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Delcina B

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Hi, I'm so glad you are here. This part of me has for too long been alone, confused and often ashamed thinking there was something wrong with me. I have felt & dressed as a girl in secret since I was about ten. I would go for periods in my life where I didn't, but always returning. I saw girls and admired everything about them; at times wishing for a magic pill to make me like them. Throw in testosterone & what a mess. Learning we have both estrogen & testosterone recently was enlightening, and while I don't know if it's scientifically proven does give me thoughtful hope as to explain why I am who I am. For the past two months I've been in a new phase, constantly dressed in women's underthings & all decked out nights & weekends. At first I felt intensely giddy,  but now its a really comfortable feeling. Just some regret when it's time to change back. I don't know where I go from here, but finding you & this site has given me hope that all will work out as it's supposed to.

 

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Hey @Delcina B! Welcome to Transpulse!

 

This sounds pretty familiar. You, me, my best friend in middle school (though I didn't find out until MUCH later)... Sometimes it was a pill, sometimes it was a process of some kind, sometimes I just wished really, really hard for the Boy/Girl gun from Teenagers from Outer Space.

 

So yeah, sit back, relax and join the discussion whenever you're ready. We're glad you're here!

 

Hugs!

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Thanks, reading the forums, I've found a place that fits. Speaking of fitting, figuring out sizes was fun. Maybe we can find one (boy/girl gun) on Amazon 😊

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14 hours ago, Delcina B said:

I have felt & dressed as a girl in secret since I was about ten. I would go for periods in my life where I didn't, but always returning.

Hi Delcina, Sounds like you and I have had some similarities in our childhood and early adult lives. I know that I tried so many times to purge it away but it’s all just a lesson in futility. The need to feel a little more like your true self doesn’t go away for long does it? Many of us come to this point of reaching out to find out what is really going on inside. I’m happy that you’ve found us. We’re here mainly to help others any way we can and to eventually become sources of advice, information and many times...friends. We share daily stories, trials and tribulations about ourselves and get sound help from others experiencing similar things. I think you’ll find it helpful as I have. I wish you the best on you continuing journey.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R🌷

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Hi Delcina,

 

Welcome to TransPulse. If you look around, you will find support here from others with thoughts and histories just like yours. You are not alone!

 

Hugs,

Mike

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Thank you all for welcoming me with open arms & emojis! I love the part about not being alone & not being afraid of being accepted! 🙆 Hugs

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8 hours ago, Delcina B said:

Thank you all for welcoming me with open arms & emojis! I love the part about not being alone & not being afraid of being accepted! 🙆 Hugs

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