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If I was AMAB enby & I felt a part of my body was too feminine, would that be gender dysphoria?


Kakileli

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If you were not making it up - I'd say yes.

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THE PERSON would have to decide that during sessions with their Gender Therapist.  For some individual, it could be, for another Enby person it may just be a normal feeling of growing up that comes on and disappears as a feeling in a few months or less.  ALL teenagers Cis/Trans/Enby go through periods where their bodies do not look right and give them some form of distress, but if it is actual GD is up to each one and their therapy team to explore, and as I said it is an individual realization.  Also it will not be a single body part likely to do it.  I am in my 70's and my two Cis teenagers are "deathly stressed" about whether their bodies look right, along with their AMAB sister and her stress is not related to her gender.

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You seem to have forgotten that not everyone has access to gender therapy. 

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6 hours ago, Kakileli said:

You seem to have forgotten that not everyone has access to gender therapy.

 

I have not forgotten that in the least tiny bit, I have been out and in the community longer than you admit to being alive.  My answer stands with the logical conclusion that such people cannot find one single and definitive answer for their lives until they are able to find some form of competent Behavioral Health assistance and medical direction.  We are not medical/Behavioral Health licensed individuals here but as I said many of us have been out 20 or more years.  I am sorry that proper mental health care is not available on demand by ALL people. I have put a good deal of work into changing that situation as others here can attest but it is a work in progress and a work facing some setbacks in current days.  @Carolyn Marie is another one of our staff who is not a licensed therapist but who is on the Board Of Directors of a Trans counseling non-profit corporation that is trying to help improve the situation as well. Without the Behavioral Health training and experience in proper counseling it is just going to be a guess on the part of the person themself and free advice is worth every bit of what you pay for it.  I may be old but I have not forgotten that sort of thing.  For now we must accept the things we cannot change and have the courage to change those things we are able.

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You seem to have forgotten that not everyone has access to gender therapy. 

All of our staff are well experienced in all transgender matters. Please show some respect toward what they have to say.  Vicky's suggestion of seeing a gender therapist is excellent advice.  If your parents are unwilling to permit you seeing a gender therapist, then you'll have to abide by their wishes. Once you turn 18. you'll be able to make your own decisions. I know 5 years is a long time to wait but unless your situation changes, this is something you'll have to do. My advice to you is to stop making an issue of this with your parents. The more you argue with them, the more grief you'll get back.  If in your own mind you know what gender you are, then it doesn't matter what others think.

 

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