Saw Myself in a TDOR Event I Did Not Realize Was Being Shown.

[VickySGV]

I knew they were playing one of my Chorus's videos tonight and secretly hoped it was one where I was behind a camera, or better had not been at the particular filming one time.  Oh well, the entire show was well put together by a bunch of people from the Black, Latinx and Native American Trans communities in the So. Calif. area.  Not quite the in person experience, but it worked out fine.  Tomorrow night is the show I posted about here a week or two ago.  I have a reading part in that one that I am a bit nervous about but life happens.  I don't know why I hoped I was not in the video, but I am in a down mood tonight.

[Carolyn Marie]

Sorry to hear that you're feeling down, Vicky.  No reason the video should be a cause for that, at least.  I hope you feel more chipper tomorrow.  TDOR is usually a very sad day, at least for me.  I'm kind of glad it was virtual today.  Anxiety coupled with sadness is something I'm getting used to, unfortunately.

 

Carolyn Marie

[VickySGV]

9 hours ago, Carolyn Marie said:

No reason the video should be a cause for that, at least. 

 

The video was not the cause of my grumpiness .  It is really a very cute one and meaningful.  The song at its base is Don't Give Up On Love by Maggie Szabo who is a wonderful young Canadian Cis woman artist who adopted the Chorus as her back up for the major video of the song.   There are two videos of it that were made before COVID hit that did not have me in them, and then last summer I was asked to take part in a photo shoot which I ended up doing outside the Rose Bowl, at about a 20 foot distance from the photographer without mask, in front of a prop microphone.  The photo shoot images were placed over parts of the sound track of the other videos.  I guess a bit of uncharacteristic shyness on my part was brewing yesterday for some reason.