Interesting conversation with my mother

[Guest]

Had an odd conversation with my mother. I was gabbing about my endless obsession with human development and the conversation veered towards gender. I told her gender is neurological and not necessarily related to genitalia. It got a bit weirder after that, she asked if trans children always felt that way. I said in general yes. Sometimes, as they grow up, some decide they are just gay, but for the most part they know. 

 

The conversation started about how so many men think they are above women. I had told her to remind them that male genitalia is just repurposed female parts. It was rather surreal. I'm probably just being paranoid, but it did seem to subtly be about me? Oh well, I start therapy this week. Should be interesting.   

[Guest]

Interesting Jamie. My guess is that our mothers probably know a great deal more than we give them credit for. I remember my mother waiting in the dark looking at the entrance way to the bathroom one night. She sort of suspected I was trying out her Revlon makeup. She caught me. The funny thing is that she did not scald me all that much. She told me to make sure I wiped it off before I went to school, although I wish she had told me how to get it off better. She then asked me if I wanted her to buy me some. I turned red and went to my room. I was 15 then. Later she would catch me with a load of her old panties in my drawer during the summer. She asked me if I wanted her to get me some. Again, I swore I would never do it again.

 

A few years later I was at nursing school. She visited a few times my first year and she would bring me items to wear. The one time she gave me this top. I did not think any thing of it. I wore the top one day and one of the women in my class came up to me and asked me where I got it. She said she had one just like it. The bells just kept ringing. My mom passed away a few years and I had a long talk with her about why I had never remarried. I mentioned that there were things I wanted to say, but couldn't. Her reply was "I may know more than you realize." That was that. I think she knew a great deal.

 

Sincerely

Katie

[Jackie C.]

@Katie23, your mom sounds like she was supportive and pretty darn cool. More moms should be like her. I'm sorry for your loss.

 

Hugs!

[Guest]

I honestly think she was testing me after a while. Back then I had lost a bunch of weight and I told her that my jeans were really loose in the waist and tight in the seat. She gave me a pair of her lady wranglers. They fit pretty good. I wore them to school a few days later. Someone commented on my new jeans and I stopped wearing them. I should have just jumped out the airplane and flew! Wasted, repressed years.