So, I think Ive changed.

[HollyElizabeth]

I'm not sure this is where this belongs, so if its not, please move it.

 

OK, so i was looking at my before and after photos and I do think Ive changed. I don't see the boy I used to be, more the woman I've become. It's only been less than 11 months and I can see a big change in me. I'm more outgoing, I don't hide from view so people can't see me, I'm happier. I've lost over 60lbs in those 11 months. I'm getting better at putting on makeup and being my real self. I love the real me.. Things have changed for me, I get asked out on dates by both men and women. I haven't been on any yet, but that's because I'm not quite ready to take that step. I rarely dated as my old self, its kinda scary if I can be honest. Going from no attention to having people wanting me is a bit overwhelming. This is all new to me. Oh and I have made real friends now. I didn't really have many as my old self. I love it. Anyway, I'm loving just how much I've changed over the 11 months..

 

Here is a before and now pic of me.. I love the me that I am now. I ❤️ you all!

[Jani]

Holly I think you've changed quite a bit!  Just the societal changes are big!  I think many of us become more outgoing.  This is a facet of transition we never consider.  

1 hour ago, Holly Elizabeth said:

I'm more outgoing, I don't hide from view so people can't see me, I'm happier. I've lost over 60lbs in those 11 months

Making friends is easy when you aren't afraid and you put yourself out there to meet others.  Congratulations on the new you! 
Jani

[HollyElizabeth]

Thank you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[Red_Lauren.]

It's funny how hormones work. Since we see our faces/body's daily. We don't think munch is happening. Till a friend comments, or you see a old photo. I personally didn't think my face changed munch at all. Till I saw my last known male photo from October, and compared it my face now. Even my coworkers didn't think it was me.  I'll attach a few pictures at the end..

 

As for the friends part. Its still up in the air for me. I have my trusty inner circle. Who are like family to me. What I have noticed is how munch more social woman are with eachother compared to men. Even woman they don't know. I have met a lot of great woman from work. Are we friends? Yes and no. We chat at work, and some times go out together, we will vent once and a while to eachother, but being the oldest one at my job, and im old enough to be a parent to a few. It's harder being trans, ans a generation older then them, and trying to be friends with them. 

 

What I find funny is when a woman is rambling on. Even if its a friend. My mind gos in to limp mode still. I process what I deem the important stuff is, and forget the rest. There are days where I just want to hang out with my male friends, drink beer, and not have to talk about any thing important. 

 

[Jani]

There's an old saying that "fish see water last."   We that are involved in change typically don't realize the enormity of our progress. 

 

Jani

[Beatriz]

Wow, amazing progress, @Holly Elizabeth and @Red_Lauren.!

[Red_Lauren.]

13 hours ago, Beatriz said:

Wow, amazing progress, @Holly Elizabeth and @Red_Lauren.!

Thanks. 

[HollyElizabeth]

Thank you, I don’t see my changes because as it was told to me that I’m too close to me. It’s something that I have to realize even though I can’t see it. It wasn’t until I saw side by side pics that I noticed. I’m happy for my changes. I’m happy that so much has changed for me. I’m just happier in general.