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Ellie Jean

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BrandiBri

You mentioned that you're getting hrt from a nurse practitioner, I am getting my hrt from one as well. I am completely comfortable with her and wouldn't think of changing my provider. She is well versed in Transgender issues. 

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Ellie Jean

That's good to know. 🙂
Only reason I'd change my provider at this point is if I moved to Farmington Hills, Michigan, as Dr. William Powers of Powers Family Medicine would've been my ideal choice if location weren't an issue lol.

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Ellie Jean

I suppose what makes me a bit hesitant/uncomfortable with my local provider is that it's based out of a women's health clinic that performs abortions for the most part, and I'm largely pro-life. 😕

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Jackie C.
6 hours ago, Ellie Jean said:

Only reason I'd change my provider at this point is if I moved to Farmington Hills, Michigan, as Dr. William Powers of Powers Family Medicine would've been my ideal choice if location weren't an issue lol.

 

Oh hey! A friend of mine sees him. Of course Farmington Hills is maybe ten minutes from my porch.

 

Hugs!

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10 hours ago, Ellie Jean said:

it's based out of a women's health clinic that performs abortions for the most part, and I'm largely pro-life

Yeah, I know what you mean.   I had to work through this myself.  They do do a lot more than abortions though. 
I was glad when I could move to the VA instead.    

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Ellie Jean
11 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

 

Oh hey! A friend of mine sees him. Of course Farmington Hills is maybe ten minutes from my porch.

 

Hugs!


Coolness! I've heard he's like, the premier HRT guru to see and is a bit of a pioneer when it comes to advancements in transgender healthcare. XD

 

 

7 hours ago, Jandi said:

Yeah, I know what you mean.   I had to work through this myself.  They do do a lot more than abortions though. 
I was glad when I could move to the VA instead.    


Indeed; and at least the clinic I'm going to refuses to perform abortions beyond 12 weeks...but still; I looked up a 12 week fetus and it looks an awful lot like a little person. O.O

At the same time though I can also understand the need for abortion; I just feel it should be a last resort to save a life rather than an alternative form of birth control lol.

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4 hours ago, Ellie Jean said:

At the same time though I can also understand the need for abortion; I just feel it should be a last resort to save a life rather than an alternative form of birth control lol.

Not something to do lightly.

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