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Sorry for ranting again I just needed to get this out, thank you for your time :') 

 

Someone tell me why the only thing my stepmom tries to validate is the reason I do all the chores in the house? I pretty much had a breakdown this morning because I was extremely overwhelmed and she just told me "Well if you do it right the first time you won't have to do it again" Which was useless info because she makes me redo everything even if it is cleaned perfectly, my hands are covered in wood cleaner which is hella oily and gross because she insisted that I clean all the wood again EVEN THOUGH I DID IT A FEW DAYS AGO and I started stressing even more because this was taking up the time that I have for school WHICH IS ONLY 3 MF HOURS. Yesterday some kids were over and ran behind the couch and pushed a wire in the plate that was holding it and my stepmom moved the couch so she could fix it (She wasn't satisfied with what I did even though I fixed it) and then she got mad and was like "Well this house wouldn't look so messy if the couch was in the right spot" even though she was the one who moved it...  She is becoming increasingly more petty as the days go by, last example is that she got mad about the couch situation and then I went upstairs to go do my laundry (Which I do very quickly because I only have 1 load...) And I asked her if I was good to use the washing machine (Yes, I do have to ask, or else I get in trouble) and she ignored me even though I know for a fact I was loud enough. So I figured if she didn't want me to use it she would have said something, so I put the little smelly beads in the washing machine and then she says, "Hey, I need the washing machine" so I take my laundry back to my room and wait patiently ALL DAY and she never even used the washing machine ? Sometimes I feel like I am the adult in the house AND I AM NOT EVEN 18 YET- 

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1 hour ago, DonkeySocks said:

Aidan, your life sounds like something out of a young adult novel. Hang in there.

Maybe I should write a novel, I mean I love to write. Maybe I could make some money, and maybe get laugh or two out of it :DD

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1 hour ago, Aidan5 said:

Maybe I should write a novel, I mean I love to write.

If you love to write, write!

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1 hour ago, DonkeySocks said:

Make sure he has some awesome special talent but IT'S A CURSE because HE JUST WANTS TO BE NORMAL.

 

Ew. Don't do that. #BadWritingAdvice

 

Seriously though, many people want to have children. Not all of them want to be parents. Your stepmom probably sees you as a rival for your father's attention... even through from what you've said, he's not much of a prize either... so she goes full evil stepmom on you. It's a little sad. People who treat others like that generally hate some part of themselves. It's a terrible way to live.

 

The 3 hours for school thing is still seriously messed up. "Sure, I can do six hours plus two hours of homework in three hours or less. No problem." Said nobody ever.

 

Not much longer now. You should be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's... It's.... SHRIMP HEAVEN NOW! ?

 

Hugs!

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1 hour ago, Overalls Bear said:

Hugs........

Thank you :DD 

 

1 hour ago, Jackie C. said:

 

Ew. Don't do that. #BadWritingAdvice

 

Seriously though, many people want to have children. Not all of them want to be parents. Your stepmom probably sees you as a rival for your father's attention... even through from what you've said, he's not much of a prize either... so she goes full evil stepmom on you. It's a little sad. People who treat others like that generally hate some part of themselves. It's a terrible way to live.

 

The 3 hours for school thing is still seriously messed up. "Sure, I can do six hours plus two hours of homework in three hours or less. No problem." Said nobody ever.

 

Not much longer now. You should be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's... It's.... SHRIMP HEAVEN NOW! ?

 

Hugs!

Pfft- I will find a way to make it actually good >:)) 

 

Funny thing is my stepmom has 3 children of her own (Who don't share the same fathers, oop) Yeah I am pretty sure that is true, I know I am the least favorite, she makes that clear :)) I know she has issues and goes to therapy for it, funny thing is she said "Y'know, I don't think I need therapy anymore, I feel good" and I think she completely missed the point pfft, I AM THE ONE SUFFERING because OF YOU but okaY. 

 

Yeah I told one of my friends through email and she was like, "wwhat- how the hell-" She said it takes her at least 2 hours for each lesson since they are online and we teach ourselves" I woRK hARD and I AM always stressed but I am up to date somehow- 

 

SHRIMP HEAVEN NOWWW not that much longer :))) 

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1 hour ago, Aidan5 said:

Pfft- I will find a way to make it actually good >:)) 

 

I feel like I should argue here, but I'm actually writing a fairy story right now and making it fresh so that would make me a hypocrite. If you can make it good, then go forth and do the work of the Goddess my dude.

 

Hugs!

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I kinda wanna make a sad story that resembles my life but has a semi happy ending. Also when I think of the original story Idea, I think of ratatouille- REMY HAS A CURSE OF A GOOD NOSE Lmao 

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I don't see that as a curse. It makes the food I prepare taste better and lets me sniff out where my spouse hid the caramels. It could be a curse if your hero goes to a lot of anime conventions though. I have personally sat across from people in MtG tournaments who added a, um, chemical warfare aspect to their gameplay.

 

Hugs!

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1 hour ago, Jackie C. said:

I don't see that as a curse. It makes the food I prepare taste better and lets me sniff out where my spouse hid the caramels. It could be a curse if your hero goes to a lot of anime conventions though. I have personally sat across from people in MtG tournaments who added a, um, chemical warfare aspect to their gameplay.

 

Hugs!

Well it's a curse because his dad made him sniff the difference between poisoned food and safe food, in the beginning of the movie, he has to stay in one spot and sniff all day long since he was the only one who could tell. 

 

pFFt

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I don't know, that one job kind of put him in a box, but it also made him a treasured member of the community. They couldn't get by without him. So on one hand it made him an indispensable member of his tribe while keeping him a virtual prisoner. On the other hand, without Remy the rat... what do you call a group of rats anyway... Ah, the mischief (I would have thought congress)... anyway the mischief suffered heavy losses to poison without him.

 

Yeah, there's story potential there. Do I use my gift for the greater good or do I hide it away and try to live a normal life. Classic superhero dilemma really.

 

Hugs!

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That a really good idea too, The protagonist might feel conflict ion because they might feel selfish,WAIT What if they became the villain because they tried to live a normal life and someone or people found out and they were trashed for it and it leads to a corruption arc, almost like a fallen hero arc, but for good reason- OKay it sounds less cringey in my head but I think you can get what I am saying  

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Yeah something like that. If I use my gift, I can save lives, but that's all I'll be doing. For example, if you had some kind of healing power you could save a lot of people, but how do you justify all the people that you can't reach. How much of yourself can you give before there's nothing left of you?

 

It's hard to be a villain with healing powers though. I mean the hero comes for you and you can... cure his persistent back-ache. "Aha! Hero-man! Thanks to my power, your acne is no more!"

 

Though if you could cure Tarantula-man... 

 

 

Goddess I miss Society of Virtue.

 

Hugs!

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Yeah I would have to find a power that is borderline good and bad. So I will brainstorming, 

 

ISN'T THAT LIKE SPIDER MAN- Oh maN  what is his story...

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No idea. He's very much a Spider-Man riff, but he's only in like three skits and they rarely go into origins, they just poke fun at superhero tropes. I apologize for any productivity lost due to watching their channel archives. I want the next season in the worst possible way.

 

Hugs!

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Pfff, thank you xD 

 

I finished school for the day and now just brainstorming ideas for stickers, since my friend and I were going to sell some once I move. 

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