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Holly Brandt

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Hi  all I am new to this site but have found so much info it is not even funny, 

 About me in a bit older  55  I I like Her  and Holly as me :)  I have all the classic Issues only hiding it my whole life. But that is about to CHANGE !!!!!

I just came out to my first family member . Lost of stuff to work out lots of issues i need to get taken care of.  Please  Feel free to chat  with me  

I live in Tulsa Oklahoma  I have kids but fully grown and out of the house . Im on my 3 marriage . (now i know why) So where do i go from here  hmmmmmmmmmmmmm I have no clue i need to see a shrink  so yhaaaa 

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Hi @Holly Brandt, it's nice to meet you and welcome to Trans Pulse. I'm glad you've joined the community and happy to hear you've found the resources here helpful. i'm hopeful you'll find support here too as you begin your journey, and that the family member you came out to has been accepting and supportive of you. As you mention, a gender therapist would be a great connection to make at this stage.

Looking forward to seeing you around and getting to know you.

 

Love,

~Audrey.

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Hi Holly,

 

Warm welcomes! Thank you for sharing with us. I look forward to seeing you around the website.

 

Hugs,

Chloe

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Welcome Holly.  Like you i was not young when i came here.  Many of us were a bit older?.  I found that posting here and reading about the journeys of others helped my journey.  I also found a gender therapist who helped me understand myself.  Simply knowing i was not alone was a revelation.  We can help each other in many ways.  

Relax and enjoy your journey.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Hi Holly,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf?

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Welcome Holly!,

I came out/discovered who I was this year shortly after my 54th B-day so I know where you're at.  This community has helped me immensely and yes- a gender therapist is highly recommended. If for no other reason that if you decide to medically transition/HRT at some point you need one. They are easy to do virtual appointments with nowadays. 

It's gonna be exciting and terrifying all at the same time so reach out with your fears and your joys. We're here for you.

Hugs

Bri

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Salutations @Holly Brandt! Welcome to Transgenderpulse!

 

So yeah, 55 isn't all that old. I didn't come to terms with my situation until I was 48. I suspected and dreamed for a very long time before I decided to stop hiding and go for it. My only regret is that I didn't do it sooner.

 

A lot of us older gals have trouble with marriage. It's hard to build a stable relationship on a foundation of misdirection. We don't mean it, but if you can't be yourself with your spouse, you're asking for trouble. Some marriages survive, some don't. The odds are basically a coin flip weighted ever so slightly in your favor. I've done dumber things with a smaller chance of success, but I'm glad this particular one worked out for me.

 

So once again, welcome! We're glad you're here!

 

Hugs!

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Hello and Welcome Holly!

Live, love, laugh and feel free to explore. Glad to have you join us.

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Thank you all for the warm welcome Sorry thing are rocky at best I came out to my wife and all will be gone 

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Holly, "all will be gone" is really a really broad description. I too am new to this journey into exploring the femme me after not only hiding it from others, but hating myself & trying to deny how I felt for 45 years. We're about the same age. My wife has not taken my coming out to her very well, not only the "D" word was part of her reaction/ solution, but also that our family never know. At this point she has agreed to wait for me to have a few counselling sessions with a gender therapist & possibly some couples therapy. Statistically there's about a 50% chance either way with our marriage. Some sound advice from the wonderful people in the forum was that she doesn't get to decide how my children & grandchildren feel about me.

 

So, all that said, I'm not sure what all's going on in your life, but please know that you're not alone. Here you have friends who love & support you no matter what! 

 

Hugs!

Delcina

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Hi Holly,

 

Many of us have been where you are with similar reactions from our wives. Initial reactions aren't always the way it ends up. It was very rocky for me at times, but after about a year we are as close as ever. You are not alone.

 

If you haven't already done so, I also recommend seeing a gender therapist to help you with your journey. We will all be here to support you as well.

 

Hugs,

Mike

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I'm sorry for all the doom and gloom its very hard for me. I know i should be happy i am getting what i want right. The loss of a failed marriage by any means is not cool. This isn't any easier  I know time will heal my wounds but scars will be in its  place  and that will be stronger 

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Hi Holly and welcome. I know you will benefit from all the information available here. I have been trying to stuff the girl inside me back in for nearly 70 years and she won’t be denied. My wife tolerates my feminine side but I fear I would loose her if I fully transitioned.

 

So for now I fully accept that I am transgender and will need to enjoy the inner world of Sandra. She gets to come out and play everyday. I’ve used some online resources for therapy but no in person meetings yet. 

 

I send you you best wishes and hugs.

 

Sandra

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