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Hi,

 

Just trying to understand Non-Binary from folks who identify as such.

 

As I am due to go in for an HRT consult at the clinic shortly, I've been mulling about my identity.

 

So questions :

 

1) Does Non Binary imply one is not too concern if someone genders you either way? 🤔

 

I was OK being gendered either way bc I felt I was still a half way house.

 

However my friend (My Straight friends seem to be quite invested in making sure I'm happy even if they do not understand any of it), was asking how he should address me bc he felt it was a big deal for me and he did not want me to just shrug things off if it really made me uncomfortable. So he asked me if I was upset if I was misgendered.🤔

 

I told him I did not think I would ever personally feel I was a woman bc I could not deny my male side or past nor physically entirely become a woman.

 

OTOH it did bring me back to moments when despite what I say, I felt bad when wrongly gendered as male (Mostly I pass but my vocals give away the game and then comes the correction)

So I wonder if Non-Binary folk are less concern with misgendering either way?

 

2) Do Non-Binary feel less concern about genital dysphoria?

 

Again I'm somewhat in the middle with regard genitals. I'm love/hate here. Well maybe not so strong words but much as I like the idea of having female genitalia, it isn't a bed of roses either and comes with its own set of problems. There's no such thing as perfect for me.

 

I suppose if I had to imagine perfect, I don't need a vagina or anything just something I can wee with but does not stick out so rudely (and inconveniently)😒

 

Since this isn't life, I've pretty much endured with what I have and learnt to live with it although I get bouts of just wanting to (as I told my late partner) wanting to take it off and hang it by the door on a hook.

 

How do Non-Binary feel about genital dysphoria?

 

Sorry just trying to find out more. I have my Drivers License Sex identity marked down as Non-Binary since this is the third option available to me.

 

I feel deep down very feminine but I've never felt I belonged in the female category since I've grown up liking a lot of male elements to my life as well like example sport.

 

Even here its strange bc I like sport and I am quite competitive since I use to be physically the smallest and had something to prove I suppose. But I was never terribly aggressive.🤭

 

There are so many elements that make me feel a Non-Binary identity suits me balancing both my worlds but yet the above two has got me thinking I'm not bc it seems to bother me terribly deep down even though I prefer to outwardly as my friend mentioned 'shrug things off'

 

I prefer not to label myself of course as I feel I am on a journey and there is no need to till I get to a point I know where I land.🙄

 

I'm still at this point in a 'Don't feel like I qualify as a woman' psychosis but t the same time I can't seem to feel comfortable in neutral space either.

 

Struggle.😔

 

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The answers to all three are the same.  It is up to you to decide these things for yourself, not others.  I am glad you are easy enough with your friends that they want to honor you, but there are no correct answers here without your deciding what they are.  Sounds like some time to see a Gender Therapist or any Therapist who is familiar with LGBTQ people and who can help you find YOUR answers.  Do not judge yourself by other people.  An Enby group I work with is all over the place for each one of them.  I use names and not pronouns as a middle ground. 

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Hi Vicky,

 

Many thanks.

 

Yah I'm just getting a last minute 'panic' I suppose since I am in the process of booking for an appointment for Nov1st at a clinic for HRT.

 

Its so difficult bc I love the feeling of being as a woman. even just going about doing every day mundane things seems to be more lighten when fully aligned to this persona.

 

There are male aspects that have held me back. But I have not felt I would be non-binary.

 

I'm not so sure what that entails if there were similar dysphorias (as mentioned) or if it was just conforming to a space which is more neutral between the two genders.

 

Perhaps if I felt I was non-binary, I may not need to have the HRT.

 

Or perhaps the HRT will give me further indication where I may feel more comfortable with.

 

Maybe I need to see my therapist again to just be certain.

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2 hours ago, swallow said:

I suppose since I am in the process of booking for an appointment for Nov1st at a clinic for HRT.

 

HRT MAY help you resolve some of your questions!!  If the hormones are "right" for your body you will know in a 30 to 90 day window.  I have a friend for whom the hormones did nothing which was actually helpful to them in picking a simply more androgynous life style and staying out of the high Testosterone areas of competition was enough.

 

2 hours ago, swallow said:

I'm not so sure what that entails if there were similar dysphorias (as mentioned) or if it was just conforming to a space which is more neutral between the two genders.

 

Male and female genders are becoming much more overlapping in many areas, and what would once have never been an option for one gender is slowly but definitely merging to the other.  I know Trans women working down at the San Pedro Harbor up at the controls of the ship-loading cranes, and some male friends being the absolute best early childhood development in central cities and so on.  You will do fine. 

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23 hours ago, swallow said:

1) Does Non Binary imply one is not too concern if someone genders you either way? 🤔

 

Hi, @swallow!  I wanted to reply to your questions, since I identify as non-binary.  First, I consider non-binary folks to include a wide tent, because it includes a wide spectrum of gender identities.  For me, that implies that it's likely that people who don't know you well (or who are just meeting you) will identify you in a binary manner, as either male or female.  Exception: your attending an event with other queer people who are much more adept at greeting you in a neutral and accepting way.  But out in general society, yeah, people do often tend to "sir" or "ma'm" me based off of a few visual or aural cues.  Now, does that bother me?  I've come to a personal decision that I won't let it bother me too much, because it's non-productive to get all stressed repeatedly.  And, I don't like wearing a "they/them" pronoun button on my lapel at all times.   But this will vary -- other non-binary folks may well have other reactions or ways of handling it.

 

 

23 hours ago, swallow said:

2) Do Non-Binary feel less concern about genital dysphoria?

 

 

Again, I'm only replying for me, but my personal answer is that dysphoria was/is a major concern for me, and was a primary factor in my decision to begin HRT.  Estrogen has dramatically improved my dysphoria, reduced my stress, and pretty much, after 22 months, reduced my anger to near-zero.  Obviously, a great many non-binary folks conclude that HRT is not the appropriate course for them, and that is perfectly fine. 

 

I had reached a point, just prior to coming out to my family and close friends, that I absolutely had no choice but to address what dysphoria was doing to me.  And so I did.   I began meeting with a gender therapist.  I read voraciously on the topic.  I spent six months full time working on a political campaign for trans rights with other, wonderful queer people. And I learned that what I was experiencing...was very common.  I wasn't really all that unique.  And there were many stories of people I could read and follow (including here on TransPulse) that helped me see ways to address my dysphoria.

 

Each person's journey is both common and unique.  Finding your path forward is full of non-trivial decisions and events.

But for me, it's been very, very much worth it.  I'm in a much better place these days.

 

With hugs and best wishes as you move forward,

 

Astrid

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On 10/11/2021 at 4:31 PM, swallow said:

1) Does Non Binary imply one is not too concern if someone genders you either way? 🤔

 

2) Do Non-Binary feel less concern about genital dysphoria?

 

 

There are no standard answers to these questions as every enby person is different, but I'll share my personal answers as a nonbinary identifying person. 

 

1) No. I'm afab. I don't like she/her. I kinda get a kick out or the rare "mister", but that doesn't feel quite right to me either. I think ultimately I prefer they/them, but as such I do not feel confident asking other people irl for that. I came up with s(t)/he(y) as a pronoun identifier (one of those random inspired thoughts in the shower) which to me means a whole spectrum of gender experience simultaneously, but not one distinct thing. 

 

2) If there's dysphoria at all, then it must be of concern. I experience genital dysphoria, but I speculate its different than the experience of a binary trans person. I don't feel I have the wrong genitalia, for instance (and I'm aware that not all binary trans people feel they do either). I see them on me, and I just think ew because they are so ladylike and that's not how I feel about myself. I'm not compelled to do anything medical about it partly because I don't even know what I'd do. I just endeavor to realize this perishable body is not my true self. 

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Hi All,

 

Many thanks for answers.

 

I suppose as Non-Binary, there is less compulsion to have to be int he other gender?

 

Vicky,

 

Many thanks. Good to know a rough window of time to reference. That might be physically at least the ultimate deciding factor. I'm horrible at keeping up with a regiment (lord knows the current exercise regime I've stuck to every Thursday is as regular as it gets). So I'm not sure how discipline I'd be with Meds. OTOH I do keep up with the brushing of teeth etc so should not be an excuse or would be a poor one.🙂

 

Astrid,

 

Yah I feel really good when gendered female albeit uncomfortable bc of voice. OTOH I want to make sure its not some sort of ego thing either (albeit everyone likes their ego stroke I'm sure). I feel like in everyday function, I operate as a woman but then most people who know me prob don't see anything different from before and there should be no reason to make much more than that of it.

 

I'm not (never been) effeminate but I'm not Manly man either so I do feel somewhat bridging the two worlds (As mentiond before appropriate since I am a Saggitarius). Which is why it makes me ponder about this Non-Binary identity.

 

But I just feel so drawn towards getting attention as a woman and yet at the same time terrified many times.🙄

 

Much of it isn't responsive to others but my own feeling of moving about the house normally but feeling feminine ALWAYS.

 

And it makes me feel good.

 

Vidanjali,

 

Totally agree with last part. We need to transcend all this in time but at the same time appreciate it in the now.

 

I suppose as I've been saying "I get there when I get there"😬

 

Really nice hearing from all of you. 😊

 

 

 

 

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