. I was mainly referring to how I feel in general. I'm still having the same issue that was one of the things that confirmed my belief that I had to do this.

 

As I told the specialist I initially spoke to and the director of the program, I can't stand the feeling of the blood flowing through my veins. It just feels wrong.

 

This is very serious for me. My happiness and in effect my life depend on the results of this. I need some significant change to happen as soon as possible in order to hold onto what sanity I have left. (ok, maybe I am freaking out about this.)

 

I'm in a weird position where I am desperate for my chest to be in a great deal of pain. It reminds me of one of the earlier replies to this thread: "Just starting and actually am happy to know they are finally growing.... Yay.... Ouch.... Yay." Yeah, like that.

[Jackie C.]

1 hour ago, ThankOurTroops said:

I'm in a weird position where I am desperate for my chest to be in a great deal of pain. It reminds me of one of the earlier replies to this thread: "Just starting and actually am happy to know they are finally growing.... Yay.... Ouch.... Yay." Yeah, like that.

 

That took about two months for me. It can take as many as six. I know exactly what you're feeling though. Try to make some progress in other areas. Your presentation and voice for example. Both are completely under your control. Voice work. Learning how to walk like a woman. Both great ways to pass the time while you wait for your stubborn body to get with the program already.

 

Hugs!

[Charlize]

   Like you i wanted things to go quickly.  As an addict in recovery i know how fast a pill, injection or shot of alcohol can change my perspective.   HRT was different.  It was in fact much like puberty had been.  Changes took place over years.  Quite often others saw them before i did.  I'm actually glad that i wasn't simply touched by a magic wand.  There was time to adjust to being me.   

    I never had severe breast pain.  For me it was more an ache.  Of course bumping into a door was a different story.  I can't wish that on anybody but most of us get that ouch.  My girls are tender and a few ouches taught me about that!

Enjoy 

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

 

[Ivy]

4 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

That took about two months for me. It can take as many as six. I know exactly what you're feeling though.

Yeah, it was probably 6 months for me before I was confident that the boobettes were real.  I guess what brought it home was that brush against the door thing, and then someone hugged me and yikes!

But to be clear, I started at 68 myself.

[ThankOurTroops]

I would love to start practicing and training in the non-physical aspects of this like voice and all that. Unfortunately due to numerous/serious reasons, I am still living with my parents. Not by choice mind you.

 

I came out to them near the end of March and they still haven't said anything. The only time I spoke with one of them was a sit-down conversation where my dad made the whole thing about himself and what he wants me to do. From what he was concerned about, he clearly doesn't understand this at all. I'm pretty sure my mom thinks this is a mistake.

 

I have been suffering from severe depression my entire adult life and even reached the point of attempted suicide. They've been afraid of me reaching that point again and I explained to them that this transition is the only thing that will keep it from happening. I even said it very bluntly when I told them that they could either gain a daughter or lose a son. Not a word from either of them.

 

I'm afraid of the possibility that they could disown me and throw me out. I expressed that to them too. I'm hesitant to be myself because it feels like I'm playing with fire. I want to be happy for the first time in my life.

 

What makes this even more maddening is the fact that my nephew/niece has been going through the same thing longer than I have and all of my siblings are completely supportive. I knew my brother would be since he's his/her father. My sisters surprised me though with how immediately accepting they were. It's just our parents that are the problem. The fact that all of their other children accept it means nothing to them.

[MirandaB]

I've had a bit of change in the breasts, and I can also say it's not been serious pain, just enough to give one hope that things are happening. Feels kind of weird to say, don't be disappointed if your pain isn't that awful!

[Willow]

I started at 68 too.  The older you are the more cautious doctors are with medication.  I’ve been on hrt for close to a year with nothing to “show” for it.  Although I started feeling some discomfort ok mild pain about a month ago.  Got my doctor to add E via injection. Before I was only on progesterone.  Talk about getting anxious for something to happen.  But now it’s starting and the only question is how much change it will make.  Haven’t been hugged tightly with COVID-19 and have avoided bumping into something but I from what I have felt that will be painful ?.  The female equivalent to a kick in the ????

 

Willow

[Jackie C.]

2 hours ago, Willow said:

The female equivalent to a kick in the ????

 

Nah. It sucks but it's more like "Ow, Charlie horse" pain than the "I'm going to vomit" pain that getting kicked in the grapes used to cause.

 

Hugs!

[Ivy]

2 hours ago, Willow said:

The female equivalent to a kick in the ????

I agree - not that…

But it is an attention getter.