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I'm more or less transgender since childhood (mtf). I'm crazy about being pregnant and being a mother. This is my unfulfilling dream. I often dream that I'm living an ordinary female life with my husband and kids. I'm almost a thirty-year-old freak. Does anyone have similar to me?

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Hey sweetie!

 

First off, you're not a freak. Lots of us have fantasies about being preggers and raising a family. Personally, I'm more wired to be a cool aunt, but I could totally raise a kid if someone else did the heavy lifting.

 

Secondly, welcome to Transpulse! We're glad you're here. Please, feel free to look around and ask any questions you might have. Within the bounds of the site rules, naturally.

 

Hugs!

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Jackie C. - thank You.

It was a little joke with this freak, although it's bizarre for the biological man to dream of being pregnant. Pregnancy seems so sweet and wonderful to me. To have such a close relationship with the child from the beginning and to feel baby's movements in body is, in my opinion, emotional fulfillment.

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You are most welcome. We live to serve.

 

You have to be careful with some of those jokes. I know plenty of transwomen who get torn up by the fact they can't get pregnant and plenty more that have been conditioned to think that's there's something wrong with them. I live in the US. The environment for us here... could be better. ?

 

Again, welcome to Transpulse. I look forward to getting to know you better.

 

Hugs!

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I know what it means to be confused about not being able to get pregnant, this is my problem. Sometimes I dream that I'm carrying one child in my belly and the other, already born, I'm nursing, feeding, etc. And we are "waiting for daddy's return to home after work". Sometimes I dream that I'm in the skin of my friend who already has two children, and the third is on the way. I dream that I am her and I give birth at home, a supportive husband is by my side and the midwife instructs me how to breathe and push the baby.

For me, making a joke of it all is a pretty good strategy for dealing with unrealistic desires, but I understand that it might be indigestible to someone else.

About the environment - I know the current US president is anti-transgender, it is rather similar in my country, but there is no full consequence here.

 


 
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3 hours ago, Danusia said:

I'm crazy about being pregnant and being a mother.

I was always so jealous of my ex when I watched her nursing.

Welcome, Danusia

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2 hours ago, Danusia said:

Pregnancy seems so sweet and wonderful to me. To have such a close relationship with the child from the beginning and to feel baby's movements in body is, in my opinion, emotional fulfillment.

 

For me, it doesn't seem quite as strong as it appears to be for you, and I'd be terrified of the nausea, morning sickness, labor pains, etc. But I definitely do feel much the same way about it as you (and also for nursing, too), and I know there others here who do as well. Doesn't help that a much younger co-worker of mine is pregnant and my sister just had her second arrival this year.

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Welcome to Trans Pulse, Danusia.  I hope that you find the support, friendship and solid information that you're looking for.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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2 hours ago, Heather Nicole said:

 

For me, it doesn't seem quite as strong as it appears to be for you, and I'd be terrified of the nausea, morning sickness, labor pains, etc. But I definitely do feel much the same way about it as you (and also for nursing, too)

I'm also aware of some pain and difficulties during the pregnancy, but I have got incomprehensible attraction to be pregnant. All I'm writing about are the desires that cannot be fulfilled and cannot be verified, so I use mild phrases like "it seems" and not "it is for sure".

btw, I'm very pleased that my person was warmly welcomed by portal users. I feel understood by others.

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Hey, welcome Danusia!! I feel like motherhood among many us is a very valid want, and the thought of carrying a child too--there's no reason you can't still raise one tbh, find someone you care about is how I see it. Quite easy to understand actually, friendo! :) Though personally not sure I could see myself as anything but as another gremlin myself lmao!

 

Take care,

Jill

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13 hours ago, Danusia said:

it's bizarre for the biological man to dream of being pregnant. Pregnancy seems so sweet and wonderful to me.

Welcome @Danusia...a pleasure to meet you. Maybe it seems somewhat bizarre today but probably not to our future great grandchildren. Times are changing every day a little at a time.

 

3 hours ago, JillPilled said:

I feel like motherhood among many us is a very valid want, and the thought of carrying a child too

I’ll be honest and tell you that I’ve had this discussion with my wife several times since coming out to her two years ago.  This is a discussion I NEVER thought would ever take place..lol  Transition has caused a lot of “firsts” in our marriage. Not that childbirth would’ve ever been an option even if technology could somehow make it possible...never at my late age. Regardless, it has been something I have thought about periodically my entire life even while knowing full well it would never happen. Child birth and child bearing are miracles and there’s nothing wrong with wanting to experience something so wonderful and fulfilling.

 

As woman, whether cis or trans, we still have many of the same emotions, hopes, and desires. As @JillPilled says..it’s valid. I believe if we took an anonymous (scientific) poll on the subject, I bet trans woman having these desires might mirror those of cis women. However, there are several variables that make that an almost impossible task. Many trans woman are in different stages of acceptance of their identity. The societal non-acceptance of a trans woman giving birth would likely skew the results. The expense and difficulty of actually becoming pregnant would have an impact also.

 

Thank you for sharing a very personal part of yourself here Danusia. It’s a legitimate yearning that many woman have and it shows you that you are not alone. There are others like myself that have the similar feelings and desires about it as yourself.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

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Hi @Danusia!  nice to meet you and Welcome!

Everybody here is unique in their own special way, and the Forum is open to express our feelings and desires in a supportive group.  I do remember reading some other posts from Members who had similar feelings about pregnancy, so I hope you will be able to connect with them.

 

In the mean time ... Deep breaths .. one step at a time❣️

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2 hours ago, KayC said:

I do remember reading some other posts from Members who had similar feelings about pregnancy, so I hope you will be able to connect with them.

 

 

I invite all members witn similar feelings and desires to comment. 
Thank You everyone for such nice posts. 
I feel a bit like in some dream cafe/club where you can talk to other moms about motherhood and family life ?. 
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