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My partner came out to me as a transwomen and it I'm ok with it. I love her, that's all that I care about. I've been doing some reading and I'm scarred. She is pre HRT right now and I'm afraid that once she starts her transition she wont love me as her partner anymore. We have been together for 8+ years and she is bi. She has said that of coarse she will still think of me as her partner but I'm afraid that the hormones  will change how she feels about me. I understand that MtF transition may result in a lower sex drive and that doesn't bother me.  I want her to still love me as her life partner. Can someone please tell me if this has happened to you and your partner or if I'm being silly. We are also monogamous.

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Everyone is different.  In my experience talking to people on forums like this, most transgender people in relationships want the relationship to continue when they transition.  But, unfortunately, there are no guarantees.  All you can do is to keep communicating. 


When I came out to my wife, I knew that I wanted to stay in the relationship, but I knew that she would worry about whether or not I did.  So I made a point of telling her right away, in the first minute or two if the discussion, that I had no intention of leaving her.  I stayed, she stayed, and now we are closer than ever. 


You are not being silly, but I would urge you to stay hopeful.

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You sound a lot like my spouse when I started transitioning. It was actually a little funny. Both of us were all wound up about the idea of the other one leaving. It's still a bit of a struggle. She's convinced that I'm going to go skipping off into my new life without her. I'm terrified that she'll meet some guy she likes better... though I've come to realize that I'm closer to bi than I thought. If she brought a guy I found hot home, we might be able to work with that. 😋


Anyway, it comes down to the two of you. If you communicate with each other and keep each other close, you'll be fine. The official rate of marriages that survive this is 55%, but I think that if you're both willing you'll come out the other side. I won't say that it's all sunshine and unicorns. There have been adjustments, but we've both been willing to make them to keep each other.


Between you, me and the wall, the sex is actually better. It's not as frequent, but between being able to love myself and the extra layer of empathy things get pretty amazing in the bedroom.


So yeah, you're not being silly, couples break up over this but they don't have to. If you're both willing to work on the relationship you'll be fine.



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I have not transitioned and not sure how far I am going to go, but I am in line to get bottom surgery.  I had prostate cancer and have almost no hormones right now for awhile. I will go to estrogen after this and not testosterone. I never want T in my blood ever again! Not one thing has changed about my love for my wife, but I am a lot more emotional. Each of us is different as has already been expressed above.


Most of the group I talk with stay focused on their spouse, but there are some that don't. Sometimes the spouse leaves because they cannot accept the change.  My marriage has been all over the place, but I think my wife has realized a lot of what she thought and feared will not come true.



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Thank you everyone so much! Your words have helped me to feel a bit more secure about the future. :) <3

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I won't say if will be easy and smooth sailing because each transition and relationship is different.  I have not change my orientation and have no need to. 


Welcome aboard!!  I love your user name.  Aren't we all!!

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On 12/22/2020 at 3:06 PM, Confused1 said:

I have not transitioned and not sure how far I am going to go, but I am in line to get bottom surgery.  I had prostate cancer . . Not one thing has changed about my love for my wife, but I am a lot more emotional.

        Mike my father had prostate cancer, docs put him through 'ell, and it was him and I discussing treatment that put me on the path I was once on, but not now. lol Saw the "emotional thing" too, he said "your mother was the only one who ever truly loved me"  . . two divorces & three marriages later! 


Skip the "srs" and love her the way she's always liked you!

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4 hours ago, Kiera said:

        Mike my father had prostate cancer, docs put him through 'ell, and it was him and I discussing treatment that put me on the path I was once on, but not now. lol Saw the "emotional thing" too, he said "your mother was the only one who ever truly loved me"  . . two divorces & three marriages later! 


Skip the "srs" and love her the way she's always liked you!


Hi Kiera,


I've had dysphoria much of my 65 years and I think I could have made it to my grave without anyone even knowing I had it. I love my wife as much as life itself. Until now it has been worth suppressing it.


The SRS is to fix something done to me at that prostate surgery. It is something that I cannot live with and there seems to be only one way to fix. The problem I have is something almost no one gets. I have talked to hundreds of PCa survivors. I didn't realize how much the testosterone was affecting me until it was gone.  If this doesn't make sense PM me.




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Right now I am writing and now I am keep thinking I will die in any moment. It -toasted- up my intelligence and I always been walking in my room, from the beginning of it to its end since I can't even play games in such state, not by saying to code something. Anyways, I then went into a daily hospital. We (my mother and me) used to think I will be there from 8 to 14 hours and lie on a bad, and they will spectate on me and getting helpful medicaments, but it turned out that I should go there twice a day to be on a round (can't get  a proper english word) and drink a tablets they give, after that, I visited it only once to drink tablets and they give me tablets on the rest of the day. After that, they knocked me out from a daily hospital, however, I always used to tell I feel very bad and I am suffocating, but they doesn't put it into an attention. I am keep suffering from scary of death and thinking about point of life, my body is breaks down and thus, I have to walk by a room and can't lie on a bad as I feel a wild discomfort. I used to keep thinking all people living lust, but I can't have a proof for it. I used to spectate people and the thing I realized I am much dumber then another people, I feel like a maniac, a psychopath, living on a hardcore not being able to drink even a bottle of a beer as it conflicts with medical treatment and I may die since the tables I drink is the most powerful and effective ones, but they doesn't help me either. Regarding point of life. I am not going into my schizophrenia, but I used to think people are really living lust and hide it each second, make such people like me a fools, which gets into mental hospitals multiple times or even a jail. I lost the importance of myself. I am right now keep thinking I am a regular -dimwit-, same as another people. I used to keep think there is a God, and no aliens at all, I pray to God, I think the God is the only one can save me from "schizophrenia by bird". I think there is no such medical treatment from get rid me from insanity, only God or helpers from God can help me. Usually, any living human should pray and keep thinking about God, the fact that it's doubtfully exists or not is losing a faith, which is really bad.
    • tracy_j
      Thank you for sharing. It is often said that a weight shared is a weight halved and I think many of us here can attest to that being true. I can remember from my short time in military service that being confined with a small group of people does increase stress no end. I am glad that you were able to serve well but obviously sad that you were so stressed while doing so. It is so slow that people realise that many things in modern service can now be done by anyone with the right aptitude and training. Gender does not come into it.   Tracy
    • Ann W
      When the student is ready...the dress will appear.  Good luck with the wife.
    • Ann W
      Thank you ladies. 😊  That coat was a lucky break.  I was walking into Goodwill just as an employee was putting it out.  I never paid 20 bucks for anything there before, but it was really sweet, and still new with tags from Nordstrom Rack on it.  I've had some really good luck at that store lately.
    • Lexi C
      I am M2F  I assume that being with men was part of being a woman.  However, I find myself more and more attracted to women then I ever have. I  am unable to get  erection anymore thanks to not having any more testosterone and being on finasteride., cuz I'm bald.  I haven't watch porn since I start HRT 3 yrs ago. Yet, I can't stop feeling that if I am going to be a woman I should on be attracted to men.  A lot of you know my past. I escort ( CD and finally as TG) only so I could save to start my HRT and put some away for surgeries  just in case Medical didn't come through. So I had my share of male encounters, but I was never attracted to them the way I am to women. I know some of you are married, were married, are in a committing relationship.  I guess want I am  trying to say is: We finally achieve our true self only to be confused or abandon do to our sexuality . I finally become a woman( and that's hard in it self) just to be mentally confused. And I am not even mention the fact that dating has being a Zero. Unless i go back escort WHICH I AM NOT. I don't know...sorry for the rant, not doing well mentally and this is add to my dysphoria . Ty Lexi    
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