17 Signs I was Transgender and didn't know it.

[swallow]

...ah I see BJs auto-corrects/self censors itself to wind chills!

 

Sounds so cold and frosty..I've never given any of those.?

[Vini]

18. NSW. You were groomed, pursued , hit on by teachers, priests, brothers, classmates,  co workers, or male friends. You didnt know they were gay or bi or straight, and you never felt like coming on to men, maybe you were just attracted to girls. Maybe they got you on their couch, or bed or office.  But you only felt like they saw you as a female object of affection.  Then in the back of your mind youre thinking, if I was a female, or even had long hair and dressed like a female, maybe you could make love to this person.

19.  Maybe while you were making love to women, not to brag but, they were really enjoying getting oral, being entered, and pumped for as long as you could hold out. And you start wonder what it would be like to be made love to.  How great it would be to just lay back and just take it like a female, not just dress in womens clothes, could I become a female ?

20 And over the years, there was no one you could talk to about it, but it kept popping up in the back of your mind.  You did research when you could, your ears percked up when ever it was mentioned. You started to experiment, you always paid attention to females to discover what you felt like you were missing.

[Jackie C.]

13 hours ago, swallow said:

As "the male" I felt the pressure of having to (literally of course) 'Stand and Deliver'?

 

Yeah, see I just changed the mission parameters. So long as the target explodes, the, um, missile detonating was secondary to the primary objective.

 

Hugs!

[Ivy]

Number 18, or variations thereof.

 

I've always been pretty clueless about such things.  (Truth is I'm very inexperienced in these things)  But I have been told by observers that there have been times I was being hit on by gay guys.  And I do know that some have assumed I was gay at times in my life.  So much so that I wondered about it myself.  But I was never attracted to guys, straight or otherwise.

 

Having said this, there was one time when I was sleeping in the same bed as a guy I was running with at the time.  This was back in the day*, and neither of us even owned any underwear, so…   In the middle of the night he rolled over and started (in the missionary).  I don't really know why, but I didn't try to stop him, and I did get off on it.  I'm not sure if he was really awake or not - we never talked about it, and it only happened once. I felt like I was a woman while it was happening, and I liked it.

 

It was not long after that I met my ex and things went in that direction.

 

Since we split, I can't help but wonder what would have happened if I had realized that being transgender was a thing, and had had the opportunity to explore this.

 

Having said this, I don't regret having a traditional family.  And they are supportive of me now.  So that has worked out in my favor.

 

* I was actually still a virgin at the time - I said I'm pretty inexperienced!

[Nikki-C]

@Jandi

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I've always been pretty clueless about such things.  (Truth is I'm very inexperienced in these things)

 

Based on my past experience, I can honestly tell you that its not the quantity, but rather the quality that counts.  Quality becomes an 'in search of the holy-grail' trying to latch on to anything that has even a remote semblance of emotional feeling attached to it.  Otherwise the experience, like all of those before it, becomes lost within the noise threshold of your memory.  Not even worthy of remembrance.

[Jackie C.]

1 hour ago, Nikki-C said:

@Jandi

 

Based on my past experience, I can honestly tell you that its not the quantity, but rather the quality that counts.  Quality becomes an 'in search of the holy-grail' trying to latch on to anything that has even a remote semblance of emotional feeling attached to it.  Otherwise the experience, like all of those before it, becomes lost within the noise threshold of your memory.  Not even worthy of remembrance.

 

They need to be less ambiguous though. I mean, wouldn't it be neat if on, say your tenth birthday, the Transgender Flamingo arrived on your doorstep with a bundle of puberty blockers, a pride flag and a festive greeting card?

 

 

Hugs!

[Nikki-C]

@Jackie C

Aww, that is so cute ?

 

 

[Vini]

@Jandi I know what you mean about clueless. Its embarrassing when your Daughter tells you later "Dad, that guy was hitting on you".  And @Jackie C. I wish the flamingo would come when you 14 yo and warn you that people may molest you when you least expect it. And you may have mixed feelings about it.

[Beatriz]

@Jackie C. I would trade all past tooth fairies and Santas for one timely Transmingo around age 14!

[Vini]

Also @Jandi not to belabor the hair topic, but I have heard that older mtf trans have an advantage in hrt transition, since they don't have as far to go compare to cis women of the same age.  Since Menopausal women experience hair growth and hair loss, and other hormonal changes.  So there may be many women out there who are balding on top, and their hairdresssers take care of them with wigs, extensions and or styling.  So you may be just be one of the older girls who are attractive in scarfs, berets and wigs.  My one experimental wig length was very enjoyable flowing around my neck and shoulders as you commented once.

[Ivy]

2 hours ago, Vini said:

So there may be many women out there who are balding on top,

Yeah, this is true.  I saw one at the store not long ago that was about as bad as me.   She just went about her business.  It actually made me feel a little better.  It is true that as we age, cis men and women start looking more and more alike - just old.  That's an advantage us older trans folks don't appreciate nearly enough.