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Willow McKenzie

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   I was born on a ranch in Arizona.  It was a long drive down a dirt road and then up a sand-wash for a few more miles.    My mother always wanted a baby girl, so all my baby pictures I'm dressed that way with bows in my hair.   When I was 3 I got a baby sister, so Ma would dress me in a cowboy hat and boots, (nothing else), and send me out the door with the dog.   I wandered allover until she called the dog and he showed her where I was.   Next, I started school and went to a one-room-school, (actually 3) plus the outhouse.  I was a quick learner so I was bumped up a grade to be with 3 girls.   My Mother (who was quite artistic) made paper-dolls for us all, and we all had fun making clothes for them.   When I was around 10 My Mother dressed me as a girl for Halloween.  That was my "MOMENT".   From that time I hoped to be re-incarnated as a girl after my "boy" life was over.    Next, I slowly started puberty and High School.  I had to ride the bus for an hour and a half each way.   I wanted to be in band, but part of it was after school, and I would have no way to get home.  So they put me in gym with smelly, nasty, boys.   I never had boys around or learned sports so they were mean to me.   I took the hardest classes, which were easy for me and I mentored some of the girls.   That angered some of the boys, so I got beat-up in gym while the coach wasn't around.  I ended up in the hospital for 3 days and lost one testicle.   I lied about how it happened, said it was an accident.  

   When I got out of college, I did what my Mother taught me to do, get a ranch, or a farm,  and a wife.  Raise kids and animals.   I was a long-haired "Hippy" with a girl from a wealthy family that thought country life would be fun, WRONG!   We divorced 10yrs later.  I had to buy her half of my farm back so I entered the toxic-male workforce.   They were mean to me until they realized  that I could figure out and fix all their problems.   Then it all turned around and they protected me from other threats.   It turned out that many of them were really nice and were just wearing ass-hole armor.   I paid off my farm, started a repair business on the side, and married another woman.   I shouldn't have married.   I swore I wouldn't fail at marriage again, so I kept turning the other cheek for 28yrs.   Well, it took all my savings and retirement plus 7yrs of payments and I am free again!    

   Going back a bit.   I never developed that "male" over the years being "one hung low".   When I was 50 I had marginal male function and my Dr. said I had very low T.   He put me on testosterone shots.  This was the first time I got to experience strong maleness.   I embraced it because I thought that was what had been wrong with me all along. Amazingly, I was still sweet and nice, just intense and impatient.  I did develop male-pattern baldness though, damn!   Well,  after 10yrs I got prostate cancer and they took it all away to save me, put me on finasteride.   I went into deep menopause and eventually tried herbal menopausal relief.  I tried PM and I felt right inside, finally!

   I got a satellite and went on the internet.   I learned a lot about everything including why I was a girl inside.   I Gooogled "Transgender and high IQ" together and found QUORA.   It didn't take long before I found MBTI.   I also found that I could be a girl in this lifetime.   I got a trans-friendly primary Dr. (5hrs drive) and I've been on E over 4yrs.  I have been a busy beaver ever since.   I hope I can be of help to others on this wonderful forum.  

   I apologize for the long tale, It is day break and I need to get bacon frying.   

 

    ---WILLOW---

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9 hours ago, David K. said:

Wow. What a story! Thanks so much. You inspire me.

Thanks again.

 

David 

Thank You!   Too bad I didn't find this site years ago.   I wish you well on your journey.  Feel free to ask me anything, any time.

 

   ---WILLOW---

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6 hours ago, Jandi said:

Wellcome Willow F

Oh Jandi,  When I wandered around in Transpulse before joining you had the personality out of everyone that just "stuck" with me.  What an honor to now meet you.

 

   ---WILLOW---

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On 2/28/2021 at 6:06 AM, Willow Farmer said:

I got a satellite and went on the internet.   I learned a lot about everything including why I was a girl inside.

Hello @Willow Farmer Great read! Your life was not an easy one but it looks like your doing very well now. Unraveling the mystery of who you really are and accepting it is so difficult. You’ve undoubtedly felt the freedom that acceptance brings. Thank you for sharing some of your story with us. I’m very happy for you and hope to read more about you and your continuing journey.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

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3 hours ago, Susan R said:

Hello @Willow Farmer Great read! Your life was not an easy one but it looks like your doing very well now. Unraveling the mystery of who you really are and accepting it is so difficult. You’ve undoubtedly felt the freedom that acceptance brings. Thank you for sharing some of your story with us. I’m very happy for you and hope to read more about you and your continuing journey.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

Thank You Susan.   Yes, My life is going pretty good right now and I hope it continues that way, and yes I feel the freedom.  At least I have new friends to ask for advise if it gets real challenging again.

 

   Much Love,

   ---WILLOW---

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Thank you!   I'm looking forward to exploring this site and it's members.

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