Convert to Islam

[MadinahLuv]

Hey y'all, and Assalaamu Alaikum wa rahmatallahi wa barakutuh!  (Translation)  Peace be upon you and his mercy and his blessings

 

My name is Madinah and I am a convert to Islam who has been questioning whether she is a trans woman for the past few months, and I finally feel like I should reach out, because just holding these feelings inside of me has been exhausting. The thing I am most concerned about is my place in the Islamic community given my convert status and how when I say salaam I am oftentimes ignored. Further, I am kind of afraid because while I am bisexual I am mostly attracted to women, and I am afraid of having difficulties finding a spouse who I am attracted to (i.e. just about any woman or select men) because I am afraid to be ugly. Finally, I am scared because I know that transitioning is going to be dramatic as heck (I imagine it to be like converting to islam times 20) and I don't know if I have the strength! But I have to. Can anyone help give me advice surrounding the general topics of reducing anxiety and how I can find community as a convert to islam who is queer and trans? As a side note, I was thinking about getting a gym membership and would like advice on how to gain mass (I am a scrawny blank canvas right now lol) in the direction I am looking to, that is femininely, and not become some bulky man? I heard yoga helps? Thank you all! BarakAllah

[Jackie C.]

1 hour ago, MadinahLuv said:

As a side note, I was thinking about getting a gym membership and would like advice on how to gain mass (I am a scrawny blank canvas right now lol) in the direction I am looking to, that is femininely, and not become some bulky man? I heard yoga helps?

 

This part I can help with. Yes, stretching is key and I absolutely recommend yoga as a path to get into better shape. If you're taking HRT, and stretching regularly (callback to the yoga) moving weights can help too. They'll help you get more definition than yoga will alone. You'll probably also want to add more protein to your diet. That'll help you build muscle mass while avoiding the weight gains that can come with HRT.

 

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