Non-binary who hopes to seek others who have had a mastectomy. Anyone else struggle with this?

[Alex_V]

Hello all, 

 

 Name is Alex and for about 15 years now I have struggled with my body dysmorphia- specifically referring to my breasts. I identify as nonbinary and don't prefer any pronouns. My legal name is Alex and that's what I prefer people to call me. I'm 6 ft (born female) and have size DD? (i dont know because I only wear sports bras...never been properly fitted for a bra but trust me, they're hard to miss) and again, for about 15 years have always worn double sports bras, taped them down, smush them across my chest so it looks like theres just pec muscles. I am a very outgoing and confident person but I know this has been limiting me for the past 15 years. I'm never comfortable having them out during sex, and everything else that involves them. I have called doctors offices to get quotes, briefly spoke about body dysmorphia to a therapist (who wasn't that great so that was a one time and done type of thing) but even if im home alone I dont choose to walk around topless (although I so desperately want to) because they're just there.... hanging out.  

 

I really hope/pray that someone on this forum has gone through a similar experience and has chosen elective surgery to remove them. if this is you, PLEASE reach out to me. I would love to hear your experience. 

 

Thank you all for your time. Have a wonderful night.

[Willow McKenzie]

Welcome to Transpulse, Alex!  

 

   I am fairly new here and I just wanted to let you know that there are fantastic people here.   I'm sure you will be talking with others who have the same struggles as you soon.   I fully sympathize with you and respect your issues.   I just happen to have the exact opposite problems and needs.   You can still talk with me any time about any facet of gender issues.   I am far more Non-Binary, just from a female spirit.

 

   much love,

---WILLOW--- 

[Delcina B]

Welcome Alex! I can relate to your dilemma in the opposite direction though, I'd like mine to be bigger. I haven't come to the point of surgery yet. I'm waiting to meet with a therapist to work through my gender journey. I can't speak from experience & likely you'll find someone here who can, but I would probably also try finding another therapist.

 

Hugs!

Delcina