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Guest maplepower

I think I am trying to obliterate my betraying body by smothering it in fat. Now how fat do you have to get to no longer have a body? I thought Einsteinian physics would have come into play somewhere by now (eating pizza at the speed of light and all that), but it hasn't happened yet. If I successfully get so fat that I cease to be a body and become a worm whole, I'll let you know.

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Guest Evan_J

lol I seem to remember from another post that you were female-bodied?

Lemme let ya in a little fact, its common (at least amongst ftms) to try to figure out exactly how many pizzas you have to eat to obliterate the body :)

We do it because we don't like that kind of body and want "anything" other than a girl looking one.

If that sounds like it might be you raise your hand?

You are not alone. Many have trod the pizza-boxed path with you. The good news is there's T if you want it and body de-girlifying excercises if don't. (Or both if you feel like it.)

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lol I seem to remember from another post that you were female-bodied?

Lemme let ya in a little fact, its common (at least amongst ftms) to try to figure out exactly how many pizzas you have to eat to obliterate the body :)

We do it because we don't like that kind of body and want "anything" other than a girl looking one.

If that sounds like it might be you raise your hand?

You are not alone. Many have trod the pizza-boxed path with you. The good news is there's T if you want it and body de-girlifying excercises if don't. (Or both if you feel like it.)

Love your response. I am actually very moved by this experience. I am not random. I am not chaos. I am not alone.

What does one need to do to get T? And can I have pepperoni on it?

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Guest Evan_J

Pepperoni we have :)

Easiest way -unless you're sure you have a good relationship with your primary care physician- is to contact a gender therapist. There used to be a minimum time required before they could give a referal letter for hormones however very recently thats been removed.

I said a good relationship with the primary care physician because of that very removal; due to it, some physicians are now willing -after speaking with the patient themselves regarding the gender issue- to prescibe hormone treatment without a therapy letter. Its strictly a matter of physician discretion. For me, I liked go to a therapist anyway in the interest of "surity" and dotting the I's and crossing the T's.

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Obliterate your body? I don't think you really want to do that. If you did, you would just be a wandering brain :P actually, your brain is part of your body, so you wouldn't even be that.

If you think being fat will help you to look more masculine, you're wrong. You'll just look... fat.

And to have a mass great enough to collapse into a black hole, well that's a lot. Our sun is over 300,000 earths, and it still hasn't collapsed. So I don't think you're going to collapse anytime soon. Leave Einstein to the stars :P

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Pepperoni we have :)

Easiest way -unless you're sure you have a good relationship with your primary care physician- is to contact a gender therapist. There used to be a minimum time required before they could give a referal letter for hormones however very recently thats been removed.

I said a good relationship with the primary care physician because of that very removal; due to it, some physicians are now willing -after speaking with the patient themselves regarding the gender issue- to prescibe hormone treatment without a therapy letter. Its strictly a matter of physician discretion. For me, I liked go to a therapist anyway in the interest of "surity" and dotting the I's and crossing the T's.

Hmmm... I bet you are in America. True? Well, I'm lucky. I've got the coolest GP ever. We have never discussed any of this, but as a side specialty he is an expert on male and female sexuality. With the information I am gobbling up here I could probably have an open-minded and forward-thinking conversation with him about this. I'll post any info I get on T and top surgery in Canada for any other 'Nucks.

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Obliterate your body? I don't think you really want to do that. If you did, you would just be a wandering brain :P actually, your brain is part of your body, so you wouldn't even be that.

If you think being fat will help you to look more masculine, you're wrong. You'll just look... fat.

And to have a mass great enough to collapse into a black hole, well that's a lot. Our sun is over 300,000 earths, and it still hasn't collapsed. So I don't think you're going to collapse anytime soon. Leave Einstein to the stars :P

I am not saying that I am consciously trying to hide my gender by being fat. Being fat is just being fat. Forgive me and all members feel free to let me know their honest feeling on the subject, but I use humour (with a "u") to try to say difficult things sometimes. It is not meant to be frivolous or disrespectful. It is just the way my mind works, grows and sometimes heals.

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Humor.... no "u"....

I don't think humor is disrespectful. I use it too at times.

I thought you were trying to hide your gender.. Sorry, I guess I had it wrong. So then, what exactly did you mean by this?

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Humor.... no "u"....

I don't think humor is disrespectful. I use it too at times.

I thought you were trying to hide your gender.. Sorry, I guess I had it wrong. So then, what exactly did you mean by this?

Yes, my point was that I am trying to hide my gender. I apologize for any confusion I've caused. I'm new here and me not so bright sometimes.

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Humor.... no "u"....

I don't think humor is disrespectful. I use it too at times.

I thought you were trying to hide your gender.. Sorry, I guess I had it wrong. So then, what exactly did you mean by this?

Wow, I do sound contradictory and confused. Time to shut up, read and learn for a while.

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Hmmm... I bet you are in America. True? Well, I'm lucky. I've got the coolest GP ever. We have never discussed any of this, but as a side specialty he is an expert on male and female sexuality. With the information I am gobbling up here I could probably have an open-minded and forward-thinking conversation with him about this. I'll post any info I get on T and top surgery in Canada for any other 'Nucks.

Yep I'm one of those to your south :P Which means I really know nothing about how it goes there :unsure: But definately post what you find out, a lot of people to the north ask.

It's actually me you're lookin for April :) (fat and gender)

And yeah, fat is fat, its that often (at least I heard and thought it myself pretransition) often we ftms don't care so much about being fat. Fat we can be as long as it doesn't make the top look huger or the bottom look more "distinct". No, it may not be male, but it musses up that number 8 shape. And really theres a point were if thats all we can get a lot of us will go for it. It becomes a matter of one part of the body (stomach) "overshadowing" the other (esp top) . Better to look like a balloon with "globs, probably due to fat" than .....those things. Plus, I'd rather you go "eeeew yuck" at my fatness than actually look at my top in any way that remotely resembles a man looking at a top :mad:and then turn around and add insult and say "girl" in your mind :mad::mad::mad: We're talkin ingredients for me to mentally grind you up and rinse you down a sink.

"you" in general I'm meaning

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Wow, I do sound contradictory and confused. Time to shut up, read and learn for a while.

Well, all of us make mistakes, and we love to confuse others and ourselves. It's no big deal. We'll get everything figured out sometime :)

And Evan, if you want to be fat, well, go for it, but I advise you don't take it to a level that's unhealthy. As for me, I would rather stay away from being fat.

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And Evan, if you want to be fat, well, go for it, but I advise you don't take it to a level that's unhealthy. As for me, I would rather stay away from being fat.
Seeee thats just it, with T and the option of havin the "things " removed then its a terrible idea and I'm all about being healthy :P

Transition.

Its a reliever of a lot of nutty, drastic, unhealthy conclusioms :)

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Humor.... no "u"....

Have you lost your mind, girl? Humour is obviously spelt with a "u"! :P (only jokin' you, I promise)

maplepower, if you want to do hormones in the future, then not gaining loads of weight is probably in your best interest. Actually, purely from a health perspective, it's not in your best interests either way, but I know what Evan's talking about.

...I'm actually allergic to pizza... :( I'm allergic to cheese, if you can believe that. Not lactose intolerant though, so I drink lots of milk.

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Have you lost your mind, girl? Humour is obviously spelt with a "u"! :P (only jokin' you, I promise)

Of course not :P:):P

Allergic to cheese? But not milk? Hmm... that's interesting.

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